Maraya1969
Maraya1969's JournalI'm finally coming to the conclusion, or accepting that my mother is bipolar and I have been
affected by it my whole life. I have a worse case than her and her mother had a worse case than both of us, (although she refused to be treated so who knows). But my contentious relationship with my mother I always blamed on myself and now I am thinking about not doing that so much anymore.
She can be so mean and she can yell and talk over you and she won't listen to a word you have to say. She lost a family business, (an apartment complex) because she did not have flood insurance on it when Sandy hit. She says it is an act of God. I say it is bad management. But I do not throw it up in her face although this place was supposed to be in a trust for me and my brother and especially for me since I have been on disability because of my bipolar for years.
So anyway she lists the land with a realtor and 2 weeks later gets a private bid for literally 57% of the asking price and she accepts it. So I fucking freak out. She just says she wants to be rid of it. She wants to "retire", (as if it is that much work anyway, I managed the place for 10 years, it is not that much work).
So anyway no matter what I say it doesn't matter. She listens to nothing. So I wait until she is in church, (she is down in FL now because she spends her winters here.....yet she must retire from the job that she doesn't do 9 months out of the year), and I go into her house and take all the papers so she can't go through with it.
So of course she comes over to my house screaming and then she calls the fucking cops on me! I had previously told her if she was going to continue to scream like that then she had to get out of my house so I heard her saying she was going to call the cops so I just shut my shades and locked the doors and didn't answer. This I don't know how I will ever forgive her for. I just want her to listen to me!!!!!
So now it is Christmas and I have spent the whole day alone. I could have gone to this clubhouse I go to for breakfast but I didn't feel like it. I have been crying on and off all day. I read online one specialist say that a diagnosis of bipolar comes when you have one manic episode. Well she has admitted to one episode, when she was in NJ when I wasn't around she told me she got manic. I remember she was not sleeping and she had a fight with someone working at the apartments. That's all I know. I'm sure there is more to the story.
So yes I am crazy but my mother is crazy too. And damn it I am tired of taking the blame for fucking everything. I am tired of being the only black sheep in a family of black sheep!
What the Hell do I do now?
Obama Told Boehner ‘You Get Nothing’ in Fiscal Cliff Talks
http://www.politicususa.com/obama-told-boehner-you-nothing-fiscal-cliff-talks.htmlRead into the rest of the article. It says exactly what I said. That the President knew from the beginning that anything he offered would be rejected. And now he stand at a place of complete strength.
"President Obama’s negotiating stance is a lot firmer than many have given him credit for. Obama has been negotiating from total strength. At one point telling Boehner, ‘You get nothing.’
A behind the scenes Wall Street Journal report confirmed that President Obama has been one step ahead of his Republican opponents all through the fiscal cliff negotiations.
The Wall Street Journal reported (Via Political Wire) the following exchange between Obama and Boehner during the fiscal cliff negotiations,
“Mr. Obama repeatedly lost patience with the speaker as negotiations faltered. In an Oval Office meeting last week, he told Mr. Boehner that if the sides didn’t reach agreement, he would use his inaugural address and his State of the Union speech to tell the country the Republicans were at fault.”
At one point, Boehner told the president, “I put $800 billion [in tax revenue] on the table. What do I get for that?”
Replied Obama: “You get nothing. I get that for free.”
I really do not think President Obama thought Social Security would ever get cut.
He knows he is still with the block everything congress and now they have added the losers who are resentful to the block everything congress.
So now there is much more pressure on the GOP to pass a measure made up by the President and Harry Reid. They only need 26 Republicans in the House and all Democrats to pass the measure now, (or maybe less depending on what happens). Here it is explained from "Business Insider" http://www.businessinsider.com/fiscal-cliff-what-happens-after-boehner-plan-b-vote-failure-2012-12
"In order to for a cliff deal to get done, McConnell will have to allow Majority Leader Harry Reid to move forward with a measure that can be approved and sent back to the House. It is not at all clear that the House GOP would allow such a bill to come to the floor for a vote. But they will be under intense pressure to do so as the cliff approaches next week. House Republicans now lack the ability to deflect charges that they drove the nation off the cliff and into possible recession in order to protect the wealthiest. Many House Republicans don’t care about this but some certainly do. Most conservative Republicans will oppose any Senate-approved deal. But if a bill makes it to the floor, only 26 Republicans would have to vote in favor if all Democrats vote yes.
This is the optimistic scenario: Essentially the GOP folds. Not wanting to embarass itself further, Obama and Reid craft something along the lines of where the parties were this weekend, the Senate approves it, and then it passes The House with only a handful of Republicans."
ME - I DON'T THINK THIS WILL INCLUDE ANY CUTS TO SOCIAL SECURITY OR ANY BIG ENTITLEMENT CUTS.
