My family and I have been to hell and back twenty times in this life.

[onecaliberal]

We have played by the rules and have done everything asked of us. We scraped and clawed our way out of medical debt, and now just when we are close to having a tiny semblance of peace, we find ourselves in the struggle of our lives just trying to survive.

Making it all exponentially worse a soulless vapid evil dictator is busy night and day raping everything he can get his sub human hands on.

The icing on the cake it could be years before I can hug my grand babies.

I am very distraught and angry. Just can’t stop the tears today,

[woodsprite]

1. I'm right there with you. Hugs and understanding for you and yours from Delaware.

[onecaliberal]

8. Thank you.

[Ohiogal]

2. I'm so sorry

It’s especially infuriating when we try to do everything right, take care of our families, pay our bills, save our money, obey the law, and life throws us in the gutter while the odious self absorbed criminals and grifters always come out smelling like a rose.
I wish I could offer you a hug.

[onecaliberal]

9. Thank you.

[DonaldsRump]

3. Cry and then be outraged

We are all here to help. Don't give up.

For Trump, he will have his day of reckoning on November 3, 2020 at the ballot box. It sux to wait that long, but that means we need to fight his evil every day between now then. That's one of the things that keeps me going, NO MATTER WHAT.

[onecaliberal]

10. I am terrified that I will be made to return to work in less than a month.

I will not be able to protect my husband from exposure. If he gets this, it’s done. I can’t....

[DonaldsRump]

15. I don't pretend to know the future

But I would be pretty sure California doesn't open on May 4. Our kids' schools are basically shut down for the rest of the academic year (through early/mid June). I'm assuming you're in CA based on your name.

Also try to call all of your creditors (banks, credit card companies, landlords, etc) now. Most everyone is giving at least 2-3 months grace without a penalty or credit score reduction. Channel the sadness as best you can and turn it to settle things down financially as best as you can then.

Then be outraged when you're ready.

[onecaliberal]

17. I am in California. Our local school board seems hell bent on bringing students back on May 4th.

This is one of the reddest parts of California.

I can only hope the governor will not allow 45,000 students to return to 35 schools in our district.

[DonaldsRump]

30. We're in NorCal in probably the bluest part of the state

But we're all in this together. Thank the Good Lord (etc) that we have a decent and intelligent governor like Gavin Newsom. I would be pretty sure that CA will be shut down after May 4 given that he was pretty clear about the schools throughout the state being shut for the remainder of the academic year.

We are all in this together. DU is a GREAT place for this. Remember BHO's last lines of his 2012 victory speech. It may be idyllic, but it is still true to me (especially in CA):

I believe we can seize this future together because we are not as divided as our politics suggests. We’re not as cynical as the pundits believe. We are greater than the sum of our individual ambitions and we remain more than a collection of red states and blue states. We are, and forever will be, the United States of America.

[onecaliberal]

40. Thanks for the reminder. I remember when I watched him give the speech...

[TeamPooka]

32. school will not return until next fall. Newsome will see to it.

[onecaliberal]

41. I hope you're right.

[TeamPooka]

45. He's talked about it in his daily briefings

[onecaliberal]

53. Our Board meeting was the day after Newsom proclaimed

Last week that California schools should stay closed. I got an email 6 hours later saying they aren’t ready to “give up” on their seniors yet and that the decision to reopen school is local. 😳

[Meowmee]

4. Hang in there

[Afromania]

5. I know how you feel

Seemingly going from one crisis to another; medical, financial, emotional, and back again. You spend so much time managing through the tough times that you develop an innate sense for it. Almost like a clock that tells you when things are about to go south. You spend so much time waiting for the other shoe to drop that you think fondly on the periods of time when nothing was happening. Not the joyous times in life but the ones where literally nothing was happening..... In any case . I'd say things will get better but who the hell knows anymore

[onecaliberal]

11. 😢

I’m not sure if they will.

[Tech]

6. I feel the same, and cry when I need to. When I feel like giving up I think of my grandson

and my as yet to be born (June) granddaughter and how to fight this evil as long as I am still able to for their future. I also keep my anger because of them. Hang in there, you are not alone.

[onecaliberal]

12. Thank you.

[agingdem]

7. I get it...

my adult children think I'm depressed...I'm not...I'm pissed every time I have to put on a hazmat suit just to get the mail.. I am sad at the thought I may never see my children and grandchildren again.. my stay-in-place uniform is a pair of sweat pants an old tee shirt and a denim shirt...the denim shirt is to give the appearance that I don't sit in a chair watching Korean dramas 18 hours a day...and while I have a this-too-shall-pass attitude I am so fucking mad at what the loathsome orange piece of garbage and his band of slobbering sycophants have unleashed...and goddamnit I am going to live long enough to see Trump in handcuffs

[onecaliberal]

13. I hope we see that. I truly do but I'm not sure.

[agingdem]

20. well, I'm almost 72

and I'm the demographic trump wants to kill to save his economy and abbott from texas wants to sacrifice to save trump's ass...and hell yes I'm going to stay alive so that in November I can "pull that lever" and flush Trump and his minions down the toilet and into the sewer where they belong

[onecaliberal]

24. I really really really want to witness that too.

[calimary]

74. That works for me, agingdem.

Envision trump in handcuffs.

