Was in line at a cash. Two people in

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8. My point exactly. I am primed for racism

because so much talk on the news. Something, I would automatically assume was just a store owner having a bad day if it happened to me, happened. Except I‘m primed. And even I wonder if it was malicious bias. And what must it be like to be primed all the time. Your whole life. It would be pretty dam hard.

(I am interested in this too because I was stalked and gossiped about maliciously. Store clerks would say “I don‘t find anything wrong with you“ which would upset and sooth me at the same time. Now have ptsd so the parallels to my own life make me question this ....because I can be very afraid I‘m not being left alone in my life. And often I am wrong. But often I am right. So it is hard to heal).