Reply #6: Re:Happiness and stability [View All]

[Drunken Girlfriend]

When most ppl like myself start feeling a little good/stable,
I think it's a sub-conscience effort to sabotage our happiness.

It's not that I don't want happiness and stability,but due to
my upbringing and low self esteem,I think there is a part of me that
feels I am undeserving of it.

However,I now realize that I am a good person,and have to constantly
remind myself of this,when I start to get mentally unhealthy thoughts.

I think working on my confidence,and working on my whole self
is going to be a life long process for me.

And I don't mind,because for the first time in awhile,
I think the future can be good to me.

Mind you,I don't feel this will be in my near future,
more the distant future.lol

But,I am always wishing happiness for everybody else.

Just because my life sucks,doesn't mean it should be like that
for others around me.