Reply #52: Maybe its a competitive thing [View All]

[Nikia]

Maybe that's why my mother called my beautiful sister, who stripped for a few weeks to prove to herself that was not true, and I ugly freaks.
For a while when I was in college and had begun dating my husband, I didn't care much about my appearance. I wore make up and clothes I liked but I didn't worry about it. Now in the "real world" I hang out and work with guys like and including my friends and other women who have this competitive attitude towards their looks. Everytime I see popular media the looks are important thing is reenforced.
I do find myself comparing myself to other women when I am out in public. Sometimes, I feel bad about myself because I notice the "model" looking women or feel better about myself noticing the less attractive women. I don't insult any other women on their appearance except my mother-in-law behind her back (but she is overly critical of me).
I know that it really doesn't matter. I have a husband who says that I am beautiful. Small children seem to really like me. If my guy friends really did think that I was an ugly freak and appearance does matter to them like it seems to, they probably wouldn't want to hang out with me, especially in public.