The worst news has arrived. I have lost two pets within a 24 hour period
The damage to Morgan's colon, which they are pretty sure is a congenital problem, is too great. She would have a short life filled with hospital visits, surgeries, discomfort and medications. The wonderful veterinarian who saw her agrees with my decision.
I can't believe this has happened. It's like a nightmare.
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soo much!
I am so sorry. 
I am so sorry. 
But, I hope you know that your Sophie and Morgan (and all the others you have helped) had the life that they had (no matter how short) because of you.
I know you still have ferals and you, of course, have Madoc. May you find some healing from each other.
So very sorry, Siwsan. It is wrenching to read this morning. Loving thoughts to you during this most difficult of times.
That's brutal.
Short maybe but they were loved and cared for.
EDIT: realize one kitty was older - had a GREAT long life with you! BECAUSE of you.
so sorry for your loss.
I know that pain, you should know that you gave them happy lives & they knew they were loved. I've come to believe that's what's most important, to know you are loved.
I'm so sorry.
I can see from the responses to all your threads that our hearts are collectively breaking with yours.
Please let us know how we can help. This must have been a very expensive venture. Do you have a vehicle to accept donations? It won't heal your broken heart, but I, for one, am looking for any way at all to help.
That is a terrible loss and your grief must be overwhelming.
I can't do much but offer all my sympathy. I've been following your posts about the kittens and kept checking in all day yesterday to find out what was going on with Morgan - so very sad to hear about Sophie all of a sudden, and now Morgan.
Be comforted by the fact that you gave them good lives and they had your love. And Madoc and the outdoor cats still need you.
I logged on this morning to see how Morgan was doing. I'm devastated for you Siwsan. To lose one cherished pet is difficult enough, but 2 in the same day, I weep for you. The only consolation you have is that Sophie will be there at the "Bridge" to take Morgan by the paw and guide her over.
Morgan gave you lots and lots of love for the short time she was with you. Almost like she knew her time with you was going to be short and she got as much hugging and loving in as she possibly could.
As far as Sophie going, how heartbreaking you weren't there with her. For 14 years you were there for her and she was there for you. My girl is 15 and I can't imagine not being with her when her time comes. But then we don't always have a say in that.
Both you and Madoc will need each other in the coming days. While you at least have some understanding of what happened, poor Madoc will have no understanding about where all his buddies have gone and he will need you more than ever.
Be in peace Siwsan. I wish I could give you a hug. Just know in your heart, you gave Sophie and Morgan love and caring. They had a beautiful life whether short or long because of you.
You poor dear! All that kitten love was so wonderful and good, it brought light to all of us. Get as much rest as you can, you still have one baby to care for, he will really need you too now that he's the only one in the house with you.
It is a nightmare. There's no way to make it sound any better than it is.
I am so sorry.
I could barely read the other posts through wet eyes, but others have said it better than I can. Know that you are not alone in your grief. Loss is part of the risk of opening ourselves up up to such joy and love as these little beings bring to our lives. While you regret the loss, the joy and love will always be part of you. Morgan lived a little longer and a much better life in your care than she would have had without you. Sophie lived a longer, better, and happier life in your home. Cherish the good memories and give Madoc a hug and a kiss from me.
Her short time with you was filled with love and warmth, going both ways.
There really are no words.
and our hearts are there with you today. You were the very best fur baby mom they could ever have.
Lots of big DU hugs coming your way.
KY........
But they knew you loved them.....
Just not fair.
I've ever had to do. I dearly loved them all but had to end their suffering.
Hugs and tears for you, Siwsan.
What a terrible double blow.
At the very least, I'm glad you're sharing with us. LOTS of good strong pairs of shoulders here to buoy you up.
Having recently lost one, ourselves, I know a little bit of how you feel.
I wish these little fur babies lived longer.
And how Sophie was adjusting. This has to be heartbreaking, I have no words. One of my dearest friends in my life had a puppy who turned out to have a similar congenital condition. Her grandson bought her a puppy, he wasn't from around here, obviously went to some breeder, and the little guy was a Maltese and just the most personable and adorable little thing.
When he started having issues, I took her and the pup to my vet who sent us to a specialist who was trained at Cornell. We had to leave the little one there overnight and when we picked him up, she had bad news, there was no surgical correction like we hoped, nothing to be done. And it broke my heart since I had reassured my friend, an older lady, that he was my dog too. I loved him like my own dog.
But, like you, we gave him love and the best life possible. I still think of him all the time. But at least you still have a little one to love and who needs you. You've done such an amazing job and thank you so much for sharing them with us. 
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