Well, this appears to be the end of the line - venting [View All]

[kedrys]

We signed our bankruptcy papers Monday, and our lawyer is filing them today. We're going to lose the house, which means we'll have to give up the cats because we won't be able to find a place that'll let us have them all. We're looking to move to Canada because my family's there, but the s.o. is two nose hairs from jumping into the car and never coming back.

The s.o. has been unemployed since October, which actually helped us with the bankruptcy filing, but it's taken its toll. We're pretty sure it was our next door neighbors who broke our house and car windows 3 weeks ago, but without a witness or a confession, the cops won't do anything.

We have $ to eat, but barely. I'm about to go to work, but I've been physically ill because of all this, and I'll probably go throw up first. I can't function. If I could, I'd check myself into a loony bin, but I can't, because the s.o. is worse off than I am, and someone has to hold the line.

We have been pissed on and fucked with by so many people for no reason that it boggles the noodle. This country is not fit to live in any more, and that hurts more than I can say. I have no faith in the future even if we somehow manage to get out of here, and the cost will be so high that it'll scar both of us for the rest of our lives.

The last 6 years have killed me, have killed my spouse, have most likely killed our marriage, and will leave more bodies in their wake before it's all said and done.

I wish I could go back to bed and pull the covers over my head and cry and scream for 3 weeks and come out to find out that everything's okay, but that's not going to happen.

Fuck.

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