I am,...seriously torn about how I feel about my country, my people. [View All]

[Just Me]

I try to remind myself that, merely six years ago, I genuinely "believed" in our form of government, our democracy, our potential, our integrity, our justice system (albeit with lotsa' criticism as a former attorney), our capacity to grow and progress and influence the world in a positive way. I try to remember my perspective of this country and our world when I was all of 36 years old.

Since then, I have accumulated knowledge that has completely changed my perspective, my world view; my take on the past, present and future as an American. The fantasies/dreams/hopes of opportunity and democracy and equality and progress and values and freedom and,...all that rhetoric I adopted lock/stock/barrel,...became just that, fantasies/dreams/hopes,...in face of stark reality. What I have discovered is gross exploitation by amoral profiteers who have spent their whole lives aiming towards greater and greater power through fraud and manipulation and outright criminal conduct,...and they have achieved that power.

Now, they exploit not only third world or less influential countries, they also exploit their own people and nation.

As these amoral profiteers continue to exploit us, our nation and the world, IN BROAD DAYLIGHT, I find myself torn in how I now feel about my country, my people. I TRY to understand that, many of my fellow citizens are still clinging to the fantasies/dreams/hopes I once held, in spite of facts and realities shoved in their faces. I try to accept that many MUST remain in a state of denial because reality is too cruel to accept. I try to acknowledge that most of us are simply busting our asses to survive in this country of supposed opportunity, leaving us little time or energy to fight back.

But,...how much deception and criminality and abuse and exploitation will my people take before they WILL themselves to end this violation of humanity and hope? How many MORE deaths, how much MORE poverty, how much MORE profiteering, how many MORE crimes are necessary before my people stand up and shout, "ENOUGH!!! WE DEMAND JUSTICE!!!"?

Why are my people so freakin' apathetic and act so,....powerless or uninterested or resigned? How can they just sit back and allow this declining state of affairs to perpetuate and grow worse? What the hell is wrong with these people I BELIEVED IN? Are they really so self-centered and irresponsible and distracted and desperate and reckless as to allow their own nation and, consequently, their own lives and the lives of their children/grandchildren spiral down to the kind of existence imposed a century ago?

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What saddens me most is,...the neocons valued our people's potential and capacity SO LITTLE that those pricks DECEIVED them into engaging in activities in which they would NEVER have volunteered had they known "the plan" and the facts. I will never EVER treat our people in such a reprehensibly demeaning and disrespectful way, EVER. However, I am feeling terribly torn about my whole-hearted belief in my people, right now. They've been given information about how the BushCO/neoconster regime has breached numerous legal and moral and ethical standards,...and, the outrage is missing.

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I just do NOT understand. I am so damned torn.

Thanks for reading my rant.