Have you ever wanted to just walk away from it all?

[lizziegrace]

Pick a place on the map and start over where no one knows you? And I'm just talking about the town I live in and the job I have. I'd never, ever walk away from my Lelapin. :hug:

I'm feeling very restless and "stuck" right now. It will pass, I hope.

[Starbucks Anarchist]

1. I'm sorry.

:hug:

[lizziegrace]

12. Thanks

:hug:

[RetroLounge]

2. Yes, I have had that feeling...

It passes eventually :hug:

RL

[lizziegrace]

6. I have that feeling more often than I'd care to admit

I keep moving around trying to find a home. Must be a pretty big void in my life if I've lived in 11 states in my life...

:(

[RetroLounge]

14. I was once told to "Bloom where I was Planted..."

so i stayed here in Milwaukee. Temptation to flee has been overpowering as of late...

RL

[lizziegrace]

17. I'm sure it has

:hug:

It will pass. I've just got to stop running. Maybe if I just stay still for a while...

[fizzgig]

3. .

:hug:

[billyskank]

5. Hi kagehime!

:*

:hug:

[fizzgig]

9. hi billy

:* and :hug:

[lizziegrace]

30. Thanks

:hug:

[billyskank]

4. Bedford, England

That's a good place to try. :D

:hug:

[lizziegrace]

8. How far from Stourport again?

I got to speak with my sister yesterday and because Vonage has 3-way calling, my twin sister from Oklahoma was on the call too. God I miss my sisters.

:hug:

Bedford is on the list of possible places to run to.

:loveya:




:*

[Dangerously Amused]

7. COME LIVE WITH MEEEEEEEEEEE LIZZIEGRACE!!!!11!!

:bounce:



Lelapin too! And your aminals!


:7



:hug:

[lizziegrace]

10. How cool would that be!!

Um, what region are you in? (I need to know how to pack.)

Widget and Gracie will be so pleased, not. ;)

:hug:

you're a sweetheart, you know that?

[Dangerously Amused]

22. Pack it all mama, the weather is crazy here.

Wouldn't we have FUN though?!


If you were here right now you'd be helping me make gingerbread cookies to use up all my extra holiday baking ingredients.


Right now I'm making Psychotic Gingerbread Men. Heeeee! :7 I'll post a few pics if they turn out.


:hi:

[lizziegrace]

31. I can't wait to see the pictures

hehehe

You, Reyd Reid Reed and I would turn a town on its ear. :evilgrin:

[hfojvt]

11. I've done it three times

It's really no fun because it is very, very hard for me to get a decent job. And making friends? Fuggedabadit. Not gonna happen.

On the plus side, it's not like I have left a decent job or friends. Well, I did leave a couple friends the 2nd time.

[lizziegrace]

13. I keep trying to find a home

and it's obviously not a physical place or I'd have put down roots already.

Thanks for the advice.

:hug:

[idgiehkt]

15. forget it

[BOSSHOG]

16. May I suggest running?

Run away from it all. Take up jogging. I went through a spell (couple of years about 12 years ago) when I was pretty well whipped with depression. I started to run. And I ran and ran and ran. I couldn't run enough but I felt better physically and most important mentally. It can be hard on the joints but the improvement to my mental well being was worth it. Good Luck!

[lizziegrace]

19. That's good advice

thank you.

:hug:

[Oeditpus Rex]

18. Nope

But then, I've lived in only four houses in my life. Can't imagine having lived in 11 states. How do you do that? :scared:

But, yeah — it'll pass.

:hug:

[lizziegrace]

20. the first 6 were before I graduated HS

Dad was in the Army and after that, he was clawing his way up the corporate ladder.

:hug:

I'm conditioned to move every 2-3 years. I hope this is one of those phases that will pass.

[merh]

21. There have been times I've considered it, out of sheer

desperation and fatigue. After all, my slate was cleaned and my chances of beginning again were better elsewhere.

But I'm too hardheaded and this is home and where I belong, come hell and high water, it is where I will stay and eventually where I will die.

:hi:

:hug: :loveya:

[lizziegrace]

26. I admire your determination

:hug:

you've always got a place to come to if you need to get away for a while.

