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slightlv's JournalHubby just had a heart attack.
I'm headed back to the ER (which is urgent care here, since we have no hospital in this little town anymore). They'll be transferring him to a hospital in KC for catherization in a little bit. I just got all the animals fed and taken care of, and am headed out the door. I also got a message from my sis that her husband's sister (we all grew up together) just had a stroke.
Eclipse... devils comet... huge planetary alignment... Everyone stay safe. At least for me, this has not started out to be the best of days!
Could use some good thoughts sent our way, if you have any to spare! I think tonight will be the first night I've spent alone and away from hubby since we moved to this little town.
My bookmarks were hacked on google.
I managed to get everything I needed back to normal, but I'm missing one... and didn't realize it until just now. Unfortunately, I don't remember what the full name of the site is, but it has been posted on DU many times as a link. Trying to do a search on DU has proven frustrating... it is such a common word that even advanced search hasn't helped.
I believe it was a wordpress site, and it had "signal" in the name. It's a religious blog by someone who is a staunch democrat. I love his writing, and his blogs are so good. Like I said, he's been linked to many times on DU... does anyone know the blog I'm talking about? Please post me the URL, if so. Thanks!
I have a problem that is effecting my life horribly.
I do have lupus, fibromyalgia, and a bad back. I take hydrocodone for the pain; and an off label old drug for the fibro issues. Other than that, I'm on Effexor for anxiety and depression, and a blood pressure drug. But this ailment, while I've suffered from it for lots of years, is getting worse and impacting my life.
Since I was a child, I always knew I was a "night person." I used to crawl under the covers with the Funk and Wagnells unabridged dictionary and read til the wee hours, because not only did I love finding out about words, but I just wasn't sleepy. This has always made my life hard, because of course, life isn't set up to deal with people like me.
A few years ago, it got so bad I just couldn't go to sleep at night at all. It'd be 5am before I even began to feel sleepy. I thought it was part and parcel of the fibro. It, along with not being able to work out a telework situation with the DoD, led me to retire from work... which I hate. I wasn't ready to stop working, I just needed to work within the confines of my fibro, lupus, and THIS condition.
Over the last few months this has gotten worse, tho. I'm lucky if can go to sleep before 7am, and I sleep all day. Sometimes, I can sleep 10-12 hours, and when I wake up I feel worse than when I went to sleep. In addition, I have horrible brain fog, and I'm clumsy as hell. I can fall getting out of bed or trying to get dressed. Going into the kitchen to try to fix something to eat, I'll drop everything... my hands are so clumsy and shaky. I feel like I could go back to bed a few hours later and sleep another night's worth of sleep without any problem. Needless to say, I don't have a life, and I hate it. I mean, this is getting so bad it's bordering on suicidal. I have friends I'd like to get together with, but they're living a "normal" life. I can never be around when they're up and going. I actually like being with them, and the "aloneness" is driving me bonkers. My animals are even upset with me, and I don't blame them. I miss being with them, but I have no energy and no stamina... not to mention steadiness to play with them, especially my 100lb dog. One good swipe from his tail and he knocks me down -- I'm 4'9" and 95 pounds on a good day.
I thought this might have to do with my meds, so despite dealing with the chronic pain, I stopped everything I was taking that said it could make me sleepy. It had no effect. I still do "drug holidays" to try to see if it'll change. But so far, all it does is give me more pain when I AM awake.
A month or so ago, I saw an add come across my phone and I actually read it. It was advertising a medicine (which sounds like a pain to use) for something called "idiopathic hypersomnia." Has anyone heard about this, know anything about this? I did enough research to know that even the Mayo Clinic talks about it... so I have to think it's actually something real... not made up by drug companies to sell more drugs. But I checked off every damn symptom they talk about.
I have an appt with my doc on the 29th of next month, and I'm gonna tell her about this and what I've tried to do, both before knowing a "name" and afterwards. But if anyone has every known anyone with this, or has it yourself, I'd love to know what you've tried, if anything helped, and how you cope. I'm at the end of my rope.
We have got to get DeJoy out of our mail system!
