I feel like I'm about to pop

[reyd reid reed]

And no...not like that. It has more to do with feeling kinda...blue.

I don't know what it is...if it's lunar phases or hormones or being overtired or dissatisfied or just general 'blah' but...

I know what some of it's all about but that doesn't explain the degree and it's the degree that's bothering me.

I HATE feeling this way. It's just not ME but it's been happening more and more lately...

[BelleCarolinaPeridot]

1. I have been feeling that way all week .

And I am just feeling like " blah " today .

[reyd reid reed]

4. I know that this sounds really horrible

And I really don't mean for it to but...I'm glad I'm not the only one.

(it's that nasty old 'misery loves company' thing)

I've been trying to fight it off all week but it isn't working and I feel like I could run to the bathroom and just sit there and cry...and have no idea why.

And, seeing as I'm at work...that might not go over well.

Better than the alternative of telling everyone to get fucked, though. And I've been tempted to do that, too.

This sucks.

And I hope you feel better...less 'blah', more 'rah' tomorrow.

:hug:

[BelleCarolinaPeridot]

5. Last night at work I almost started crying .

It was'nt really a bad night . I just got over hyped due to my own overreacting and probably due to my Paxil and more with my dealings with stupid people .I am so warn out . I should take a vacation day off from work but I don't want to waste my days . And I don't like staying at home because I don't have my own place yet . And since I have been on my Paxil I have'nt had a depressing thought in 2 months . I am so worn out - the past week I had to work 10 hours extra - although I was back on my normal work schedule since Tuesday , I am mentally tired . I need to regenerate the positive energy around me . Hopefully I will find a way to do that tomorrow .

[reyd reid reed]

10. I've been on the edge

Off and on all night tonight. And lemme tell you, normally I LOVE my job, but when I'm feeling like this...it makes it tough. I try and get busy and bury myself -- but it's not working. Things keep swirling and twisting and turning and the harder I try and make it stop, the worse it gets.

It sucks.

(edited because I misspelled 'off'...I misspelled OFF. That's it. The end of the world is at hand. Heh...end of the world, huh? Well...nemmind.)

[BelleCarolinaPeridot]

11. Since we are all feeling like this ...

maybe its something lunar wise . But I wish myself and you and everyone else that is on the edge a better week .

[u4ic]

2. Oh, can I relate!!

I've been like that since last fall...and it's only intensified with spring.

It seems that what I want - or need...is behind a glass wall - I can see it, but there are still barriers...I'm not the most patient person...and it's driving me crazy... :nuke:

[reyd reid reed]

6. EXACTLY....

It's like I can see it...I know what it is that I want or need...I just can't GET to it. There's always....stuff.

I'm tired of all the Stuff. I'm tired of being tired.

Years and years and years of it, just piling up and making that glass wall thicker and thicker....

[leftofthedial]

3. the obvious copycat would be locked in 5-4-3-2-1-

[reyd reid reed]

8. Heh...yup

Wouldn't even take the count of five.

"We could lock this thread in THREE."

[Dangerously Amused]

7. Ooohhhh freaky!

I was JUST thinking about posting a thread with a title something along the lines of "I feel like my heart is about to explode" and I was deciding whether or not to do it, and if I did how the hell to describe what has been going through my head and heart these days... when I saw your thread and went...

OMG!!!

[reyd reid reed]

9. Welcome to the club

You're feeling it too? The kinda 'blah' that even Chocolate ain't gonna fix? The kind of sit-down-in-a-dark-room-and-cry mood? Do you know what's at the bottom of yours?

Heh...we oughta come up with a snazzy name for ourselves...there's strength in numbers, y'know...

:grouphug:

[Dangerously Amused]

16. Yeah, I've been there.

And still struggle with bouts of it. I know more or less what is at the bottom of it all. And I have finally, after a number of false starts, found someone to help me work through it. Unfortunately, all the chocolate in the world wasn't going to get me moving in that direction. Not even really really good chocolate from Switzerland or Belgium.


I'm sorry to learn that you're going through it, too. Do you have someone to talk to about it? Someone who is a really good listener?

[Random_Australian]

12. Solution:

Stick a pen or pencil in your mouth for an hour. crossways, ie in the same direction as a line drawn between your two pupils.
Don't bite too hard.

*******I AM SERIOUS *********

Edit: It does work for at least the first few times. Leave at least a month between each session.

[reyd reid reed]

13. Y'know...the way I'm feeling

I'd probably give it a try. Except that's part of the problem...I ain't got an hour to sit with a pencil in my teeth.

Besides...I'm still at work and they'd look at me funny.

Then I'd have to go cry again.

[Floogeldy]

14. You are destined to live in a padded cell, huddled in the corner . . .

. . . wearing a straight jacket.

DAMN! I hate it when this happens. :(

[fizzgig]

15. oh hun

i popped last night, lost it totally

it was the moon and the cycle

i think it's healthy for everyone once in a while to let it out

[reyd reid reed]

17. I just don't do that very well.

And, on those rare occasions that I do let myself pop...I usually feel worse.

I hope that's all it is...the moon and the cycle and that I'll be over it in the next day or two before I go and do something really, really stupid. 'Cause I feel a 'stupid' coming on. This is when I really need to go hide under the bed.

God, I hate this.

Lock myself in the closet...maybe that's it. I'll go home and lock myself in the closet.

[fizzgig]

18. don't lock yourself away

let it out

it may feel odd to you, but it is good

don't keep it all inside, it is poison