Lock him up.

[bluestarone]

14. I can relate to EVERYTHING you stated.

All i can say is please hang in there because WE need each other. Everyone on this site needs to be here to share our victory in NOV. THEN worry about what this BABOON will do until Jan 20th.

[onecaliberal]

18. i will crawl across broken glass in November to vote if I am alive.

[iluvtennis]

21. And I'll be right there with you paving the way. Stay strong and be positive. We'll see this through

[demtenjeep]

16. we are here

I think we all help each other in moments of anger/sadness/hopelessness



It happens to me often during each day

[onecaliberal]

19. Thank you.

I don’t know where I’d be right now without this place. Truly.

[demtenjeep]

22. I am with you

I think I post every other day a cry for help

We are here for each other

[mountain grammy]

23. I'm right there with you.

[mommymarine2003]

25. I'm thankful for this group.

When my son was in Iraq I found this group. It helped me immensely. Now we are in another crisis. My daughter called me in tears this morning. My Marine vet son called me yesterday and talked for an hour. Trying to calm them and comfort remotely while trying to stay calm and helping them through these frightening times is very difficult. I am trying to keep myself mentally strong and healthy for them and my husband. In the meantime, my sister has the virus, so last week was hell on earth when I worried about whether she would make it. Like all of you, we can't see our kids or grandchildren, if you have them, and we are all missing so many milestones in their lives. We did a family Zoom on Sunday. It really helped. Stay safe and healthy everyone.

[onecaliberal]

27. We're doing FaceTime and it definitely helps.

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Thank you and your family especially your son for his service.

[Grasswire2]

26. I don't know what to say except I care. And you are not alone. nt

[onecaliberal]

43. Thank you.

[bucolic_frolic]

28. I hear you

Many of us are fighting a series of things. Inactivity, dictatorship, the virus. Don't know what the purpose of it all is right now, don't know when or if it will change, I hear the uncertainty in the words of others, no one knows what to do. Plan purposeful activities parts of each day. Personally I find it very worthwhile to read fiction, or biography, it takes me out of the moment for an hour or two. Don't really know what to say to people I know, because I know we're all in this boat together in many ways, and don't want to make their situation worse.

Make plans for all possibilities good or bad, and all possible time horizons. Do good. I planted some chives in a few pots today, they will grow for years. Also taking relaxing tea. Savor the moment.

[warmfeet]

29. You are in the correct place.

We join here, and communicate here, to fight the crap. We are so going to win.

[MLAA]

31. These are for you 😻

💐💕🌸🌷🌹🌻🌼💐🌿🌷🌷☀️🧁🍦🎀💖

[onecaliberal]

44. So very kind, thank you.

[SheltieLover]

65. We are all in this together

And I'm happy to chat about it with you. We are all grieving the shocking end to what was once normal. I interned as a bereavement therapist. 😉

[onecaliberal]

67. I've had my share of tragedy and relearning to live.

I’ve grown accustomed to a new normal on my share of occasions.

I’m so pissed off because this did not have to happen. Anyone else would have taken the time to prepare. Anyone else would currently have a well coordinated response and be moving heaven and earth to get our front line hero’s EVERYTHING they need. I find myself hating republicans with a fair amount of intensity.

[SheltieLover]

68. Yes!

I feel exactly the same way! Completely unnecessary! 🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬

Have you tried writing about your feelings?

Dr. Pennebaker's work in journal work to heal trauma is amazing:

[link:https://www.createwritenow.com/journal-writing-blog/bid/89547/writing-therapy-lessons-from-dr-james-pennebaker|

[onecaliberal]

71. Thank you!

[SheltieLover]

75. YW!

[KT2000]

33. Hope

Know there are brilliant people working day and night to find solutions. Vaccines and antibody test among other things that will help us live with the human connection again.

[onecaliberal]

46. From your keyboard....

[bronxiteforever]

34. I am sorry. I will keep you and yours

in my best thoughts and hope you can keep your head above water until the Orange Menace leaves. Peace, Bronxite

[onecaliberal]

47. Thank you.

[Pillow talk]

35. I'm so there with you. Crying is good for my spirit. its wrong that we have to.

[Chainfire]

36. Hang in there

This too will pass.

[gademocrat7]

37. Take care, onecaliberal

[Sunriser13]

38. I cry with you, dear.

I'm having lots of days that it seems the smallest thing turns on the waterworks. My cats are now quite sure their mom is nuttier than a fruitcake...

This is an ugly time with an ugly so-called leader.

Hugs to you, virtual of course!

[onecaliberal]

48. Thank you. Socially distanced hugs back.

[pwb]

39. Been there and will be again.

.