[merh]

34. Not determination as much as stubborness.

:9

thanks for the offer of an escape, one day I hope to extend a similar invite to you. :hug:

[lizziegrace]

36. You're a real

Steel Magnolia. :hug:

[merh]

48. takes one to know one, Sugah!

:hug: :loveya:

And steel is so much better than tinfoil! :silly:

[lizziegrace]

49. Bless yer heart!

:hug:

[auntAgonist]

23. yes ...

but no matter where I go, there I am.

:shrug:

The grass always looks greener on the other side of the fence so 'they' say, but ...
It still needs to be mowed. :(

aA

[lizziegrace]

29. mowing...

:(

I'm allergic to all grasses anyway. At least where I am, I have someone who mows for me.

:hug: aA

[Connonym]

24. I often dream of running away to Costa Rica or something

I'm too much of a big baby to do it but it makes for a nice fantasy. I am moving in the next few weeks and I have to admit that as sad as I feel about the circumstances of the move I'm looking forward to getting away from my very, very Gladys Kravitz neighbors.

The feeling you're having is certainly very normal and if you want it to go away it probably will. :pals:

[lizziegrace]

28. all the best with your move

:hug:

It's a tough thing to do, whether you're excited about it or dreading it.

[mzteris]

120. hey - what's the status

of your puppy dog?

Are you moving far or still in WI?

[Connonym]

122. Thanks for asking

There's a small chance that my mom may let me bring the dog with me after all! The thing is, I've got 2 dogs and my mom also has 2 herself and she felt that the pup (who is 18 months but still has puppy excitability) would be too much. She had been adamant about it but we visited over Xmas and she's softening to the idea. My sisters and I are still working on that :) If that doesn't work out, one of my sister's workmates has said she will take the pup. We all live in Waukesha so I'll still get to visit her and have play dates and so forth. Obviously, I'm hoping my mom will soften (and the city law is changing to allow a maximum of 4 dogs so that will help too!) but if not, I know that the coworker is a wonderful person and my dog will be well loved and taken care of. It makes me feel a lot less sick about the whole situation.

I'm also so grateful to the fellow DUers who offered to foster or adopt my dog. It means a lot to me to know that I'm in the company of so many gracious and caring people.

[ForrestGump]

25. I did

:D

There's the old saw that "wherever you go, there you are" -- and it's a truism, for sure -- but a change of environment and a fresh start in terms of physical and social surroundings can also work wonders. It's a lot like the kind of freeform vagabondish traveling that I used to do a lot of, though (and would love to do again, if and when the time is right): simultaneously exciting and scary as hell (the fear component may well diminish if you're lucky enough to have oodles of money to use as padding, though that trepidation is actually perhaps the most valuable part of the whole mix).

If there's one bedrock truth to all this, it's that you can do anything. Including just picking up and heading off. But sometimes you don't have to leave to start over.

I hope that this feeling subsides a few degrees if it is causing you undue anxiety at a time when practical demands have you better off remaining where you are, for now, but I hope that it still remains alive within you to ensure that your life never really becomes caught in a trap and that you always retain the dynamic of being ready to uproot and fly away even if you never actually do or need to. The tension of knowing that you could, and the conviction that the world is yours and you can have any part of it that you want, if you work toward it hard enough, can do wonders even if your physical address never, ever changes. Very Taoist, and therefore very true in its paradoxical way: arrive without traveling, and all of that...

:hug:

[lizziegrace]

27. "But sometimes you don't have to leave to start over"

how true. You've got a knack for seeing all sides and getting right to the heart of it all. :hug:

Thank you.

[zappa_parappa]

32. I was thinking about it today actually...

Job that I don't like...major relationship problems...finances that are thoroughly fucked...pretty much everything is going wrong now, I'd love to start someplace new and just get away from it all.

[lizziegrace]

35. It's really tempting, isn't it?

Welcome to DU! I hope that whatever you decide, you'll find some peace and contentment.

:hug:

[renie408]

33. Yes. It seems like I want to run every day lately.

I know EXACTLY how you feel.

