Twenty-five years ago today I lost the one person I love the most in life

[LynneSin]

So tonight, all of you putting up with my shenigans is so much appreciated because all I really want to do is crawl into the fetal position and cry my eyes out.

My father was the absolute love of my life. The first time I ever voted was thanks to him (I was only 10 but he let me pull the lever for Jimmy Carter). Twenty-five years ago today I my father died of lung cancer. I loved him more than life itself but no matter how much we bugged him he couldn't give up smoking. He finally quit when cancer took him away from the family who loved him.

My father was so adventurous, he'd not only try anything once but he would encourage me to go out there and try myself even if by chance I might fail. Because failure to him was never trying in the first place. But even when he pushed to hard, I always had my mother to curb me back in. She was his Ying to his Yang.

I would live the rest of this lifetime under the Bush Regime just to have another five minutes back with him. I miss him so much. He made me think for myself back when girls were only suppose to grow up and find a man to take care of them.

I love you dad, I know you're there watching over me and everyday I wish you were here next to me!!

[northofdenali]

1. .... Lynne

:hug::hug:

[EstimatedProphet]

2. I'm very sorry

Losing a dad is tough at any age, even harder as a child.

My grandfather died from lung cancer almost 30 years ago. I miss him.

[GOPisEvil]

3. ...

:hug:

[ForrestGump]

4. I don't have the words,

but I do have this,a nd I mean it with all my heart and invest it with love: :hug:

I'm so sorry for your loss...in a very real way, though, you can never lose him. To live in the hearts we leave behind is not to die...

[billyskank]

5. .

:hug:

[NMMNG]

6. My condolences Lynne

:grouphug:

[Heidi]

7. He's there by your side, gf.

:hug:

[Floogeldy]

8. Some people never even get to see their natural parents.

[SeattleGirl]

9. Lynne,

I'm sorry you lost your dad. Next month, it will be 29 years since I lost my dad, and I still miss him. :hug:

[Crazy Guggenheim]

10. Sorry.

:hug:

[CaliforniaPeggy]

11. My dear Lynne......

Our words come to you, but they don't really fill the enormous gap you feel.....nevertheless, we keep trying.....

My profound condolences, my dear.....:hug:

[latebloomer]

12. Oh, Lynne, I'm so sorry

It's terrible how those we love can get taken from us much too soon.

He gave you so much that you still carry with you, but he is irreplaceable.

I know how it is to stand helplessly by-- cigarettes killed my dad, too.

:cry:

[fishwax]

13. that's a very beautiful tribute

:hug:

[TallahasseeGrannie]

14. You lost him way too early

but nobody can take your father away from you, really. Not the place he has in your heart and soul.

Take it easy today and be good to yourself like he would want you to,

And may he rest in peace in a good place.

[LaraMN]

15. That's so sad, Lynne. Hugs to you.

I am fortunate enough to have both my parents still living. I understand your admiration and love for your Dad. I adore my Dad, as well. He has always treated my sister and I as though we were the greatest people in the world, and though he always worked alot, he managed to find time for us. It's sounds as though your Dad was a similar kind of parent.

Fathers are so very, very special. Mine still smokes and takes lousy care of himself and I wish he'd quit. I can only imagine how you must miss your Dad. He lives on in the wonderful daughter he raised, though. :hug:

[supernova]

16. I'm so sorry Lynne

:hug: :hug:

It's really shows how much you love your father here. I'm sure, without a doubt, that he loves you and the fine woman you have become. :hug:

[Hugin]

17. Awe Lynne...

What a wonderful post.

I'm sure he's smiling at you all the time!

;)

[Misunderestimator]

18. Here's to your Dad, Lynne.

And :hug: for having lost him so early in life. It sounds like he was a wonderful man.

[JitterbugPerfume]

19. ((((((((((HUG))))))))))))))

from Jitterbug

[miss_american_pie]

20. I'm so sorry for your loss

He sounds like a wonderful dad.

[nothingshocksmeanymore]

21. If he did anything right, he raised an awesome caring daughter

So when you look in the mirror and love yourself, you are honoring him. Sorry the body, the man and the personality we called your dad are gone...happy his best traits live on in you and that I have had the pleasure of knowing you...when you are missing him real bad, go do something adventurous and you'll see him :hug:

[khashka]

22. I don't know what to say Lynne

Except that I'm sure your Dad knew how you felt about him

You want five minutes with him, I want five minutes with my little sister - so I can say "I love you". Neither of us will ever get that.

But your Dad helped make you the woman you are - no regrets, only appreciation.


Khash.

[Rhiannon12866]

23. I am so sorry, my friend. And I understand. Today is my Dad's birthday.

I lost him 15 years ago, to throat cancer, way too young, as well. And my first experiences voting were also going in the booth with him and pulling the levers. And my Dad also only expected the best from me, would never settle for anything less. We had our ups and downs, especially when I was a teen-ager, but he was the one person I knew was always in my corner. And I still also miss him terribly, but especially today. There is so much that he had left to teach me. Happy birthday to my Dad, and my sympathies to you. Kudos to two very fine men who left the world a better place than they found it, and raised intelligent, caring daughters, as well.:toast:;(

Rhiannon:hug:

[Midlodemocrat]

24. Lynne, so sorry for your loss.

Interesting coincidence. My dad, who passed in 2004, was born 82 years ago today.

[LynneSin]

25. Awwww, thank you everyone (((biggrouphug)))

I see that in my haze of tears and alcohol I forgot the old spellcheck.

Thank you for your kind thoughts - it meant alot. This is my year usually starts out - sad getting through January but by the end of the month I can start pulling out of it and getting through the rest of the year!!

Thanks again everyone

:grouphug:

[Missy Vixen]

26. LynneSin, I am so sorry

I can't know your pain, but I can walk in your shoes. I can't even imagine how proud of you he must be.

Julie

[GoddessOfGuinness]

27. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

:hug:
~warm caring cybervibes~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

[lpbk2713]

28. I'm sorry for the empty spot in your heart.

It's an ache that doesn't go away.

I'm glad you had the time together.

[Shine]

29. My sympathies and hugs to you.

(((((((((((((((LynneSin)))))))))))))))))))))

:hug:

What is remembered, lives. True love NEVER dies......

Shine

[Call Me Wesley]

30. I am sure he is with you.

And free from suffering. :hug:

[KatyaR]

31. Oh, Lynne, I'm so very sorry.

I know exactly how you feel. I have three really big holes in my heart--as much as I miss my parents, I miss my grandmother and my two friends the most--one died of cancer and the other committed suicide (it didn't help that I was madly in love with him and still am after almost 14 years). My life has never been the same since--sometimes I don't think I have any heart left. Just like you, I would give anything to have 5 minutes with them. I think I'd spend the whole time just holding them.

You have my deepest sympathies--sometimes that pain never goes away. :hug:

[JVS]

32. My condolences

[I Have A Dream]

33. I'm sure that he's very proud of the person that you've become.

I'm so sorry for your pain.

:hug:

[Metta]

34. Contacting a departed loved one.

Here's a link. I'm sure you'll see past the bias, which is none of mine. Pictures help immensely although I'm sure your memories will do just as well. What's important is to let the energy flow between you two once again only more consciously. Go in peace.

http://www.sun-angel.com/iam/ebooks/intouch.pdf

[WildEyedLiberal]

35. ...

:hug:

You'll see him again someday.

[Maddy McCall]

36. Your post hit home with me.

I'm going to the university clinic on Tuesday to ask for assistance in quitting.

Thank you for this post...it is perhaps the most meaningful post I have ever read at DU.

:loveya: :pals: :hug: