So about these angels... [View All]

[MorningGlow]

First let me say that while I have a healthy respect for angels, having "met" some during a circle to summon them, I have never felt a strong affinity with them as guides. I know they are awesome in the purest sense of that word (not how good pizza is "awesome!!1!"), but in the past, when I have called on them, I never really felt I got a response. I remember that when my son was little, the advice was to ask for Archangel Michael's help when MG Jr. got sick or was experiencing something I felt he needed help with. Yet I never really "felt" Michael's presence--not like when my covenmates and I did the angel circle. That effect nearly knocked me on my ass and stayed with me for weeks. So I stuck with other guides for assistance.

Now, however, as I find myself facing a very difficult time in my life regarding Mr. MG and our marriage situation, I felt that I should try again with angels. I decided to take another chance and really, sincerely work to "give it up" to the angels. I chose Gabriel and Michael, and spoke to them from my heart, asking for help, because I'm all turned around and don't know what is the correct path to take in this situation.

First I heard a song at a few key times. That didn't surprise me, since my guides have communicated with through songs all my life. But it was such an innocuous little ditty--a cute, lightweight, cheerful love song--that I didn't understand why I was receiving it as a message. (Hee--yesterday I turned on the radio in the car, only to catch the end of the song, and I went "Awww!" Got out of my car, walked into a store, and I heard it from the first note!)

It finally dawned on me today. The song, by the Plain White T's, is called "1, 2, 3, 4". Oh. Four. Angel number. DUH!!!
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And of course as soon as I realized that, it came on the radio. :D

Then I was "spoken to" in the oddest of places--the Dear Abby column. Both Monday's and yesterday's directly addressed issues that I have with Mr. MG. Monday's first letter was about a man who was so full of hate, his own adult child found it difficult to spend time with him. I have told Mr. MG that his negativity is really adversely affecting me, and I am concerned that as he gets older, Mr. MG will become just like this man in the column. Yesterday's first letter was about a woman who was about to marry a man who had cut her off from all her friends. That was me 11 years ago. I used to be a very social person, but now I have next to no friends IRL, in part because that was Mr. MG's preference (and in part because I allowed him to do it--I was very dense and realized what was happening too late). I certainly have no social life to speak of now, and that's starting to get to me, especially now that I'm working at home--I don't have the social interaction of a workplace that could substitute for a social circle.

And in between those two columns I had a dream that Mr. MG moved out. In the dream, I was terribly sad, but I was also profoundly relieved. I remembered, after I woke from the dream, how surprised I was to recognize a feeling of relief. I didn't expect that to exist anywhere in the situation.

I'm not saying it's so very clear cut as to what I have to do. I believe it's essential--and only fair to Mr. MG and to MG Jr.--to attend counseling first, to see if we'll be able to change our situation. But in the meantime, I am grateful that the angels have indeed answered my prayers and are speaking so clearly that I can't miss their messages.