orleans
orleans's Journali'm so sorry you are going through this
imo there is nothing harder in the world
especially when it comes out of the blue, giving no one time to mentally prepare
you were together a long time but not long enough
we never have enough time with those we love
the constant reminders of a beloved's absence in our day-to-day can be overwhelmingly emotionally exhausting.
but how wonderful and fortunate you both were to have found each other in this lifetime and love each other.
i believe love is transcending and keeps us connected through these times of transition we go through/anguish through.
you said you "keep thanking Whoever May Be Listening" for your once-in-a-lifetime love. well, i think the man you love is still listening to you, still there with you, and will be helping and guiding you as much as he can. (while i'm not a religious person i am a big believer in the afterlife and the concept of soul mates, which by the very name implies a deeper and more permanent connection that what we have in this physical world)
your op is a beautiful tribute to him.
he was just as fortunate to have you in his life as you were to have him.
i wish you the strength and energy to take care of yourself and your large family.
i wish you well. very much so.
i'm so glad all is finally well.
my mom went through a major "bout" of paranoia and delusions (it was at least ten years ago) and i finally managed to get her to go into the psych ward for a couple of weeks. this amazing shrink put her on a wonder drug and my god! she was out in two weeks, and pretty much back to normal. it was so wonderful!
she was supposed to take this pill once or twice a day, and did for a number of months. since i always picked up the refills for her i asked her one day, "shouldn't i be picking up your pills pretty soon?" she said, "oh, i haven't taken that in a long time. i'm fine."
it had probably been at least two months before i realized i hadn't gotten them for her. we still went to visit with the shrink every few months for another year and he was a bit worried that she had suddenly just stopped taking the med. but everything really was fine.
in my opinion it was a miracle drug. too bad i wasn't smart enough to pay better attention to the name of it. and then remember it for future reference.
anyway, glad to hear the good news about your mom.
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