I am not sure what a 'Lelapin' is, but I have two kids and a husband. I love my kids and the husband. I could never leave them. I think what I want to leave is me.

[lizziegrace]

38. Lelapin's my daughter

she posts here on the board and she's a sophmore in college.

yeah, I'd like to leave "me" for a while too.

:(


:hug: to you

[LaurenG]

37. Oh for sure

I know that feeling well. If you ever just want to get away you can go south about 100 miles and come see me.:hug:

[lizziegrace]

39. I think when spring comes

we need another Ohio meetup. I'd love to meet you.

Thanks for the support. :)

[billyskank]

41. Hey!

:loveya:

:hi: :hug:

[lizziegrace]

45. Billy!

Is this for me or OhioBlues?

:*

:loveya:

[billyskank]

46. Well now

you have put me on the spot, haven't you? ;)

Of course, I have a :* for each of you. :D

:loveya:

[lizziegrace]

47. I thought so

:hug:


;)

[DixieBlue]

40. Yes ...

It comes and goes.

I hope you get through this.

[lizziegrace]

42. I will

with friends like all of you.

:)

[Redstone]

43. Hell, yes. And I've done it. More than once.

Go ahead and do it; it can be a great adventure.

Redstone

[lizziegrace]

72. I'm keeping my options open

I just don't really have any reasons to stay, especially when Lelapin finishes college. But, at what point do you stop running? When is it enough? Am I always going to be wandering?

[Redstone]

76. Maybe; maybe not. But if you don't try, you'll always wish you had tried.

Redstone

[lizziegrace]

88. It's a matter of deciding

if this is a pattern of behavior I keep repeating because I don't know any differently, or if it really is necessary. Insanity is hitting your head against the same wall and expecting a different outcome.

I hope this makes sense.

[Madrone]

44. Yes, in fact I've done it!

I'll be doing it again soon, from the look of things. (although not for all of the same reasons)

:hug:

Sorry you're going through this, I know how much it sucks.

[lizziegrace]

73. Maybe this is my mid-life crisis

;)

[CaliforniaPeggy]

50. Ah, I have indeed, my dear lizziegrace.......

It does pass....

But in the meantime, it might be a useful exercise to try and figure out just why you want to walk away......

It can really tear you in pieces, I know.......:hug:

[lizziegrace]

74. I want to walk away

because I really can't find a reason to stay. :(

[Guava Jelly]

51. Yes ..Sometimes I wonder why i just don't

I hate my job.
My home life is just blah
Reminds me of an old Springsteen song
Hungry Heart

Got a wife and kids in baltimore jack
I went out for a ride and I never went back
Like a river that dint know where its flowing
I took a wrong turn and I just kept going

Everybodys got a hungry heart
Everybodys got a hungry heart
Lay down your money and you play your part
Everybodys got a hungry heart

I met her in a kingstown bar
We fell in love I knew it had to end
We took what we had and we ripped it apart
Now here I am down in kingstone again

Everybodys got a hungry heart...

Everybody needs a place to rest
Everybody wants to have a home
Dont make no difference what nobody says
Aint nobody like to be alone

Everybodys got a hungry heart

[lizziegrace]

52. That's basically it

"hungry heart"

Too many voids in my life I'm trying to fill somehow. I've lived here 12 years and have been divorced 5. :(

[Guava Jelly]

55. Actually the only thing stopping me is money

I need to have it to live for some reason

[buddhamama]

54. ....

:hug:

my most favorite S&G song,

you and me, bud! :hug:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5n4TULPMEsU

[Guava Jelly]

56. Listening to it now

Good afternoon buddhamama :hug:
:hi:

[idgiehkt]

58. love you GoPsUx

you are such an amazing guy and a great friend that it pains me to think that you might feel that way. That song always used to blow my mind; I would sit and listen to it and each time it came to the lyric "I went out for a ride and I never went back" I would just sit there and try to imagine what it would be like to be in that much pain...I mean, I would really ponder it.

Anyway, hugs to you and hope you feel better soon. :hug: :loveya:

[Guava Jelly]

59. Thanks idg.

I am doing ok .
I am in a descent mood .I just wonder sometimes why we build our own prisons?
I think its fear.
Fear of the unknown or Fear of change.
Thank you for the kind words you are a sweetheart :hug: :loveya:

[idgiehkt]

60. you are a sweetheart too

a really good, kind, decent person and you deserve to be happy.

