Reply #57: {{{{Ninjaneer}}}} [View All]

[Dystopian]

Many years ago, after going through much trauma, my friend told me that I needed to go out.... A blind date with her brother-in-law. It was just supposed to be fun...escape from the strife of life. I was forty-two ....he was thirty-two. He was going through a divorce, no children. We became very close. One afternoon he asked me to go for a drive to the reservoir....He set a blanket on the grass as we settled atop the hill looking down....talking. It was a beautiful summer afternoon. He became quiet for a moment...then turned to me and said, "I only have one testicle. I had cancer when I was seventeen. I'm okay. I can have children. I just wanted to tell you. It was hard, I couldn't go back to school so a tutor came in so I could graduate."

I was shocked. I simply put my arm around him and told him that I was sorry that he had to go through such a thing....and thankful that we had such a beautiful day together... He later told me that it was the psychological damage and trauma that kept him away from school.

I didn't know that he was preparing me for another level to our relationship.
Of course he knew that I had already ensured that I wouldn't have more children.

We were together for three years....we lived together for over two years. I had to let him go, things were not working out....I also felt that he craved a family...and I couldn't give him a child....He really needed to be with a younger woman.

I was initially saddened when he told me....entering manhood and losing a testicle.....It must have been horrific. But he was a man in every respect.
To me...nothing mattered but us. Our relationship was entirely normal in every respect....well...it was awesome while it lasted.

Forty years ago I knew a young girl going through nursing school. Her boyfriend was diagnosed with testicular cancer. They had been in a relationship for over a year. They married and had children.

It's all about love.

I am relating this to you.... because women who care for you will not turn away. The girl in your heart has gone through the trauma of a cancer death. Please try to keep your focus on you. You are going to be fine. The same man you have always been.

I have two sons. My youngest (twenty-nine) recently told me about a similar lump. (About a month ago) I was dying inside. Thankfully, it was nothing. As a mother....I would have been crushed had he not told me. Please find comfort and strength from your mother. Her heart will be broken if you don't tell her.

Remember.....you will come out of this...you are young and strong.
When you learn that you are cancer-free....Life will go on as it should.

I am keeping you in my thoughts......please let your mother into the life that you are now living.
You know that she'll want to be with you. Let her. It's all about love.

You shared your life with us. I am sharing my life with you.

Much peace and love to you~


edit: I only posted what I lived through and knew. That was so very long ago. I'm not a medical person. I'm sorry if I implied that you might lose a testicle. I don't know what the treatment is in these times. I am clueless. But I care......