You’re 16. You’re a Pedophile. You Don’t Want to Hurt Anyone. What Do You Do Now?

[MattSh]

Definitely a difficult read, but ultimately worthwhile, IMHO.

There’s no helpline for pedophiles who want treatment before they act. So a teen with a terrible secret had to find his own way to save himself and others like him.

By Luke Malone
Illustrations by Simon Prades

Adam was at his desk in the second-story bedroom of his family’s suburban home when he came across it. He had recently switched file-sharing programs to one that offered more content and faster browsing, and his downloading habit had increased in kind. There was now a constant stream of files whose names included acronyms such as PTHC, or pre-teen hardcore.

The boy in this video was fair-haired and looked to be about one and a half, his small, naked body tied up to restrict movement. A man’s torso entered the frame and the child began to scream. As he watched the scene unfold, Adam was transfixed, and then quickly revolted; he reached over and stopped the video. It wasn’t like anything he’d witnessed in the two years he’d been viewing child pornography. Until now everything he’d seen seemed to suggest that the kids liked it, but this toddler was clearly in pain.

He moved over to his bed, a twin with a sturdy, wooden frame, and lay down on the crumpled blue and white cloud-print sheet. Band posters clung to the surrounding walls. Directly across from the foot of the bed was a bookshelf housing an impressive collection of horror novels. Atop the shelf sat several chess and baseball trophies whose silver sheen had been dulled by dust, and he stared up at them as he tried to process what he had just seen. He felt, he told me later, a combination of anger, sadness, and confusion.

Seeing that toddler trussed up and in pain confirmed something he’d long suspected but now had to acknowledge. The man in the video was one of those guys they sometimes talked about on the news. Though Adam didn’t want to hurt anyone, he knew that, on some level, he was just like him. He was 16 years old, he was a pedophile, and he had to do something about it.

Complete story at - https://medium.com/matter/youre-16-youre-a-pedophile-you-dont-want-to-hurt-anyone-what-do-you-do-now-e11ce4b88bdb

[Warpy]

1. It would be very useful for Adam's group

to get involved in the creation and funding of high quality CGI kid porn. I think there are a lot of Adams out there of all ages, races, religions, and socioeconomic class who have made the connection that acting out pedophilia devastates the people they're attracted to: children. I imagine many have but the attraction is still there and sublimating it with kiddie porn and wanking is the most legal and moral outlet they have.

They're also difficult to treat from a psychiatric standpoint because the compulsion is so strong. Only by damaging them physically or mentally or both have pedophiles been truly "cured" of their primary sex drive.

There are all sorts of socially unacceptable sexual behaviors out there. If they involve adults, prostitutes can be paid to act them out. There is no way to act this stuff out with children without destroying the children and therein lies the major problem. Providing the pedophiles with substitutes like high quality animated porn and even sex dolls would help them cope.

It's either that or locking them up for life for looking at kiddie porn even when they have never acted it out with a real child just on the fear that they might act it out someday.

Adam knows real children hurt and cry.