Old now and when I was around 4 I knew I was not a girl but I wasent a boy either.

I had no words for it in the 70s. All I knew is I was not one or the other.

I struggled with it for a long time with no words.

I am a non binary transmale asexual demi otherkin I had a feline soul and no way to explain all of it to anybody let alone myself.

Back than if I told anyone even a therapist they didnt understand so I tried to explain it better and end up digging myself into a hole I knew made no sense to the listener.

They'd either blow me off or call it a symptom of my mental illness or worse they tried to force me be female.

So I shut up about it and gave therapists some canned normal answers just to keep them from asking.

As soon as the web appeared I did searches for hours with navigator search typing in various words I had used to discribe myself and soon I found others with the same situations and identities.

Often I cried my eyes out just knowing I was not alone like this.

I know what I am. I have always known.

I am so thankful to the younger generations for giving me the words to say it..