Reply #81: I can't work [View All]

[undergroundpanther]

Because I spend my days having flashbacks and trying not to kill myself.Here, trying to speak my piece,my truth,my experiences,my thoughts my own researching, and how all that stuff might relate to every single one of us and get it out there before the day comes when I can't take this fucking sick ass world of archons and assholes screwing over more evolved good hearted gentle souls the sparks that nourish and love anymore.

People tell me all the time I am so smart(192 IQ tested) so fucking artistic(off the scale creativity scores) and such I have so much to contribute etc. The shrinks just Looove testing me.But I don't work because I have so much fury inside at abusive asshole people in this world,I can smell their stinking black hearts a mile away,
http://www.cix.co.uk/~klockstone/spath.htm


I know myself well enough that if I had to work under a bully boss I just might kill him one day (because I hate this world and want out of here,I have nothing to lose). Getting a job for me is like playing russian roulette. I don't wanna play that deadly game with what little sanity I got because I know full well the endless depths of my own anger ,I know the target of my hate and
I know what I am capable of when I encounter psychopaths,authoritarians or narcissistic(or any combination of these traits)

Toxic personalities are pieces of shit, but they are clever enough to hide what they are and still be respected by the ignorant of the psychopathy problem and the solipsism sorts of do wells who just can't fathom some people are not good at heart and are actually evil.

I don't care what position of authority these assholes claim to have or who they think they are,what others are fooled into thinking they are, or why these insufferable assholes think they are entitled to abuse me or others like me who care and do not want to hurt people unless they have to .Frankly If I get exposed to a narcissist,authoritarian or psychopath bully lording over me again, I'll want to destroy them..literally.

So knowing myself I stay out of the workplace.