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[Chovexani]

My triad officially went back to being a couple tonight. I broke up with the boy and so did the lady. To make a long story short, he's been acting like a selfish, coldhearted douchebag for several months now, letting himself get totally absorbed into World of Warcraft, and has suddenly decided that everything about me he can't stand anymore. (He has completely disregarded GF, so far as I know; she's not even a hobby for him anymore) The sad thing is, I love WoW as much as he does, and I could even be called addicted, but I don't value the game over my friendships or relationships. He does not feel the same way.

My favorite was his thought I that I'm "obsessed with homoeroticism" and he "wasn't prepared to date a fannish type". Despite the fact that he's known me for almost eight years, known about (and read and enjoyed!) my original gay erotica and slash fanfiction. Honestly, I believe he has issues with internalized homo/biphobia (he is not out as bisexual to anyone, not even to his friends), and could not handle two strong women who refuse to cower in the closet. He also suddenly had problems with my spiritual beliefs.

The final straw was hearing thirdhand that he was claiming he'd already broken up with me, when he's been stringing me along for the last month or so with "I'm trying to sort my life out" bullshit. So tonight, GF and I talked for a long time and decided enough was enough.

He had the audacity to still want to be friends, and my response was that in order to be friends with someone, you have to show them respect, and he does not. Therefore, he doesn't deserve my frienship.

I'm not sad, other than mourning the loss of the man I fell in love with who died some time last summer and was replaced by a douchenozzle pod person. Mostly I feel relieved that it's finally over, that my GF and I can focus on deepening our relationship without dealing with this tool (so much of our conversation lately has been crying upset over shit he has done). I know I've grown up because I'm not crying and wondering what I did wrong. Despite his genius intellect, his degrees and his air of superiority, I know I'm better than him, that she is better than him, and he does not deserve either of us. I'm mostly angry for neglecting myself, putting so much into salvaging this relationship.

But either way I need hugs.