getting a bit of a handle on what meds do what, but that will take time. but rem and deep sleep numbers r pretty bad. it give u a score, and i’m getting low 70’s.
big thing i got was that napping inst helping. it doesnt track them as a separate sleep, just rolls them into the night totals. but clearly they are light sleep that isnt doing much but wasting time.
so, i’m gonna try to resist, and see if it makes my night sleep better.
w more activity on top of it, hopefully i can get better. sleep is everything in my world. i get so very stoooopid when i’m exhausted. it discourages me. i need to find things i can do when tired that takes no brains. cleaning works. even zoning out at a screen, as long as it’s something good, not doomscrolling, seems good. puts me in a decent mood.

it does seem to be helping to keep track of it all. i need encouragement, and the numbers make me happy.

like i said, it’s my sleep i most want to look at. it’s been a problem for quite a while.
it’s mostly my breathing issues that wake me up. usually wake up and pee once a night. but lately it’s been worse. 2-3 trips a night, waking way to early.

well, 2 nights of data and yeah, i’m getting rly shit sleep. i take a couple meds at night, some bendryl to keep sinuses dry and make me sleepy and some melatonin.
also sometimes take ibuprohen if i have any aches, and a muscle relaxant if i’m feeling twitchy.
w the full complement, i seem to sleep pretty well.
i wanted to start w the basics, and get some baseline. see what’s helping.

but damn. minutes of rem sleep and less than 2 hrs of deep sleep out of 7.
well, now i know.

i’m sharing a post from my fb page, where ppl know me. i’m not sure how many blanks there r here for folks who dont know my trials and tribulations w this body. feel free to ask.

well, i got a new fitbit. have had a couple, mostly to keep an eye on my shitty sleep.
but at this point if i dont pay more attention to my health, i’m old and decrepit in no time. and for good. ugh. i’ve stayed away from the medical/industrial complex the last couple years. had some bad interactions early in the plague.

strangely, both of the docs that i had issues w abruptly retired. so i dont have to go through the whole switching thing. my pcp had another doc in the practice that i liked.
was interested to see that many of the rheumies they have now mention shogren’s as a focus, which is a totally new thing.
it took me almost 20 yrs to get a doctor to give me a name for the thing that has subtly f’d up my life, esp in the last 20 yrs. but rly going all the way back.
maybe these days they do more than treat the symptoms and pat u on the head.

i’ve put a whole lot of things in the- after i fix the money thing- basket. my health is the biggest thing in it. all else rests on that.
i’ve been pretty good about daily yoga for a while now. at the point where it is energizing instead of exhausting, which is HUGE. i used to have to find time not only to do it, but to take a nap after. my balance is good these days, too, which just makes me happy. and safer.
a course of hi-dose edibles in 2019 cleared out most of the leftover brain glitches from a childhood head injury. so a lot of things that have always been slightly off in my neuro function are gone. the worst of those was subtle muscle cramps. caused a lot of pain, esp post exercise, but just gone.
so i feel like i finally have a chance to get fit. the only symptom of fibro i have these days is the fatigue. almost zero pain these days, and no blowback from exercise. it’s amazing how much cramped feet can f up a yoga routine, but trust me, it does. i still get a tiny bit of cramping now and then, but nothing a light shift in position doesnt relieve. i dont trip over my own feet anymore. used to do it at least a couple times of year, all my life. havent done it in 3 yrs.

i thought a little moral support would help. so, hi all.
i’ll let u know how it goes.

he seems mostly unfazed now. healing up well. you can see a couple incisions. still a little angry looking but better every day.

eta that face-
https://twitter.com/mopinkodu/status/1636735915191070720

he has 3 big incisions, 2 on his side, but 1 right in the middle of his chest. he doesnt want to lay down.
i got up to pee, and puppy had to go, so sent her and radar outside. biff sat up on the bed, but didnt make a move to go out. it would be unusual for him.
the other 2 came back in, settled in, but biff just sat up, and wouldnt lay down. i thought maybe he did want to, so i sent him out. came back in, still didnt want to lay down. wont even down on command.
light went on- he’s hurting. he has pain meds. but i gave him some ibuprofen.

poor old man.

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he finally settled in about an hour after the post. i appreciate the warning about ibuprofen. i did not know that, tho i think the warnings are pretty overblown. i’ve given it to dogs in the past, on vet advise, but from very long ago. he’s certainly fine now.
they sent him rimadyl. after he gets his dose this am, if it doesnt seem to be knocking it out, i’ll talk to the vet.

it just sorta shocked me to see a bully dog actually showing pain. rare thing that, and quite distressing at 3 am.

https://twitter.com/mopinkodu/status/1635652070672932866

excuse the bird link, but wanted to put up a pic.

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just talked to the doc. all went well, and he’s doing fine. had a total of 3 bumps removed. i’ve had dogs w mast cell tumors before. they are generally slow growing, and at 11, unlikely to cause trouble.
the dental portion was not so simple. he had some swelling in his face, and like i feared, he has an infection in a bad tooth. lost a couple of teeth, cleaned it up, and home on antibiotics. hopefully that heals up ok.

he rly is good for a bully his age. but he’s showin it. he is still a tad mad at me about this puppy. i may have to drag out a crate for him so he has some peace. but i think i can get her to be nice.
maybe i shd ask for a lil valium for her.


thanks so much for all the well wishes. biff sends kisses.

i’ve been a ball of anxiety for most of the last couple years now. i’ve had a lot of covid related financial problems. i’ve been something of a mess.

but at least my financial woes r over. i sold a rental sf house, and i did rly well.
broke my heart to sell it. bought it a wreck, fixed it up w a couple of friends. we did a great job. a dream come true. but i need to cut back on both work and woes, and i needed the money.
my hood is very undervalued, cuz it’s the most diverse hood in the city. we also have a lot of social services/businesses like nursing homes and rehab places. cuz that’s who we roll.
but it’s a great hood, w lots of transit, parks, good schools, retail, restaurants and entertainment. even have beaches. yet, it’s cheap here.

well, this little place is adorable, and in about 1/4 of the hoods in the city would be worth a min of twice what i got. so i sorta put my foot down about what it is worth. i went through 3 realtors. the 1 who sold it was srsly skeptical, but she couldnt argue w the facts. we started high, and held our breath. well, it only took 3 wks to get more than anyone thought i could. i appreciate the money, but more than that i did a bit to fix an unjust system.
the folks who live here know their biggest asset will be undervalued. and they accept that. but they shouldnt have to. it shouldnt cost u money to be a good person.

it’s been quite a while since i did a good thing. b4 the plague i had a volunteer gig that went a long way to heal after my divorce. but the plague stopped that. it feels super good to do good again.

i’ve been putting so much into the- after i sell the house- pile. not looking forward to that reckoning, but…
i’ve been doing better lately. yoga has been going very, very well. and my new puppy is just the best.

now if i can just figure out how to not be all alone for the rest of my life….

1 thing i rly appreciate about beau is his strategies for getting through to ‘them’. he digs through the analytics on his channel, and figures out what makes ppl bail. then he tries to find another way to say it.
i sent this 1 to the 1 trumpkin in my life. i doubt he’ll watch it, but if u have 1, this might be a moment.

they’re over on twitter trying to bully fetterman into stepping down, thinking they get a special election.
now not everyone knows that u only get a special in the house, and the senate gets a temp appointed by the gov til the next gen. but long threads w no one commenting that they’re full of it.