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a substitute drug for Oxy. A caller, in the last few minutes, kinda gave a really loaded question about it. The new drug starts with a "V" and it is not Vicodin. I disremember the name of it, but he says he discovered this drug while in rehab. Supposedly to control his back pain that doesn't seem to affect his golf swing. He asserts the back only hurts when he is sitting. That he has two herniated discs in his back.
So maybe he won't go back on Oxy...maybe he'll just start to OD on this new drug. One way or another, I bet Rush is already...or soon will be...abusing Oxy or this new drug. I say this because from what I listened to of Rush, he obviously hasn't learned to humble himself, and has no idea what humility is.
And without that, he will eventually fail at rehab. I know, I had a drinking problem myself for a long time. I was drowning my problems and my pain, in alcohol. I was so busy denying a painful truth about myself, drowning it in alcohol, that I nearly became an alcoholic.
A therapist I was working with at the time recognized the underlying problem, and encouraged me to deal with it...and put me on a 90-day sobriety check. I followed through. I've no doubt that, had I failed that, I'd be an alcoholic today.
As it is now, I am able to drink socially, put it down when I've had enough....I can go a month or more with no alcohol and it doesn't bother me....been YEARS since I got anything more than a mild buzz, which nowadays takes only about 2 beers.
I can buy a 12-pack of beer, and it'll sit in my fridge for over a month, usually, before I have drunk it all.
I suspect Rush has some OTHER problem, somewhere else in his life, and is using Oxy...or was using Oxy...the same way I used alcohol. And, by his words yesterday, I'd gather he has yet to face up to whatever internal monster he has that turned him to Oxy.
In my case, my internal monster was transgenderism. But I couldn't at the time, face up to what I knew. I couldn't face the potential loss of friends, family, job, career, etc...that would come along with a gender transition. I needed a support network. My therapist saw to it that I got one. I was then able, eventually, to face that inner monster, and do what I needed to do...and the support network helped.
I'm kinda also wondering if Rush has any sort of support network, post-rehab. My own guess is no...he seems the type that would eschew any such support network, choosing instead to view rehab as a "punishment," not as a potentially life-changing experience. And if that is the way your mind works, you are doomed to addiction, in one form or another.
Maybe he won't get back on Oxy. But I bet if he doesn't, he finds something else to get himself addicted to. Even food has the ability to become addictive to some people.
Anyway, this is longer than I meant for it to be already. But, it appears that we have the same old Rush back. He's not in the least sorry, repentant, or humbled. In fact, he probably is pissed at his former maid for opening her mouth about it.
After all...one thing I have learned in talking to, and observing conservatives....it's okay if you sin...so long as no one else SEES the sin. this, I think, is a main reason conservatives hate homosexuals and transgender people like me. They can SEE our "sin."
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