The RetroLounge Daily Poem Thread (Tue 1/17/06)

[RetroLounge]

Alone With Everybody

the flesh covers the bone
and they put a mind
in there and
sometimes a soul,
and the women break
vases against the walls
and the men drink too
much
and nobody finds the
one
but keep
looking
crawling in and out
of beds.
flesh covers
the bone and the
flesh searches
for more than
flesh.

there's no chance
at all:
we are all trapped
by a singular
fate.

nobody ever finds
the one.

the city dumps fill
the junkyards fill
the madhouses fill
the hospitals fill
the graveyards fill

nothing else
fills.

Charles Bukowski

*******************************

What's the fucking point anymore?

It just fucking hurts too much...

RL

[ScreamingMeemie]

1. What's the point Retro? The point is that there are people here who

care about you more than you will let yourself realize. :hug: The point is that this seems like the end...when in reality, it may be the beginning of the best years of your life. If none of that sustains you, the point is your children.


Please be strong, sweetheart, I know I am just a voice on the internet. But I DO and will always care. Be there for your babies. If you need to talk. PM for phone number.


Hug,

Laura

[Callalily]

2. We certainly can pinpoint

your moods by the selections you present here. Seems like you're on a roller coaster of emotions, and that's well to be expected. Don't think too hard, just let life happen. Take care of yourself, and make your kids top priority. The rest will fall into place.

I'll be sending you healing thoughts.

[RetroLounge]

24. Yeah, I don't have mood swings

I have a mood swing set...

RL

[progmom]

3. it can feel that way sometimes

hug your kids. they are the ones. :hug:

[RetroLounge]

20. Poor kids keep asking why daddy is so sad

I have no idea what or how to tell them, so I just tell them everyone gets sad sometimes and I love them and it is all fine.

RL

[swimboy]

21. What will you tell them

when I get there?

[RetroLounge]

22. Just the usual...

That the Pool Boy is here...

:rofl:

RL

[swimboy]

26. LMFuckinAO!

:spray: :rofl:

[lizziegrace]

4. Hang on

Besides losing a child, I think this is the second most difficult event you'll ever experience. You've got your children and an entire community of people who would gladly take the pain from you if just for a few minutes.

:hug: :hug: :hug:

[CaliforniaPeggy]

5. My dear RetroLounge.....

I hear and see your pain, my dear.....Oh boy do I.......

You matter so much to me, and to all of us......

I am here for you......


:loveya: :hug:

[swimboy]

6. That's today's poem, but not tomorrow's.

You'll feel good again. You'll feel fulfilled again. But I'll hang out with you where you are right now. :pals:

[RetroLounge]

9. Thanks.

I'll pick you up from the airport...

:hug:

RL

[wildhorses]

7. May I pm you a poem I wrote for some constructive

criticism? Today's poem has the same theme and I trust your judgment to tell me whether my shit is crap or if my crap is shit...





edited for omitted letters....need a new keyboard

[RetroLounge]

8. Feel free.

But I am no critic.

All creativity is beautiful.

RL

[wildhorses]

10. just remember that I wrote it on a day like the day you are

having today...check your inbox in about 5 min.

[miss_american_pie]

11. RL, sweetie

:hug:

Now if you don't lay off the Bukowski, I'll be forced to deluge your inbox with the "verses" inside Hallmark cards.

I'm sorry you're having a bad day.

[LaraMN]

12. Oh no, sweetness.

The "point" is whatever we make of it.

The point for most is to attain happness and/or contentment, I suppose. You will have to wade through the sludge of desperation and hopelessness, before you can pull your feet from it. As some assert, without the dark there is no light. When you finally reach a ray of it, I believe it will warm you all the more, for your suffering.

We all have our bruises; some which disappear with haste, others which linger and bleed below the surface. The only real remedy we have is each other, and you have so many of us.

My love to you, RL. Take life one moment at a time and allow yourself your grief. It will have to be released one way or another, in order to lessen.

:hug: :hug: :hug:

[RetroLounge]

13. It feels like I am bleeding to death

one drop at a time, one drop each day, day after day, knowing the inevitable will happen on that one day in the near future, when I say goodbye to my current life as I bleed out and just drop...

RL

p.s. Shit, what a drama queen I've become...

[swimboy]

14. P.S. You should rent and watch Priscilla, Queen of the Desert

to see what drama queens are made of.

[RetroLounge]

19. Loved that movie...

:hi:

RL

[lizziegrace]

18. As drama queens go

you're a rookie!

:hug:

[RetroLounge]

23. I can only aspire to great heights...

Maybe Rookie-of-the-year?

:hug:

RL

[lizziegrace]

25. ...

Best actor in an ongoing drama? But you'll only be eligible for a single season. In time, the rain will stop and the clouds will part.

:hug: :hug: :hug:

Check in when your daughter's about 11. She'll show you what drama queens are really like!

[SeattleGirl]

15. The point is life, my friend

Even though you hurt, and I've known that kind of pain, it will not be that way forever. Hang on to us, as we care so much about you. And, as others have said, focus on your children, one of the best examples of life. Take care of yourself. :hug:

[RevCheesehead]

16. The point is that we've all walked this path.

Not in exactly the same way, but we know the pain.
The Lounge is your Oxycontin. :insert lame Limbaugh joke here:
Your friends are Morphine. (name them, right now, in your heart)
Your children are the reason for enduring, and fighting the pain.

Nobody can take away the pain. If we could, we'd do that for you.
Pain acknowledges that something is broken, and needs attention. You didn't think that it would go away that quickly, did you? How could it, when so much love went into the relationship.

I love ya, my friend.
:hug:

[CaliforniaPeggy]

17. Your words work for more of us than just RL, my dear Rev.....

Thank you for them.....:hug: