How sad is this? HST's final words

[Gabi Hayes]

from a Reuter's article yesterday:

http://www.smh.com.au/news/people/gonzos-suicide-note/2005/09/09/1125772673745.html?oneclick=true

Rolling Stone, the magazine that was home for years to writer Hunter S Thompson, is publishing a note written by the gonzo journalist four days before he committed suicide in February.

......


It reads:
"No More Games. No More Bombs. No More Walking. No More Fun. No More Swimming. 67. That is 17 years past 50. 17 more than I needed or wanted. Boring. I am always bitchy. No Fun - for anybody. 67. You are getting Greedy. Act your old age. Relax - This won't hurt."
At the bottom of the page.......Thompson drew a "happy heart", the kind found on Valentine's Day cards.

.........

"Football Season Is Over".
In the latest issue of the magazine, Douglas Brinkley writes: "February was always the cruelest month for Hunter S Thompson. An avid NFL (America's National Football League) fan, Hunter traditionally embraced the Super Bowl in January as the high-water mark of his year. February, by contrast, was doldrums time."
Brinkley said Thompson left the note for his spouse, but "Hunter was really talking to himself".

this is beyond depressing.

speaking of which, with him being perhaps the alltime drug champ in history, was he that opposed to anti-depressants?

I know they'd run counter to his inclinations, but having read almost everything he's written, I'm sure I'm not alone in wishing he'd have seeked professional help






three good men



del Toro was answering phones last night, btw

[flowomo]

1. hmmmm.... I was expecting Harry S Truman's last words.....

[Gabi Hayes]

3. oohh, never thought of that

can you IMAGINE what that HST would have to say about the creature infesting his old house on PA avenue

?????

[flowomo]

9. I just did a quick search....

Harry had no known last words. Oh, well, better than Coolidge, I guess, who had no known words period.

[Spinzonner]

28. He was rather delirious and semi-conscious at the end

and I believe that only medical personnel were around at the end (middle of the night).

If I remember correctly from Truman by David McCullough

[ChairmanAgnostic]

26. Me too!

Can you imagine what he would be thinking about shrub&Co?

[stevedeshazer]

2. I feel really old.

At first I thought you meant Harry S Truman. :crazy:

[Gabi Hayes]

6. if you're older than I, you ARE really old

relatively speaking

[stevedeshazer]

21. Huh? C'ain't hear too good these days

I'm happy to report that I have outlived both HST and HST.

And I'm a fan of both.

And I've been flamed for being a fan of both.

[Gabi Hayes]

22. I can see HST, but HST?

is that funny?

or what?

[stevedeshazer]

25. Whoa. Those fucking bats.

:silly:

[Gabi Hayes]

29. pass the ether, and....

hand me that grapefruit...don't forget the Bowie knife

[King Coal]

4. Just let it be, Gabi.

Peace.

[Gabi Hayes]

7. why? it just came out

and I miss him very much

he is NEEDED today, more than ever

[hardrainfallin]

8. Just be glad he didn't live long enough to

see this.

I'm thinking that about a lot of people, actually.

[Gabi Hayes]

12. that's exactly why he should be alive today

can you imagine what he'd have to say about this?

[hardrainfallin]

13. I'd imagine that this would have been

the next thing to put him over the edge.

[Gabi Hayes]

16. man.....I could use some acid or something fun

http://www.countryjoe.com/rag.htm

listen to the song here

http://www.countryjoe.com/ra/fixin.ram

[hardrainfallin]

30. I've long advocated for the notion that

slipping a hit of acid into the WH Koolaid would work wonders by way of solving the worlds problems.

[Gabi Hayes]

32. tee hee (as in Grace slick Teacups/Whitehouse)

then, there's always this



from this



blotter

blotter elvis



check it out

http://www.erowid.org/chemicals/lsd/lsd_images_gallery1.shtml

[Gabi Hayes]

33. ps....how many times did Cary Grant do acid?

[Wabbajack]

5. Didn't he always say he was gonna kill himself one day?

it's tragic that he felt that way.

[Gabi Hayes]

10. yeah, and he had several fantasies....one of which was something like this

loading a convertible with high explosives, filling the rest of the car with ether, booze, etc., ala FALILV, getting up a nice head of steam, and driving off a stretch of mountain highway in Georgia.

maybe Stone Mountain

while sailing through the sky, he'd blow the car up

I've never been able to find it again, but it was pretty striking

going down to get my copy of his letters and pick up on that

[Radio_Lady]

11. I'm turning 67 next year. I've had a lot of down times, disappointments,

and depression. Thank goodness for the wonderful medicine and the therapy that helped me get through this life, even when things were the darkest.

