Reply #7: Yo, Mopaul... [View All]

[CaptainClark23]

I can't tell you any of that, brother. wish I could. What I CAN tell you is that this is the hand we've been dealt. This is where all of us are, together. There are forces in motion that have their origins in our entire collective history. Causality, Mopaul, and here we are, lucky us. There is nothing any of us can do about "it" individually.

Here's the reassuring bit....we're all in this clusterfuck together, and all of our individual efforts DO somehow, someway, collectively impact how shit goes down. I don't play bridge, but I understand that good teammates with shitty hands can win by skill, guile, and sheer fucking balls.

I've wondered about your head Mopaul. About what impact this righteous rage is having on you. I know for sure that I've been fucked up and consumed by these events. That I don't sleep well as I used to. I'm prone to abject depression when I wasn't before. And this is someone who tries to keep his rage in check instead of expressing it, as you do. I dunno, maybe your ragings are a healthy release, and I should riot more often.

I don't know if it helps you, but to me, you're a fucking inspiration. You express the anger and indignation and fury that we all feel, but often feel to helpless to shout.

You fire us up. Remind us how dead fucking serious this deal is. Sorry, I shouldn't speak for anyone else. change "us" to me.

I need someone like you to keep me stoked. To give me a sense of perspective and place.

Just don't let it eat you up. I know it can do that. All of us I think have given something of ourselves. This shit hurts.

Take care of yourself, when it gets too much, remember to laugh. Remember what a surreal tragi-comedy it is you find yourself living in. That we should be witness to such possible futures, you just gotta shake your head and chuckle. Remember we are fighting for the ability to laugh. If we lose that, then we've nothing to fight for.

I'm rambling. Keep the faith Mopaul. Don't lose the edge. Be the edge. We need you.

Shutting up now.