I have built my own prison sometimes so I know what you mean...especially about the fear. I love that lyric in Glycerine by Bush where he says "it could have been easier by three, our old friend fear and you and me". Hey, I just realized Springsteen kind of says the same thing in "Tunnel of Love" where he says "Then the lights go out and its just the three of us/ You me and all that stuff were so scared of..."

I guess it's a theme...I realize now my problem has been not being afraid enough of stuff I should have been afraid of, instead of vice versa. In the equation 'fools rush in, where angels fear to tread', I've finally figured out I'm definitely not an angel.

Love you muchly. You can pm me anytime. I got involved with another person's dilemna today and that and a caring pm from a DU'er really lifted my mood.

:loveya: back.

[Guava Jelly]

61. Oh the truth and poetry of music

"I know I'm alone if I'm with or without you" Portions for foxes..Rilo Kiley is another good one
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Q_viDwgasxs
But enough of this already.
The one thing i have learned about self pity in ones situation is that it only leads to emptyness and pain.
I am ok.I just read a post that got me thinking..Thinking can be bad sometimes just fyi
:hug:
And thanks for the pm offer as I offer you the same.
:)

[RFKHumphreyObama]

53. All the time believe me

I've felt that way almost every day over the past five years.

Hang in there. I'm sure it will pass and I know things will get better for you:hug::hug: :loveya:

[lizziegrace]

75. Things will get better for you too

:hug:


:loveya:

[SeattleGirl]

57. Yes, indeed, lizziegrace.

As a matter of fact, I wish I could do that right now.

Hope you get "unstuck" soon. :hug:

[lizziegrace]

77. Thanks SG

You've had a terrible time. I hope things turn around for you - soon!

:hug:

[mark414]

62. you only live once

do it and don't look back

[lizziegrace]

78. It may be hard to believe

but I'm basically an introvert. I find I'm afraid of succeeding as much as I'm afraid to fail. Paralysis is usually the end result. :(

I admire your free spirit. :)

[mark414]

85. better to lie on your deathbed

full of failure but secure in the knowledge that you tried than to sit there thinking "i wish i would've..."

but you are right...it's easier for some people than others - my motto is easier done than said.

i hope you always do whatever is best for you. good luck.

[lizziegrace]

87. Thanks

:hug:


I love Woody Guthrie. One of my favorite new artists is Ellis Paul (he's at the festival in Oklahoma every year and a huge fan of Woody's.)

[InternalDialogue]

63. On wandering...

Lizzie, your post struck a chord with me. That feeling is familar. The anxiety fades, and you've got friends and family who will help through that part. The other part -- acting on it -- is all yours, in the end. But it's real, and it's normal, and it's usually a great opportunity to get a look at who you are and what you really want.

:hug:

[lizziegrace]

79. Got your PM

I'll send you one back.

:hug:

[wildhorses]

64. yep...we moved so much when i was growing up...that it really

took me a long time to "put down roots"

now then i still fantasize and love to travel
but i have "found" a home...

[lizziegrace]

80. good to know the cycle can be broken

:)

[wildhorses]

110. ---

:hug:

just now read this thread all the way through--good advice here--so many wise people in the Lounge

i see you moved a lot like i have...i think it has bred wanderlust in our veins.

i still feel the urge and i HAVE to travel

but, this ten acres are MINE all MINE and there is something about having done it on my own that helps recharge and soothes my soul. i find peace here in my neck of the woods. the field with the creek-- the deer and other woodland creatures that come to drink and bed down for the night. to look up and see the stars and know that we all see the same moon no matter WHERE we are...we are just a small piece of the puzzle and really from a distance it all looks so different...

til a quiet and a calmness washes over me...

hope this helps (and makes sense)

feelings come and feelings go but a spot on earth, a patch of dirt that you can call your own...that is a richness all its own

[lizziegrace]

111. I don't know when I'll be able to own property

My divorce pretty well shot my credit to hell. I love the farmhouse I rent, but it's not mine and all the development happening out this way will eventually force me out.

