We have been cooped up since March 13. I broke down and cried huge tears today

[demtenjeep]

a combo of being cooped up, fear, anger, fighting with hubby and learning our family cruise is 98% cancelled and my sister is probably not going to be alive next year if we definitely have to postpone




I am just done

[sheshe2]

1. I hear ya, demtenjeep.

All I can do is...

[shanti]

2. Here

Everyone needs a good cry now and then. Stay healthy.

[captain queeg]

3. Sorry. Maybe just get in the car and go for a drive.

I did that today just to get out of the house. It’s sunny here and just drove out of town for awhile. I feel better for it

[VOX]

19. Excellent idea. I've done it, just cruised around a bit.

It does help. Driving engages different parts of the brain than sitting around the house. It does have a calming effect on “cabin fever.”

[mshasta]

4. Iam being cleaning my house over and over

so much junk we have , old pants that i will never ever wear again, junk dishes, newspapers, old pillows ,
Iam cleaning my my mind, do wherever you can to clean clutter, clean your depression,
we are here with you, lets start all over again

[Xipe Totec]

5. If the cruise is cancelled, you are probably saving her life and others.

We always count our losses dearly, but our wins we seldom value.

Everything you are doing by staying in, is saving lives.

You are the unsung hero of battles that will never be, because they never had to be fought.

[malaise]

6. You still want to go on a cruise?

Get together with your sis and the rest of your family for Thanksgiving

[demtenjeep]

9. yes

none of our other family had ever been on one. We all booked a suite last year and have all been paying all year long

[renate]

16. that must be INCREDIBLY disappointing! I'm really sorry

You saved up and were all excited about getting together and doing something luxurious and fun and special, and now, through no fault of your own, you can't. I'm genuinely sorry. Where were you going to go? Will you get credit to use to go on another cruise?

Edit: Oh my gosh, I somehow missed that your sister isn't well. Was this supposed to be a bucket list thing for her? Whether she was going to go on the cruise or not, it's awful that you have this worry about her on your mind as well as everything else. It really is too much to bear without a few breakdowns.

[chia]

23. I took a college course about 6 years ago on empathic listening. Reading your post, I wanted to tell

you just how beautifully empathic your response was.

You validated her feelings and felt her pain with her. Thank you for being you.

[demtenjeep]

35. Thank you

We will get a credit but for my sister, it likely won't matter.

We were going Western Caribbean



I know my problems are small-they just all collided today.

[renate]

41. "... for my sister, it likely won't matter": that is more poignant than words could ever express

I'm so sad for her and for you. It's just not fair. It's so absolutely awful.

[Siwsan]

7. I'm heading into week 4 of not leaving the property

I'm going to make my first trip out, for groceries, on Tuesday or Thursday (Aldi early opening days for the 'vulnerable' population). Also have to cash my tax refund checks. Then I'll likely be back home and in isolated solitude for the next 3 or so weeks, mowing and weeding. Honestly, if I didn't have this property to maintain, I'd be going insane, by now.

My brother was hit by the virus, and there was nothing I could do to help him. That was a very helpless feeling. Fortunately he is back up and moving. He stopped by, wearing a mask, to get some elastic I have for a friend who is making dozens and dozens of masks for local law enforcement and postal workers. We usually get together a couple of times a week,but this was the first time I've seen him in over 3 weeks.

And I think my cat, Sophie Stinky Toes, is getting sick of the sight of me. My constant presence is impeding her ability to get away with things.

[Shermann]

29. Just as an FYI you can deposit checks at most banks with their smartphone app and the camera nt

[Siwsan]

42. Interesting

Apps are a continuing 'challenge' for me. I use a few, on my phone, for social media and a couple of stores. It's probably silly, but because I really don't understand apps, in general, banking ones are way outside of my comfort level.

I know people are kind of hinky about cash, right now, but I need cash for the cannabis shop and when I shop at the local farmer's markets and roadside stands. And because of my fear of 'skimmers', I also always use cash when I fuel up my car.

Truth be told, until a few years ago the only thing I ever used a credit card for was airline tickets. Everything else was paid by check or cash.

[demtenjeep]

8. I also miss my students and we SPED teachers just got a shit ton more work to do

in addition to regular IEPs that have to happen remotely now we also have to do CLEP because of the remote thing. And they have to be done by the 27th It is like 10 pages per student

[dweller]

17. and the fact that you are able to think about these details and tasks

makes me think your big tears and release has allowed you to see
a workable future, and will pull through this stronger...

bright side, silver lining, chin up


✌🏼

[onecaliberal]

10. Sending strengthening peaceful vibes.

[DEbluedude]

11. Breathe...

My wife broke down last week. Similar feelings but different circumstances. I just held her and we realized how grateful we are for our times together. Although we believe that this country has been irreparably harmed, we will persevere and come out better for it. Our Nation will too.

[Squinch]

12. I'm sorry, my dear. I know you are a SPED teacher. Take a couple of days off.

Find someplace in the house away from everyone else. Do stupid mindless things and be responsible to no one else for a day.