This is getting completely ridiculous! We are getting dunned because mail sent out to us on the 5th doesn't get to us until after the 13th! (This just happened to us and cost us a total of $131.00)
Some days we get no mail at all. Other days, we'll get two... even three mail drops. Seriously... and those extra maildrops aren't usually made by mailtrucks - they're made by UPS!
Anyone else seeing this? Do we we still have a complaint page up on whitehouse.com? Can we bring these types of complaints? This is really getting ridiculous. We live on a (very) fixed budget, and these are things are you can't budget for. DeJoy is costing us real money, and real peace of mind. Not to mention, you have no idea when a certain piece of mail sent out will get to it's needed drop.
Thank you!
I'm blown away at receiving hearts! You've done this old heart a lot of good, I'd like you to know. I've not been in a great place over the last couple of weeks - feeling really old, small, and like there was no place for me anymore. You have no idea what an uplift it is to see the message "Someone gave you a heart!" Little things can have a huge impact on someone's life. The playful attitude my cats are now displaying are proof of that. They pick up on Mama's feelings pretty easy.
So, from the bottom of my heart... thank you SO much for caring - about me, about DU, about all the family that we are here.
Since the bitter cold hit, my disabilities
have kept me in bed for a majority of the days. Because of that, I've been using my phone to access DU. Since DU4, it's been great and easy to use... until day before yesterday (Monday, 11/27). I'd been using the phone to read DU quite a bit that day and everything was going great until sometime in the mid-afternoon (I think). At that time, everything on the page got jumbled.
Instead of there being tabs at top for Nav and My Stuff, each of those tabs is spelled out completely on the same page, one line per item. In addition, the fonts are really screwed up. There are lines that are written on top of the preceding line, for example; rendering all unreadable.
Further, the width is screwed up on the phone. There is no longer a maximum width that fits the viewable section of the phone.
Even the comments, themselves, are screwed up.
I had changed over to "Skinner mode" and up until Monday, it was working fine. Thinking that perhaps this was an issue now (for some reason), I changed preferences to all other modes, one at a time. However, nothing straightened out at any of the attempts.
The phone, for reading DU, is now extremely hard. It's impossible if I want to read the comments and add my own voice.
Is anyone else having any of these problems with their phones? I use a Samsung Android (the latest smartphone, as of last year). I'll admit I'm much more proficient on a computer. I guess I'm just an old lady when it comes to this smartphone. I just can't understand why, after I opened an article in DU and read it, and then clicked to go back to the front page, that page was then screwed up, and all of DU has been screwed up since on my phone.
Like I said, I'm disabled and using the phone for a lot of things while I'm laying out in the bed. I've brought my laptop into the bedroom and have been using it, but I really liked the mobile DU app when I was first using it. What could have gone wrong? What in the world did I do to screw things up so badly?!
Thanks for any help you can give me...
I lost my little black cat today...
Izzie, who made it the very ripe old age of 23 last month, died this morning. She was one of a kind... attitude in a very small package. She was a Japanese Bobtail, and so we gave her the name Izanami (after a Japanese Goddess). And Goddess, she was. Izzie, despite never weighing more than 8 pounds, ruled a house filled with other cats and dogs. No one messed with her. They respected her! (LOL)
I knew the last couple of days the end was coming, and last night when she came to bed, she crawled up on my chest and spent most of the night sleeping there. I woke up once and thought I'd lost her, but she moved her head to let me know she was still with me. Sometime after I went back to sleep, she left us. I know she made it to breakfast, cause hubs said he fed her. I think it was shortly afterwards she died.
I'm grateful to have spent most of the night with her on my chest, and my hands stroking her, loving her close to me. There's a great big hole today, tho. How strange, for such a tiny cat...
Until that time I meet her on the Rainbow Bridge, I'll miss her every day...
Blessed Samhain to all who celebrate it.
May your days and nights spent in the shadow time be filled with understanding, acceptance, and growth. May they be filled with joy and new opportunities when, once again, the Wheel turns towards the light. A blessed new year to one and all... may your remembrance of those lost this past year, and to all our ancestors who have gone before us, bring you joy in between any tears. A blessing and boon to all witches and pagans who celebrate... together or alone... this night.
With love to you all from an old Crone...
I had a horrible, no good night last night
I have Lupus and fibro... and both were rearing their symptoms after working overtime on the house. To be expected, I guess. But I was also upset after losing DiFi. I was also worried about close friends I have who are Fed workers, as well my daughter who is also working for the Feds. IOW, it was a pretty emotional day.
