I've been a jerk

[Tom Kitten]

I apologize for this
I'm very sorry
please forgive me?

[JimmyJazz]

1. Someone was looking for you this morning. Did you see that

thread? They were worried about you.

[Tom Kitten]

3. Yes I pmed them all...

I received some bad news Wednesday morning that made me feel awful and that came across in my posts that evening...
I just wanted to show face here again with letting people know I am idiosyncronatic but not insensitive...

[JimmyJazz]

5. I didn't read everything that happened, but apparently people

around here care about you, so don't be too hard on yourself - m'kay?

:hug:

[Tom Kitten]

9. m'kay!

when you were 101er and I was countfloyd I voted on your sig pic! The best Joe Strummer pic? Remember that? Oh those were the days of joy, before Nov. 2!

[JimmyJazz]

11. I still haven't gotten around to putting that picture in my sig line

they'd been down for so long it seemed pointless. I'll put one in soon.

[SmokingJacket]

2. You lost your mittens.

Didn't you?

[Tom Kitten]

6. yeah I always do that

today was cold! I looked in my mittens drawer and it was empty!
But I suppose it is my lot in life...always looking for gLove!

[miss_kitty]

4. TOm Kitten

You are ok. Good. Who cares if you've been a jerk?

I was never upset with you, only for you. So there's nothing to forgive

:hi:

[Tom Kitten]

8. Thank you

I appreciate your attention very much...Really! I'm still rather scared though, when I think about it...

[FuzzySlippers]

7. I'm glad to see you back, Tom!

:hi: People were worried about you.

[Tom Kitten]

10. Thank you!

I always liked nice warm fuzzyslippers myself!
Now if I can only live this whole thing down!

[FuzzySlippers]

12. No need to live anything down.

Do you want to talk about what was bothering you? We'll understand if you don't.

[Tom Kitten]

13. I thought I did but I guess I didn't...

It's personal in the details but colon cancer is what they are going after...

[FuzzySlippers]

14. I'm really sorry.

[auntAgonist]

18. didn't see

you being a jerk, but know you are in my thoughts and prayers. hang in there. colon cancer is one of the easiest cancers to beat! I'm sending good wishes your way for a healthy future!!!

sincerely

auntAgonist.

[Tom Kitten]

23. thank you!

your post and Santa too really raised my spirits!

Personally, I never tended towards being a jerk but I have been one on occasion and I have regretted it ever since...

[progmom]

15. Hey Tom

Thanks for letting us know. We really care about you, and hate to see you so down.
I'm sorry the eedjits were being so insensitive on Thursday. Sometimes I worry that we're becoming more like the people we're reacting against.

Please keep us up to date on your health news, ok?

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[Tom Kitten]

16. Luckily I missed that

But I did not miss some truly nice people! Thank you.

[jpgray]

17. I remain a jerk

That probably explains why I haven't started a similar thread.

:hi:

[Tom Kitten]

19. I like your avatar

Mark in the early days eh?
If it turns out I'm terminal who do I will my Fall cds to? I have about 50 of them...

[jpgray]

20. Mail them along with your corpse to someone you don't like?

:D

[jpgray]

21. Or

You could rig up some decent-sized helium balloons, each with a Fall cd attached, and become sort of a post-punk Johnny Appleseed.

[Tom Kitten]

25. that sounds better

than your other reply...
yes, thousands of cds of "The Man Whose Head Expanded", "The North Will Rise Again", etc., all raining down on the Bible Belt from a fleet of zeppelins floating over America sounds great to me...Please as my dying wish help make it so!

[miss_kitty]

22. You know, that's a natural thought given your situation

there's a lot that can be done these days. It's scary though, Tom Kitten. And I don't blame you for bein' scared. Once the drugs wore off, I really was freaked. That was about 3 years ago and I'm doing fine. One thing that helped me was thinking about getting to the other side of treatment. And I did. It was over before I knew it.

You'll do ok, if that's what it is. You don't know for sure yet, do you?

:)

[Tom Kitten]

24. no I don't....

know for sure yet...and I admit I'm scared outta my britches!
I have so much I wanted to do but haven't because I was (or am) complacent...I could and should have done so much more with my life but I've always been so confused as to what my mission, my goal in life was...

[miss_kitty]

27. Well if it helps

even though I've been through it and it was scary and shit, I STILL don't know what my mission in life is.

Sometimes, it's just not spelled out for us.

I have always been that way, and have chased false goals in the belief I was SUPPOSED to have one.

It's a scary time for you. May I suggest, if it is possible for you to think of stuff you like to do, things you would do if you had no constraints on you, instead of what MAY be going on inside your body.

Here's my reasoning. If you DON'T have it, you worried for nothing. If you DO have it, worrying about it is not going to change your situation. Thinking of stuff you like is much healthier for your mind and body, and the chemistry that goes along with it is much better for you than the panicky stuff.

I know it sounds simplistic, and you may not be able to do it, but if you can, you'll find your situation, whatever it may or may not be, will not feel so overwhelming to you.

Please PM me if you ever want to.

Edited for spelling

[flaminbats]

26. never fear, I'm the master at being insulting...

time & an open mind heals the deepest wounds.

[Tom Kitten]

28. well don't write me off just yet

Tuesday I get the roto-rooter job up the ass and I figure I deserve some serious drugs for my effort...
All I can say from this is from now on I will see the "Uranus" threads in a new light!

[miss_kitty]

29. Fentanyl is a fine high

that's what they gave me...

:smoke:

[KT2000]

30. Glad to see your post

was worried.
I hope your test comes out OK.
A friend of mine just had one of those and the drugs they gave her made her hilarious. I don't know what they gave her but I hope you get the same. She thought it was a great experience (drugs talking I am sure).

[Tom Kitten]

31. thanks for the reassurance...

All I know is I have to take the day off from work and have someone pick me up afterwards...