These last few weeks have been insane and we all need a break.

[pnwest]

13. It would more surprising if you didn't

break down with all that going on. I hope something makes itself known to you as a source of strength and comfort.

[Atticus]

14. Anyone who has been "hunkered down", as many of us have, for several weeks and

says they have not spent some of that time in despair---for themselves, their families, their nation---is pulling your leg. Some of us cry; some of us cuss; some of us throw things. We are all entitled to vent in our own way.

I find it useful to not dwell on how long this will continue and just slog through one day at a time. You can do this. I think your post is even now generating kind thoughts, virtual hugs and good vibes from the DU tribe.

[mercuryblues]

15. I'm getting there

My Father in law was diagnosed with Pancreatic cancer last August. We had been going to Florida once a month to see him. He isn't supposed to make it until his birthday, which is next week. We haven't been able to see him since January. I am heartbroken.

I am pissed at that heartless piece of fucking shit squatting in the White House.

[demtenjeep]

18. I know my problems are petty compared to others but I can't escape my world

My sister has had colon cancer since 2016 had surgery and chemo x3 and radiation and last week met with her surgeon thinking they were going to remove the new areas and was told they wouldn't operate on her anymore


I am hopelessly overwhelmed with the SPED paperwork and the one thing I looked forward to is now gone

[LoveMyCali]

24. Don't minimize what you are feeling

We can probably always find someone who has it worse but it doesn't mean that your problems aren't real.

Be kind to yourself, maybe the family can't take a cruise but will be able to get together for a different kind of gathering. I'm trying to be optimistic that this can't go on forever and we'll be able to actually have family gatherings soon.

[MLAA]

20. Sending you 💕💕💕💕💕💕🌹🌹🌹🌼🌼🌼🌿

[onlyadream]

21. I've been crying all week

Lost a very very dear friend, and my family is making me crazy. It’s getting to me big time.

[Lonestarblue]

22. I am so sorry. I have one sister and I would be devastated if she were seriously ill..

And, like you, I’m going stir crazy and have been depressed over cancelled trips. I think what is hardest is not knowing when this will end and being able to plan for that. I’m sending good wishes for you and your sister and really, really hoping that you all get to take that trip.

[chia]

25. My heart goes out to you, and to everyone on this thread who is dealing with pain, fear, loss,

frustration, anger, and any other very, very human emotion. You are not alone, any of you, you are among friends, it's okay to give yourself permission to feel all these things so you can process through them. Sending you much love, hang in there, one step at a time.

[crickets]

37. Couldn't be said better.

to demtenjeep and everyone else out there.

[Flaleftist]

26. I'm sorry. That must be tough.

With cruise likes down and resorts closed, would a vacation rental be an option? If you are within driving distance of the coast, renting a home or condo on the beach for a week might be an option for a getaway. Public access points to beaches may be closed, but if you are residing beachfront, I don't think it would be a problem to go out there and there shouldn't be a crowding issue.

[warmfeet]

27. I am sorry.

This is so difficult. But,



We will get some things back, we will lose some things. I am losing my mind right now. I hope I get it back.

[roamer65]

28. Demtenjeep

Hang in there. Be strong.

[Texaswitchy]

30. We are all feeling that way.

I am on a farm and meet up with a neighbors next farm over and we talk on the phone.

We can see other but not very close.

It helps.

I love the farm but damn Austin is not far away


Just as well be on the moon.

[spanone]

31. ....

[LisaM]

32. This post breaks my heart.

So many people are making sacrifices. It's hard enough to be trapped at home, but when there are loved ones you can't help, it's a million times worse.

[sinkingfeeling]

33. It's been a depressing day /week/month for me as well. I'm all

by myself, hundreds of miles from nearest relative, watching all that I worked for go down the tubes. I will not have enough time left to rebuild.

I guess we just have to reach out to each other and keep going.

[handmade34]

34. ...

[DarthDem]

36. I'm so very sorry

Don't be done. Find something to focus on that makes you feel good. Get up each day and make the bed. Then stand there and think of what you just accomplished, and when you pass the bed for the rest of the day, smile at that. Set other small tasks for yourself that you can get done and that will bring you satisfaction. Above all, don't despair. We *will* get through this!

[a kennedy]

38. I hear you, and thank you for saying it..........

and thank you for saying it like it is......

[JesterCS]

39. I'm there with you. Lost a friend Monday

He had fallen down his apartment stairs, had a huge bruise on his head. Couple weeks later his friend found him knocked out in a pool of blood. Turns out he had an aneurysm and stroke. He was doing well, talking, moving, etc. Was a day away from an emergency surgery And he passed in his sleep. He was only 41. I'm still down about it. So hugs all around. We'll get through this.

[Upthevibe]

40. demtenjeep....I'm so sorry for what you're going through...

I agree with what some of the other folks have suggested like taking a drive or just getting away by yourself if possible. I'm also sorry to hear about your sister.......