I haven't cried yet. I'm starting to worry about myself.

[booksenkatz]

I feel frozen and numb. The horror and disbelief I feel is so unutterably deep that I am unable to feel any emotions at all. I can only sit and stare. Has anyone else reacted like this? Normally I am a very passionate, emotional, expressive person. But this is beyond anything my body and spirit have ever experienced.

I will monitor myself. I think I could use an anti-depressant, yet I hate to rush to help Bush's pharm boys.

What in the name of God will I tell my 5-year-old son when I go pick him up from school? How can I explain this to him? You've never seen a little boy more pro-Kerry and pro-Dem! The other day he told me that God must look like John Kerry. How do I shoot down such idealism.

Dear God, what has my country done?

edited for typo, only got an hour's sleep y'know

[qanda]

1. Just start laughing...

That's how my tears started. Now I feel a little better, but just a little.

[Dem Agog]

2. I've done it for you...

[Maddy McCall]

3. Yes, I could have posted your post.

I completely identify with every sentiment. Especially about the children.

[Z_I_Peevey]

4. I'm right there with you.

Except I'm shaking and having heart palpitations, big time. I hope I don't keel over from a heart attack.

[dirtyduck]

18. it's the anxiety... i have it too.

do some deep breathing

[flamingyouth]

5. Sometimes you can't cry for a while

After my husband killed himself I couldn't really cry for at least two or three days. I can't remember. Then I cried non-stop for about 10 days, while I was driving, at the grocery store, in the pharmacy, you name it.

Hang in there. You've always got friends here. :hug:

[hlthe2b]

13. oh... I can related, FY: My parents both died in 1987 and ....

my tears finally began to flow when I was driving around with no obvious trigger....Still to this day, that is where/when my emotions come to a head....

[jedicord]

6. I'm feeling just as you are...

Just trying to go through the motions today. I was worried that my all-Repub co-workers would give me a hard time here at work, but I think they can tell by the look on my face that they shouldn't go there.

I keep logging into DU and logging out, trying to find some solace, but only getting more into my coma. Really don't know what to feel, what to do about America.

And when I see a pic of * I want to puke!

[info being]

7. I'm angry. Not that I want to stand up for my fellow Americans...

I'm angry *at* them.

[Pathwalker]

8. It resembles the shock after being told soneone died.

Someone you loved. In this case, it's America.

I feel the same way.

[kayell]

9. That's where I am. I feel the flat, affectless feeling of a major

depression coming on. I'm really kind of worried. I haven't dealt with this in a while, and I need all my wits about me now.

[Val]

10. Where Is William Rivers Pitt ???

I Must read his words.

[rockymountaindem]

14. Some dude tried to mug him last night

and hit him with a brick. He's ok, he posted about it last night. He may be at a clinic or calling the cops. He said he wasn't injured, just a little shaken and with a cut on his jaw.

[hlthe2b]

11. I did for a little while....those who have beloved dogs as family members

know how intuitive they can be... My own slept all night in bed with me (which is not usual, since she gets hot), never tried to get me up this morning and was visibly upset at my short teary episode...She will be my immediate tie to sanity, if there is any hope of maintaining it.... I pledge to her and myself to keep my stress down with frequent "sanity walks," no matter how cold, rainy, snowy, dark, or dreary it may be... TV and its blatant bias is yet another former source of escape that now escapes me. My tv will not go on for the indefinite future. Outside of drugs and alcohol, I don't know what else to do to cope with the hard reality: my country is no longer my country. How does one make the blind see? the deaf hear? the apathetic care?

I remember how my parents generation adamently gave no excuse to the German people for what transpired under Hitler. It was "their fault" and they were as "culpable as if they had committed the atrocities themselves." My God, that means all of us are culpable for the deeds of Bush* et al. This won't go away in 4 years.... the precedents set by a regressive and immorally partisan supreme court will haunt us for decades. I hope there is a God, because I don't know who is left to intercede at this point.

I'm glad there are some still spewing platitudes and desperately trying to "buck us up." Maybe I'll get there....but right now those words ring hollow...

[snacker]

12. I just cried now...

my daughter,an education major who wants to teach at an inner city school, just called. I really didn't know what to say to her. We were all so involved in this election and so supportive and proud of John Kerry. How could America let this happen? I voted yesterday to give those inner city kids hope and a future. I feel so defeated.
America has let those kids down because they were concerned about non-issues like abortion and gay marriage. How can people be so closed-minded and selfish?

[Generator]

15. I understand completely

I've never felt this way. It's shock with rage and almost laughing because is this real or is it not?

Have everything we have read and believed for the last few weeks been a mirage?

And fuck it, was that really Osama bin Laden? I'm in some world I don't believe in.

Just use distraction with your son. They don't know the horrors of the world, and why start? I wish I was a kid and an ice cream cone was enough!

[sallydallas124]

16. I feel the same

Haven't cried but the tears are back there. It seems like it would take too much energy to cry right now. My pain is pretty profound right now.

I too have to explain it to my almost 5 yr old son. Kerry was ahead last night and my SO and I were complaining about it. As I tucked him into bed, he said "Mom, is Bush going to win?" I said I don't know. He got tears in his eyes and said he was scared. I felt terrible. On one hand, I felt guilty for talking about what a bad guy bush is all the time in front of and with my son who isn't old enough to really understand. But on the other hand, I don't know if times won't get scary for him.

Take care of yourself.

[LibertyLover]

17. Crying

I know what you mean. I'm sitting here at the office numb. I wish I could cry. I wish I could scream. I work on Penn. Ave, just a few short blocks from where * is sitting now, gloating and the thought of that just chills my soul. My co-workers are mostly foreign nationals and they don't understand how the US electorate could have done this. I worry for the safety of my 2 year old daughter and I worry for us all. May the Gods have mercy on our country.

[tedoll78]

19. I'm shocked that I haven't cried.

Still waiting.

There's a smug part of me actually looking forward to the whining of Chimp supporters who'll be bitten in the ass by his policy results. I look forward to the shit hitting the fan.

So you could say that I'm more vengeful than anything. We deserve what we've voted for.