Is it just me, or is there something about Sunday morning?

[Sapphocrat]

I woke up this morning more enraged and depressed than I was in the 48 hours previous. Oh, I've been enraged and depressed since last Tuesday, of course, but for a couple of days, it was all kept in check by two avenues into which to channel my feelings: 1) launching a search engine of companies to boycott/support (which I hope to give you guys for your input sometime tonight), and 2) this thread, which I truly believe is the seed of a VERY productive longterm strategy for us.

I wouldn't say I went to bed "happy" last night, but at least I had some direction.

This morning, I still have direction, but even before I got out of bed, I was consumed all over again by hopeless outrage. As a matter of fact, my first thought was of the guy who killed himself at Ground Zero yesterday: I understand why he did it. (No, no, don't worry, anyone -- I'm not suicidal, and I wouldn't do it even if I were. I have a family who loves me, and my karma would get so totally fucked up, my next life would be even worse than this one.)

I'm supposed to go shopping with my mom today, which (although I generally hate shopping) is normally fun for me -- I love my mom and genuinely enjoy her company. I'm also supposed to get on a plane Tuesday night to go see my sister in NYC for a few days. I love and enjoy my sister too, dearly, and I love being in NYC.

And I don't want to do ANY of these things. I don't want to have to be cordial to total strangers, all the while wondering who they voted for. I don't want to spend money on The System. I just don't want to go anywhere, or see anyone today.

I suppose this reaction is normal, and there's really nothing anyone can say to cheer me up right now... so I guess all I'm asking is for some commiseration.

So who else woke up this morning surprised to feel even worse than they did yesterday?

[short bus president]

1. Wow. Worse than yesterday would've taken some doing.

But I'm totally with you on the "fuck it, I'm not going anywhere, doing anything, or dealing with anyone outside of the Lounge" thing.

[skygazer]

2. Me

For one thing, I was hoping to get lucky this morning but those hopes were dashed when he leaped up and got in the shower before I was fully awake. By the time I asked if I was out of luck, he was all wrapped up in other things so I am left feeling doubly crappy.

Sorry, but you asked. :shrug:

[Sapphocrat]

10. If it's any consolation...

...I get lucky only once a year, and have to leave the country to do it, 'cause my partner and I aren't allowed to live together in the U.S.

Not trying to one-up you -- but see, there's always something worse out there.

Now, go interrupt whatever he's doing, and DEMAND he do his spousal duty! Tell him it's "terror sex." ;)

[skygazer]

12. Thanks, you made me laugh

I needed that. Just feeling sorry for myself today, I guess. I don't usually wallow in self-pity but every now and then it's kinda cathartic.

You've perked me up, though. Gracias. :hi:

[sub.theory]

3. Sunday Morning Coming Down

On a Sunday morning sidewalk,
I'm wishing, Lord, that I was stoned.
'Cause there's something in a Sunday
That makes a body feel alone.
And there's nothing short a' dying
That's half as lonesome as the sound
Of the sleeping city sidewalk
And Sunday morning coming down.

-Johnny Cash (R.I.P. Johnny)

I know how you feel Sapphocrat. Still feeling very down myself. Yes, there is something about a Sunday Morning....

[Sapphocrat]

15. Perfect lyrics for the way I feel right now...

...and from the Man In Black, no less.

Thanks, sub, you just inspired me to put on some music. I think I will dust off my old Sarah Vaughn LP, the one with "Black Coffee" on it.

[Pirate Smile]

4. I felt worse today. Not as bad as Wednesday but I went backward

from yesterday. I don't know why.

[DireStrike]

5. Yes, definitely...

I think this one has to do with the fact that another day/night has gone by and it's still not fixed.

Still, it's not even a week since the diebolding. Our organizational bodies are still scrambling, and us regular joes and janes are left out to hang for the time being. We're riding the roller coaster of instinct and popular sentiment, but even though it's going up and down, we're still on track.

[Nay]

6. It's not just you. I live in VA, and I can pretty much count on anyone

I see as a * voter, and frankly, I'm in a mood where I think they should all die of aneurysms. Today has been especially bad for no reason that I can see, other than it just may be sinking in that The Idiot has another 4 years. I do not believe that even ironclad proof of voter fraud will go anywhere, in the media or in the courts. I also have to go back into a basically Bush workplace for the rest of my working life, and that totally depresses me. I am not at all sure that these morons are mentally able to assess Bush's disasters in the next 4 years any better than they did in the last 4 years, so I truly see no betterment in the future.