Read more: http://www.businessinsider.com/fiscal-cliff-what-happens-after-boehner-plan-b-vote-failure-2012-12#ixzz2FqWzb6HH
The link between intelligence, creativity and mental illness. Good stuff.
Got this from a thread started by BainsBane
http://schoolgirlforreal.hubpages.com/hub/A-List-of-Famous-People-Today-With-Mental-Illnesses
Creativity interlinks with Illness
One of the really interesting and cool things about mental illness is that certain types of illnesses, mainly bipolar gives a person a creative edge, though other illnesses go hand in hand with highly intelligent people such as Professor John Nash, who won the Nobel Prize for mathematics, for one. I don't think that you have to be mentally ill to be genius but it seems mental illness and genius often do go hand in hand. And that is why I write this article on famous people who have contributed so greatly to science and art, and music while yet dealing with an illness and why if they have something valuable to offer, anyone can. It makes so much sense to me to shed light on the fact that no one needs to be ashamed. There is no one who is exempt from possibly "contracting" this invisible disease! Read on and share this page.
"It takes a little bit of crazy to make a genius." ~Anonymous
The contributions which the following people have given to the world will not forgotten, nor should future Abraham Lincolns, or Jim Carreys, or Charles Dickens be discouraged.
http://www.huffingtonpost.com/2012/10/17/creativity-mental-illness-bipolar-disorder_n_1972391.html
Creativity Tied To Mental Illnesses Like Bipolar Disorder, Schizophrenia In New Swedish Study
Creative types are thought to be more likely to suffer from mental illnesses, such as bipolar disorder and schizophrenia. A new large-scale study of the Swedish population helps confirm this link.
Last year, researchers at the Karolinska Institutet near Stockholm found that families with a history of bipolar disorder and schizophrenia were more likely to produce artists and scientists. They built on this evidence in a new study, published this month in the Journal of Psychiatric Research, which covers a larger population sample and a wider scope of psychiatric diagnoses.
The researchers used 40-years' worth of data from Sweden's health registry, looking at the anonymous records of almost 1.2 million patients and their relatives. They found certain mental illness — in particular bipolar disorder — are more common among artists and scientists, from dancers and photographers to researchers and authors.
More at link:
There were some gun apologists insisting that the NRA did not push the sale of guns. From their sit
http://www.nrablog.com/post/2012/12/13/Shooting-Illustrated-has-Freefloat-Super-Modular-Rails-from-Geissele.aspx#continue"Shooting Illustrated has Geissele's Freefloat Super Modular Rails
Geissele Automatics Super Modular Rails
Geissele Automatics now offers freefloat fore-ends for AR-pattern rifles that are every bit as superlative as the company's legendary triggers."
That's all I'm going to post because the whole thing disgusts me. This is just to prove the the NRA and gun manufacturers are in each others pockets or are the same entity altogether.
All the addresses and some emails of the Westboro clan are at this link. The phones
have been disconnected as far as I checked. But if anyone wants to try their emails or lives nearby.......(I think they probably have deleted their email accounts if they have watched that video from Anonymous. It scared me!)
http://pastebin.com/ARASaC1h
Give Medicare to mentally ill with no waiting period. Please sign this petition
This could really help our mentally ill population in this country who are now sorely uncared for.
"Give Medicare to the mentally ill with no waiting period. There is an epidemic of mass murders. Our prisons are overflowing with mentally ill patients. The number of mentally ill patients that are homeless is staggering.
We have to do a lot more.
But this is one politically acceptable solution that could be approved soon.
This is a first step, a step you could take in the presence of a highly divided political environment."
http://signon.org/sign/medicare-for-the-mentally?mailing_id=7657&source=s.icn.em.cr&r_by=32096
What would happen if they imposed a really high tax on guns and ammunition? I just checked and
you can buy ammo tax free on the internet. That is terrible. I think it should be taxed at least as high as cigarettes and maybe even higher. Guns should be taxes as much too.
Of course considering what people pay for their guns it won't stop much but it may stop some. Every little bit helps.
As long as the President enacts the laws that are on the books also.
R. Scott is trying to stop parts of Obamacare from coming to FL. Please sign this petition-MoveOn
http://signon.org/thanks.html?petition_id=27086&from_source=mo&id=-32096-Dgu4IODear Florida MoveOn member,
Governor Rick Scott has been advocating against Obamacare provisions for Florida and its citizens. We need to tell Governor Scott and the Florida legislature to allow Obamacare for all of us.
That's why I created a petition on SignOn.org to the Florida State Legislature and Governor Rick Scott, which says:
Stop Governor Rick Scott from not allowing Florida citizens access to Obamacare!
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