Bereavement
In reply to the discussion: My mother passed this morning...her memory lives on and gives me strength...I love you mom! [View all]SheltieLover
(57,073 posts)I am so saddened to hear of your mother's passing. Your tribute to her here is lovely.
Why not allow yourself to be angry? Take some ice cubes outside or in the garage or basement and throw them at the sidewalk or driveway with the intention of releasing the anger you feel. Punch a pillow. Do more journaling, stream-of-consciousness, cursing the cancer and covid.
There is no one right way to grieve and no time frame for grief.
I am very glad to know that you have a solid support structure in place to help you though this most difficult time. No matter how much we might know what is coming, nothing fully prepares us for the finality of death.
Perhaps you might reach out to a hospice organization for bereavement counseling? Most offer 13 months of free counseling to support surviving loved ones through the "year of firsts."
Please remember to be kind to yourself. Eat, sleep, and breathe deeply to center yourself amidst your pain.
We are here if you need us, Moostache.
Healing vibes on the way to you.