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I_UndergroundPanther

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Hometown: Maryland
Home country: United States
Member since: Tue Jan 10, 2017, 12:27 AM
Number of posts: 11,068

About Me

I was on DU for years as Underground Panther. I am 54,a non binary,demi asexual,transgendered person with a feline soul. I am a Satanist chaorder, ceremoniaI sorcerer. I despise republicans and thier"beliefs"and the crap they call a political platform. They are scumbags. I love cats I do many kinds of art,love history philosophy,magick, among many other things. I love to explore the unknown. I have a sweet black and white cat named Othello. I am Very glad to be back on DU.

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Othello's obsession..

Anyone else's cat do this?


Every week I pack my meds in my pillbox for the week.

Othello comes over before I even open the first bottle to sniff the pills in every bottle.
He gets so excited. When I hold a bottle to get them out. As soon as I open it he pulls
the bottle towards himself using the dewclaw on my hand
to make sure I move it to him..

As I hold it tight he crams his little nose in as far as he can
and you can hear him breathing inside the bottle.

If I try to move it away before he is done smelling it
he will hold the edge of the bottle in his teeth so
I can't pull it away without spilling the pills.
So I wait until he lets the bottle go...

He has certain meds he loves the scent of
and others he likes the smell of less but regardless he's gotta sniff them all.

Does not matter where I pack my meds he always finds a way to come over and sniff my meds.
He's done it for three years now. I consider it part of my pill packing ritual now.
He insists.

He never tries to lick or eat the pills,thankfully.
Once the pill is out of the bottle he's not interested in it.
He apparently just really likes how my meds smell inside the bottle.
He is such a weird cat sometimes.

I go through this every week.
Posted by I_UndergroundPanther | Sat Mar 26, 2022, 10:48 PM (10 replies)

My depression is ramping up.

My ptsd symptoms are getting worse. I do not want to live anymore if this whole country becomes a republican autocracy. But I will fight as hard as I can and take as many of the trash as I can to their graves with me.

I am losing hope. I fear for the future. Trump is gonna get away and dark money is greasing the skids into a very dark future.
It's scary so many narcissistic monsters are cheering autocrats as we all slide down into the pit. I wish Biden would get some prosecutions going and get some oligarchies in jail. Wish he could do something effective to make it stop.Find who funds republicans, out their sources , expose the agendas of think tanks and funders. I know he can't do that. Well the republicans could care less about laws.Dont give me the higher ground and all that shit.

There is a breakdown in this country,we have a fatally flawed constitution and we are becoming lawless because of it. This coup has been happening for decades. I feel so helpless to stop it. So alone. Republicans rig the vote yet no one arrests them for it. They just tie up the courts and stack the courts so nothing gets done about it.They are doing crimes in broad daylight and getting away with it. Republicans have declared war against this country and the Dems as far as I can tell are still acting like its no big deal they seem so ineffective. When are the kid gloves gonna come off? When will the denial break? When will they be made to pay for what they've done.When will these fuckers ever be put in Jail?

My therapist gets miffed if I tell her why republicans are the problem and say that they are traitors, she tsks tsks me. It pisses me off. I let her have it with both barrels after she does that shit its disrespectful.. I asked her outright if she votes republican or supports them.She evades the question. I tell her that knowing that answer is vital to me working with her. I can't trust her unless I know where she stands.

The program I go to requires I get therapy at the program. If they hire a trauma therapist I will demand I am her client. But until then I know which staff are republican and I just get so disgusted with them,their arrogance is disgusting. One staff claimed masks were a personal choice while the program requires we mask up, I let her have it and told her why going maskless isNOT a personal choice and why.. But there are also some staff there like my social worker who is as liberal and aware as I am.I love her to death,and I trust her,more.

The stress of all this gets too much to bear sometimes. Most of the time I can't articulate it like I can now. I cannot stand republicans and I feel the stench wafting off the repug staff by subtle shit they say and how they treat people. I feel like I am breathing poison air around some of them. I really don't want to be polite to them or "respect their beliefs". I want to shred their beliefs and and expose them..for what they are. I wanna call them out on THEIR behavior. I know what I feel here its not just in my head,Other liberal clients mention it too. The pressure is bad.Then there is my upstairs neighbor with the kid banging.It triggers the shit out of my ptsd. been tolerating it but my anxiety is going nuts.Have nightmares again.My Psydoc just upped my prazosin. The vilagence is interfering with my sleep again.Been losing time.I feel trapped. Then there is Ukraine. It makes me feel petty for talking about this compared to what they are going through.Thanks for listening to me Y'all. BTW I watch the good shows like Don Lemon Ari etc. They help me feel safer by letting me know what's going on I would rather know than not know. A news blackout would be worse for me than watching.It's how my trauma works.
Posted by I_UndergroundPanther | Fri Mar 25, 2022, 01:28 AM (21 replies)

Republicans have declared War.


War against us Dems.

War against our Democracy.

War against the government they don't 100% control.

War against America.

And Declared War against the potential of America to progress to a more perfect union,

Maybe we should admit we are in a war.
Maybe it's time we should treat this situation as a war.
Maybe we should be describing what the republicans have done
and are continuing to do as an act of war.

Say it out loud Republicans have Declared War.

Posted by I_UndergroundPanther | Thu Mar 24, 2022, 09:50 PM (2 replies)

I figured out a counter slogan to

The "owning the libs"

Tossing the pukes.
Posted by I_UndergroundPanther | Tue Mar 22, 2022, 12:12 PM (0 replies)

This is my favorite fruit

I have tasted so far..In the whole world here on my counter.



A chermoya.

If you never ate one get one and eat it,you won't regret it. They are like banana,pineapple and mango but they have a flavor all thier own.
Posted by I_UndergroundPanther | Mon Mar 21, 2022, 06:15 PM (8 replies)

My breakfast

Just told me,I ❤️ you.


Posted by I_UndergroundPanther | Sun Mar 20, 2022, 09:18 AM (13 replies)

Othello discovers

If it doesn't fits he can't sits..

Posted by I_UndergroundPanther | Sat Mar 19, 2022, 04:24 PM (7 replies)

A cool house for some

Neighborhood strays..

Posted by I_UndergroundPanther | Thu Mar 17, 2022, 10:18 PM (1 replies)

Feds protected russia and defied

Sanctions by making sure russia didnt default on its debt. In other words the fed broke sanctions to blunt the impact of sanctions imposed by Biden.. WTF!

This story needs bigger legs,MSNBC you listening?


https://www.cnn.com/2022/03/16/investing/russian-debt-payments/index.html


Suprising the amount of republicans in the fed.

https://www.govexec.com/oversight/2015/08/there-are-more-republicans-federal-government-you-might-think/119138/
Posted by I_UndergroundPanther | Thu Mar 17, 2022, 06:50 PM (22 replies)

I'm about to scream

After the fed let russia skirt sanctions,the stoopid ad from gangrene,putrid whining about russia being cancelled.
I have had enough of thier sniveling, incel trash,thier guns, manbaby behavior, the abuse and crime,the fucking ogliarchs,the abusive karens,the trucker losers,grifters putrid lovers, the war crimes and propaganda..ugh.

Can we just get all the narcissists,sociopaths and authoritarians and dump all of them on an island in the middle of the ocean and leave them there? Leave them to kill each other off?
Posted by I_UndergroundPanther | Wed Mar 16, 2022, 11:18 PM (1 replies)
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