To MDDA "Manic Depressive and Depressive Association"

http://www.mddaboston.org/

at McLean Hospital in Belmont, Massachusetts (where singer and songwriter James Taylor went much earlier, by the way!). I went to MDDA meetings for months and found much solace and comfort from others. (Regrettably, we occasionally heard at meetings about people who had committed suicide due to whatever demons existed for them.)

To the staff and many people at Emerson Hospital in Concord, Massachusetts, where I had to spend a couple of weeks over many years.

To several psychologists and psychiatrists who helped along the way, and my personal doctor for 27 years where we lived in Mass. I wish we could replace you, but we're now in an HMO which seems to be a sorry excuse for the care we used to receive!

And, most of all, to the tricyclic antidepressants that absolutely saved my life several times -- and still "stand by" if things get out of control.

It's too bad that Hunter Thompson didn't get the treatment he needed...

[Gabi Hayes]

14. thank you! my mom suffered from that, and it was ineffably sad

she'd go from unbelievable, extreme manic obsessions, to absolute catatonia

she had ECT thee times over a thirty year period, and it was the ONLY thing that worked at those points

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[thebigidea]

17. beyond fucking sleazy to piggyback this crap on a great man's death

[Gabi Hayes]

18. how are YOU, btw?

you've heard that he was supposedly doing an expose on MIHOP?

that's the one I'd read about here

I don't have a problem with links like that. anything's possible, isn't it?

this one may not have legs, but it's pretty certain that the sex ring in question (Franklin?) was real; I didn't even bother to read the links

[thebigidea]

19. so an evil ring of pedophiles killed him with Juan in the next room?

then again, maybe he'd get a dark chuckle out of such speculation.

[Gabi Hayes]

20. hey....I don't follow that at all; have no interest

but, as I said, is there anything of which they're incapable?

got any good Cheney renderings of late?

[thebigidea]

24. I dunno, I just think: he chose his way out, we could at least...

... acknowledge it.

"got any good Cheney renderings of late?"

Nah. Kinda retired from that game, got back to my previous life - finishing a film that due to stopping everything due to the monkeyman, dragged on for 4 years.

Lots of dead ends and frustration trying to worm my way into the "liberal media" was also a contributing factor. Weak-kneed fuckers!

[stevedeshazer]

27. Get a new hobby. Seriously.

This one's not workin' out for ya.

[CityZen-X]

23. Hunter My Friend

I enjoyed the company of HST along with many Osley induced nights in S.F. Acid conversations included the spectrum of life and death. But death was a humorous point in our psycho-babble, all of us philosophizing and tripping on the substance of the ultimate trip.
I believe Hunter (I love you) at the end came to the conclusion that his works could no longer effect, or shall we say counter the shade of things to come. His purpose or his existence may have lacked credibility in a world that no longer gave cred to intellectual thought. So why not take that ultimate escape from reality. Death is an acid trip without report, in which we all will be tripping into some time before.

[Gabi Hayes]

31. well, if that's the case, you should do some autobio stuff, my friend

seriously

from the beats through the mid seventies were the real golden era of American letters, despite what anybody says

I'm watching a vid from the library: "whatever happened to Jack Kerouac," and it's fascinating to see the diaspora gathered together in one place, from Ferlinghetti to Burroughs to Cosrso to William Buckley (!), to Kerouac's daughter, just to name a few

trying to find my copy of Dharma Bums for a pickmeup

seriously, though

PM me if you'd like to expound privately on your experiences, espec the Owsley stuff

"On the hill their stuff was laced with kerosene
But yours was kitchen clean...... "

[CityZen-X]

34. The Kitchen Was A Scene

I do appreciate the thought, but if I was to do that it would have to come via blog which I do intend on doing. My mind is such a terrible thang, which leaves little room for nostalgia. I have my memories of those daze, and the happening of ten years time ago. My relationship with the Hunter was personal and spiritual. We both at the time were employed by the Mitchell Bros. And had many a crazy DAZE!

[thebigidea]

35. a shame he never put together "The Night Manager" about that time

the few pages in the recent tome are great, but there was a terrific longer work just waiting to happen there. Coke nerves? Writer's block? A loss, anyway.

those brothers were certainly characters, though - would love to see your recollections when you get to 'em, be sure to post a link here!

[psychopomp]

37. You were both employed by the Mitchell bros?

That's strange, lol! I used to live down the street from that place, at least until our building caught fire.

[Blue_Tires]

36. very sad