[Sapphocrat]

17. 'They should all die of aneurysms'

THAT is the first thing today that's made me crack even half a smile. :)

You have my deepest sympathy, living in Virginia. At least I know that some 60% of the people I will run into here are true-blue Dems. But then there that's 40% who should all die of aneurysms...

Re another four years... It feels like I thought I had just completed a prison sentence of four-to-eight, and I just got turned down for parole.

[ScreamingMeemie]

7. I feel worse than I have this whole cycle of fraud. I found out my

favorite cousin was a sticker wearing freak...er freep at my mother's surprise 60th birthday party. They invited us for thanksgiving and I turned her down. I just don't want to acknowledge or hang with these people anymore.

:hi:

[short bus president]

9. Hang in, Mrs. G.

You gotta be strong to carry the future of the Second Coming of liberalism. ;-)

There might even be a sainthood in it for ya.

[ScreamingMeemie]

14. Heh...I'd love to hear, "Saint Grumpy....Pray For Us" added to the litany

of saints....

Thanks for the smile. ;)

[Sapphocrat]

18. I've written off 3/4 of my so-called family...

There's a huge faction of blood relations (they are NOT family to me) of staunch repukes I refuse to associate with. When I die, I hope nobody tells them, because I don't want their damned crocodile tears.

And with THAT happy little thought... LOL :hi:

[HockeyMom]

8. For what it is worth

When you go into NYC, console yourself with the fact that NY and ALL the other states PERSONALLY touched by 9/11 DID NOT VOTE FOR BUSH.

THAT speaks VOLUMES. Karl Rove spin, or NO Karl Rove spin.

[Sapphocrat]

19. Very good point...

And were NYC not the bastion of liberalism it is, I wouldn't go. (I've already vowed to keep my travels within the U.S. restricted solely to the extreme east and west coasts. If I ever have to drive back east again, I'm crossing Canada to do it.)

What sucks is that my sister (a '60s love child who is even MORE lefty than I am) is so spiritually evolved that she actually counts three stupid repukes among her close friends.

God help them if I run into them -- their ears will melt.

My only real concern will the general mood in Manhattan. Any New Yorkers want to clue me in?

[bigwillq]

11. I feel worse even though I had a good night out at the bar

I was in a great mood at the bar until about 2 a.m. when some shit went down and now today I feel worse than I have since Wed. (which was a truly awful day for me).


This election has really got me evaluating my life and the more I think about shit, the more I get depressed.

[foreigncorrespondent]

13. I know how you feel, kinda!

I had the worst dreams last night, that I have had this entire week.

In short I dreamt of a long train. This train was being populated by thousands of queers, only the train wouldn't let me on it. I stood at either a door or a window of this train screaming for you, because you had already borded the train, but you didn't come back.

As I was crying and screaming for you, all these guards showed up, it was then I realized that this was a train moving all the queers to the concentration camps. And the reason I couldn't get on to be with you, is because I am not an American citizen.

Every time I woke up because from this dream last night, I was in a cold sweat. I would lay awake for a bit then doze back off, and sure enough, I would dream the same damn thing again, over and over again.

Today, I am very drained, very down, and very depressed! I guess all these damn "purge the party of queers" threads that have been around lately, have truly taken their toll on me. On top of that, I know it is a deep down feeling that Bush* and the evil cabal will actually do this, and there won't be a damn thing I can do to be with you, or save you.

Gonna go cry in my cuppa now.

[Sapphocrat]

21. Well...

Maybe that explains the dream I had about the battered and muddy kangaroos last week.

:hug:

[foreigncorrespondent]

23. Oh it could do too!

Our dreams certainly end up telling us something!

:hug:

[sundog]

16. Sunday Mourning is more like it

Yup. Today sux. Really.
:(

[Sapphocrat]

22. Or...

...The Mourning After.

Feels like a terminal hangover.

[neebob]

20. I feel better today than yesterday

and felt better yesterday than the day before. This week has been very liberating for me personally. I've shaken off a couple of guilt things, which always feels good. Despite the knowledge that things are going to get worse, I feel better because I know I'm right AND I still have hope.

[Pirate Smile]

24. HOPE. That is what is missing for me right now. That is why it is so

depressing.