In bed, quiet, I took out my Lemornand cards who have been especially on spot lately and asked to guide me as to the answer to what was specifically causing my distress that night. I was a basket case. Gods, I was not ready for it. In a couple of days, I'm going to do a Thoth reading to get more info, but as of last night, the Lemornand shows that R's are going to steal the election, *rump in jail or not, and he will be the next Pres. It showed chaos and the religious right in ascendency, dropping the anvil on everything. My first thought was "run"... I've read so much from one or two people on this board about Costa Rica. But I have no money. That's when I thought I'd do a follow up with the Thoth, if it'll talk to me again after doing the Lemornand.
My question... has anyone else had the courage to run the cards on the situation we find ourselves in now? And projected out into the future?
I did a Thoth run in 2000 and correctly read Bush's election and all that followed afterwards. When the last of it came true, is when I found the Lemornand cards. Since I started out with cartomancy many, many years ago it was an easy read in many ways. But I don't find it as complete as the Thoth. Anyone else here read the Thoth? If not... what do you favor? I've been reading the Thoth for over 40 years. It always teaches me something new, and I'll never claim to be a master reader. I'll bow to anyone else who also reads; we all have ways the spirit moves through us.
Blessed Mabon, to one and all!
May the Goddess grant us the serenity to contemplate our shadow sides during the coming dark of the year, and the grace to accept and learn from them. As I figure I'm now in the Mabon of my personal life circle, this time holds special meaning. As well, it marks hubby and my 38th wedding anniversary.
I thought I'd share the ritual I'm going to be doing tonight. For almost three decades, I've been HPS to a coven of Solitaires (as I put it). As age and family issues have gained prominence at this time of our lives, I'm back to doing Solitaire work for now. Looking forward to Samhain, tho... everyone comes home for Samhain! (LOL) Anyway, for those interested, here's the ritual. Feel free to add it to your BOS, to take, change, and make it your own. I've used it for many years, and I always make last minute changes as the Spirit moves.
I thought I’d share with you the ritual I’ll be using this evening. This will done within the circle in my own home, tho… not in a cemetery. I don’t think the Army likes us in their National Cemeteries at night (gryn). For me, I’ll be consuming mead in the ritual.
For this ritual you will need an apple and a chalice of wine or juice. Grape or apple juices are excellent choices if you cannot drink alcohol. If it is at all possible, this ritual should take place in a secluded cemetery. If this isn't possible, you should try to visit a cemetery where your loved ones are buried and leave apples to wish them a quick rebirth.
When you are ready to begin, cast your circle, and invite your deities.
Say:
Blessed be this season of Mabon,
Time of the second harvest, the harvest of fruit and wine.
Tonight all things are in balance: Goddess and God, Life and Death, Light and Dark.
Tonight the darkness will conquer the light, leading us deeper into the waning year.
If you are not at the cemetery of your loved ones, visualize if you can their resting places. Take the apple and hold it in front of you at heart level.
Say:
Ancient symbol of life, death and rebirth, take away my mourning.
Help me to be assured that death is not a permanent parting,
but a new and joyful beginning.
If you are in the cemetery place the apple in front of the grave of a loved one. The apple symbolizes reincarnation. If you aren't at the cemetery, you should save the apple to bury in the Earth later to symbolize your hope for rebirth to all life. With the somber part of the ritual over now, you should turn yourself to gladness and honor the God of wine and the aging Crone Goddess. Take the chalice of wine and hold it upward.
Say:
Blessed Crone, thank you for bringing me safely to this season.
God of wine, thank you for your gift of the grape.
Now you can make a toast to whomever or whatever you like. Make as many as you toasts as you want and make them as silly as you want!!
When you are finished, say:
Blessed be Mabon, season of bounty.
Now spend some time in your circle meditating or communing with the spirits that may surround you. Then close the circle however you wish.
Note: I've always found that the toasting (as well as the amount of mead consumed) raise the energies in the room, especially when hubby joins me in ritual. Be sure to ground the energy raised appropriately!
And once again, a very blessed Mabon to you. May the coming season be one of vision, strength, and love.
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