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Especially here at this time.
Or, if I did, I have no memory of it. If I could have it my way, I would not be alive in this time -- what I believe to be a viciously DARK AGE made all the more so because most people alive don't see it. I do. I don't call myself "beam me up" for nothing. I am quite ready to leave this planet/plane ASAP.
That said, the fact is, whether I like it or not, I AM HERE. Being here I can not help but feel that I am here for some 'reason' and that 'reason' isn't about ME, particularly. My life is my life but, ultimately, living isn't about ME; it is about something else.
What? Is it about trying in the face of overwhelming adversity to retain some VIRTUE? Not virtue on a high-horse; simply the quiet recognition that ultimately WE humanbeings are the means THROUGH WHICH forces of a higher order can come into existence on this planet/plane. Obviously, it can work the other way around, too. As much as I may wish Peace, Love, Honor, Integrity, Truthfulness, Justice, and Compassion to come into the world through 'me,' I must also acknowledge that it seldom does. In their stead comes conflict, outrage, fear, decept, ignorance and selfishness. This, apparently, is the human condition. Through us come whatever we allow. To allow for something more than our own self-interest we need to be aware of what DOES come through us -- and then work, or pray, or open.
All this interests me enough to hang around and keep on keeping on.
BMU
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