Thank you so much for your perspective. :hug:

[NewWaveChick1981]

65. Many, many times.

:hi: I know that feeling all too well. :)

[lizziegrace]

81. ...

:hug:

How's your new job?

:)

[NewWaveChick1981]

114. Very well!

:hug: :hi: Been there now since Dec. 4 and have had Dec. 22-Jan. 1 off as school holidays. :D They are glad to have me and I'm glad to be there. It's a win-win situation!

Hope your job is going well too! :)

[SoyCat]

66. Not a new state but my husband and I are sort of in the process of getting away from

our current lives. We're building a new house in another area and our new neighbors will not ever be privy to info. about our less-than-desirable relatives. It will in some ways be a re-invention of ourselves. Not through making up info but rather the withholding of info.

My mother and I had to do the same thing years ago when we pulled up stakes and moved three states away from our original home and started over. It was one of her wisest moves in her life.

If you feel something like that would benefit you, go for it.

[lizziegrace]

82. Thanks.

:)

Starting over in a new place sounds terrific. I hope it works out for you.

[SoyCat]

86. Thank you and I wish you and your daughter the very best.

[WCGreen]

67. You know, I feel like walking away from my Oxygen Machine all the

time....

The 20 or so pills and inhalers I gotta do each day....

The fact I can barely walk without sending pain up and down my leg and back...

Yea, I wanna walk away from it all the time...

[lizziegrace]

69. I know you do

wish there was a real way to heal your lungs and not just treat symptoms. :hug:

[WCGreen]

96. I wish there was a way to help you....

Gotta appointment with the Cleveland CLinic inthe AM...

Find out if I'm getting worse or just staying the same...

[lizziegrace]

97. Let me know if you are sent to OSU

I'll find out who the best specialist is.

:hug:

Let me know what they say, promise?

[WCGreen]

99. Yes, I do promise

[GOPisEvil]

68. Oh yes, whenever I get into a rut, I have those feelings.

But then...something happens and things improve and I find I like where I am again. :shrug:

[lizziegrace]

70. Maybe I should do some laundry?

:shrug:






:hug:

[GOPisEvil]

71. I'm doing some now, and I feel great!

:bounce:

:hug:

[lizziegrace]

83. I envy you

;)


:evilgrin:

[GOPisEvil]

84. Heh...

...;):evilgrin:

[bluethruandthru]

89. Yep...I did it once.

Just quit my job, packed up and moved to Washington state. I had family there and I was sick of where I was. The problem was getting another job in my field. It's a "who you know" kind of business and I didn't know anyone! I ended up in the worst depression of my life. I felt very rejected.
The lesson I learned was "never take a good job for granted"!
Unless you're independently wealthy...just packing up and moving without a job can be dangerous!

That being said... I feel for you. Any ideas where you'd like to go? Can you put out job feelers?

:hug:

[lizziegrace]

90. I turned down a good job in Colorado

because it wouldn't have been a good situation for Lelapin. I love the area. I'd would also consider heading to New England. Then there's the UK where my sister lives.

Deciding would be a nightmare. ;)

[SPKrazy]

91. Are You Kidding Me?

I feel that way right this minute.

I could never walk away from my son, ever.

But for him, I'd be soooooo gone right now.

I feel that I know too many people where I am, where I work, etc.

No matter what I do, I'm always tied to my past because of that.

It's not ever just questions about me, it's always, oh and how's ..... doing? Or even better: (happened today to bring on this funk) "man you are looking good after losing weight (sounds great!) I bet ..... is so proud of you." (If that were true, well, never mind.)

etc. etc. etc. etc. etc. etc. etc.


It gets f'in old!!!!!!

:smoke:

:nopity:

[lizziegrace]

94. Sounds like you need a chance to reinvent yourself

:hug:

:)

[SPKrazy]

95. Yes Lizziegrace, That Sounds Nice!

reinventing myself

I need a way to invent some space between my life and my possible futures if that makes sense at all.

:hug: :hug:

[lizziegrace]

98. It makes perfect sense

:)

[SPKrazy]

103. So, Any Hints About How To Do That?

or is this one of my deals to figure out?

