Reply #11: I'm with you . . . [View All]

[frankly_fedup2]

I started into a post-partum depression. Very severe but not psychotic. I did have to be hospitalized though. My son is 25 years old and through the years I had several more hospitalizations. My wiring went totally wacky from the experience of the birth alone (the docs say). They told me NEVER, EVER have a another child and I haven't.

I'm 45 now, still unfortunately have my menses (why, I haven't a clue), I am now on disability due to anxiety disorder, panic disorder, chronic depression, CFS, fibromyalgia, chronic epicondylitis, and CTS. The last ones are physical problems that occurred over the years.

Of course, I was 18 when I had my son and thought I knew everything. I did not have a clue and it changed my life. I was an open, fun, fearless person with no anxiety, and never heard of a thing called depression before my son was born. Of course, I do not blame him for anything (just in case some of you think I do). He did not ask to be brought into this world. He, also, did not ask to have a wacky mommy either.

The fact that he is married now and a father (I have a grandson now) who works hard for his wife and child and would give his life for them just goes to show you that a kid can have a wacky mother and still turn out okay.