[malaise]

42. Tears are cleansing

but this is hard to take - it did not need to happen.

[onecaliberal]

50. The thing that angers me, at every step and every level, that POS has made everything more difficult

and as hard as it could possibly be. He’s miles out of his depth but republicans would rather see 200,000 dead Americans than stop a madman, whatever their crimes, they’re desperate to keep hidden.

[malaise]

51. It is very hard to process

and he sure is out of his depth

[bluecollar2]

49. I'm not in the same situation as you

But know that the tears flow without warning here from time-to-time....

[onecaliberal]

56. It is a deeply sad and distressing time for all.

[SheltieLover]

52. HUGS SWEETIE!

But at least you & your family are safe & have somewhere to live & food.

Try making a gratitude journal. List 3 things you are grateful for each night before bed. Number your entries. Afyer yoj make your 3 entries, reread the entire list. It can really help to lift your mood.

[onecaliberal]

54. Thank you.

[SheltieLover]

58. YW!

Seriously try the fratitude journal. It can be any 3 things: sunshine, new shoelaces a cool drink of water ...

It is the process of focusing on gratitude, esoecially right before going to bed. As we are falling asleep, our brains are reviewing & encoding memories. 😉👍

[onecaliberal]

59. I am definitely going to do it.

[SheltieLover]

60. Yaaaay!

Let me know how it works for you?

[onecaliberal]

62. I will, thank you for the suggestion.

[SheltieLover]

66. YW!

😊👍

[Victor_c3]

55. I totally get what you're saying. The solace I get is we will win big in November

This will be just time for us to hopefully enact massive change in the country. I don’t think it’s too far to think that we will finally get a single payer medical system, we’ll finally get a more robust social security system, and (hopefully) corporations and the influence they have on our economy and political system will be curbed.

I want to see policies that tax corporations heavy, so they can pay for the destruction they cause on our economy when their destructive policies drive them to implode and we’re forced to dole out trillions and of dollars to prop them back up.

[onecaliberal]

57. It certainly would be something big to come out of this terrible time.

[sprinkleeninow]

63. I am having a vision of COVID-45 and his cohorts

losing their idolatrous $$$ and go destitute penniless into the night and incarceration. Whether literal or of their minds. Whatever semblance of minds remain. Apropos.

[MerryBlooms]

61. Don't let the bastards break you.

You are blessed with a wicked smart Governor, who believes in science and not bullshit spewing from trump's press conferences. The states are finding ways to circumvent the treacherous pirates in the executive branch. My Governor Brown up here in OR (howdy neighbor), is also competent and joined with Newsom and Inslee in the beginning to follow the science and do the right thing by our country.

I too, clawed my way back from medical debt catastrophe... I was tracheostomy ventilated because of ARDS for months. In and out of medical coma. When I graduated out of the hospital unit I was in, the nurses through me a little party. There were balloons tied to my bed. I didn't understand and couldn't talk, because I was still traec'd. They told me it was because it was rare someone left their unit alive. So, I know what it's like to have your lungs fill with fluid over and over, that feeling of drowning. When I left that unit, I was taught how to suction my own lungs... then, unfortunately, my ass was back in their unit a short time later. Not sure how long I was there, but in between, I was transferred to the heart unit. I was in hospital for 5 months fighting for my life.

I know what these people are going through, what their families are going through. The news of all this has my traec scar tissue hurting again every time I swallow, I had gotten to where I could ignore it. Now though, it's a constant reminder of what is happening to people all over the world.

Stay strong, do not let yourself be consumed by the evil of trump. Read the good stuff about winners and survivors. You totally got this!

[onecaliberal]

64. Wow, you are certainly inspirational.

I hope you have everything you need to stay strong and healthy.

[MerryBlooms]

70. Honestly, that's only a small part of the

medical I've been through. The ARDS was part of an even bigger picture including spinal MRSA.

I figure, after all the laxatives docs put me on with the pain meds, I've probably shit turds bigger than trump.

Honest, we will get through this. When we come out on the other side, we will have our dignity and honor intact, unlike those in the cult. Our country will shed the plague of trump and his boils. Some how, find a way each day, to put a smile on your face, a spring in your step and strength to help someone who needs a hand up who is struggling even more than we are.

Plus, DU always got your back.

[onecaliberal]

73. Thank you.

[Demovictory9]

69. hang in there

[onecaliberal]

72. Thank you.

[Ilsa]

76. You are not alone. Not in your anger and frustration,

not in your fears, although I doubt many here have been through what your family has been through. You're among friends.

[BeckyDem]

77. Its good to talk about it, to vent. Its a terrible time and you have every right to be so upset.

[samnsara]

78. (((Hugs)))....its not your grandkids but its sent with love...

...and tears...

[bluescribbler]

79. You're in the right place.

All DUers share your pain. I too want to be here when the buffoon is defeated. May this criswis pass and may you hug your grandbabies again.