:rofl:

[Ptah]

92. I've got no advice, just this song

This thread got me thinking of places I've lived.

Here is a song that captures the prairie of my youth



Fields of Gold

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MOEvWVZq-FA

You'll remember me when the west wind moves
Upon the fields of barley
You'll forget the sun in his jealous sky as we walk in fields of gold
So she took her love
For to gaze awhile
Upon the fields of Barley
In his arms she fell as her hair came down
Among the fields of gold
Will you stay with me will you be my love
Among the fields of barley
We'll forget the sun in his jealous sky
As we lie in fields of gold
See the west wind move like a lover so
Upon the fields of Barley
Feel her body rise when you kiss her mouth
Among the fields of gold
I never made promises lightly
And there have been some that I've broken
But I swear in the days still left
We'll walk in fields of gold
We'll walk in fields of gold
Many years have passed since those summer days
Among the fields of barley
See the children run as the sun goes down
Among the fields of gold
You'll remember me when the west wind moves
Upon the fields of barley
You can tell the sun in his jealous sky
When we walked in fields of gold
When we walked in fields of gold
When we walked in fields of gold

[lizziegrace]

93. Ptah

:hug:

If you could, would you live back there again?

I have another cd I need to send you. Neil Youngs "Prairie Wind" It's a wonderful tribute to growing up in the northern Great Plains.

:)

[Ptah]

101. I almost did, about four years ago.

I went as far as applying for a job when I was there for a month-long visit.

I was there in the summer, so the weather was just right.

Montana's nickname, Big Sky Country, speaks to the wonder I feel
when I remember seeing the Milky Way or the Northern Lights.

As strongly I want to be part of it, I remember the winters.

I remember caring for the cattle when it was -40 F.
I'm too much of a weather wimp to do that again.

But the longing for the prairie and the Rockies will never leave me.

I think a more likely relocation will be to a much smaller town, maybe 5,000 population,
with climate similar to the desert I have grown to love.

I am weary of the city.

:hug: :hi: :pals:

[lizziegrace]

102. I understand

:pals:

:hug:

[YellowRubberDuckie]

100. I almost have a few times.

If I'd have had the money I would have done it a long time ago. But also, I would never leave Skip.
Duckie

[lizziegrace]

104. Money is a huge issue

It's not cheap to move unless you sell off everything.

:(

[Cheney Killed Bambi]

105. Yes

I've wanted to do that many times. One of these days, maybe I will!

[Omphaloskepsis]

106. I plan on doing this in a few months..

I'm fucking sick of things right now and need a change. I have done this before, it is actually very fun.. Hello, Thailand.

[lizziegrace]

108. Thailand?

Wow. I hope it's everything you're looking for.

:)

[Omphaloskepsis]

113. I have no expectations..

I do have a fixed income (disability), while it isn't much, I think I can afford to fuck around for a few years. I'm 29, I will come back in a few years and finish school.. Might as well live a little.

[GalleryGod]

107. Nope. Sorry.

Good luck,though

[lizziegrace]

109. Thanks

I hope Lelapin didn't inherit this restless trait.

:(

[Dastard Stepchild]

112. I have and I did...

I can be rather impulsive and privy to my whims. It's not a bad choice, really, but I won't pretend that guilt won't creep up on ya now and then. :)

[BelleCarolinaPeridot]

115. I feel like that at times.

[Bullwinkle925]

116. Jeez Louise lizziegrace .......

I walk in your shoes constantly. Don't know if it's part of the aging process or not - but that restlessness just settles in and won't let go. Good luck in dealing with it.

[haf216]

117. All the time,

and a lot of late. I have no kids so it would be easy for me. but I have a feeling that it would just be the same me in a different place, so things would not change much.

But anyway:hug: :hug: :hug: :hug:

[In_The_Wind]

118. I've felt like that.

I'm going back north in the summer to pack everything I truly want to move and selling the rest (or giving it away to charity).


:hi: Maybe this feeling will pass for you but - have you looked into getting a job elsewhere?

[Ariana Celeste]

119. That's how I came to be in Indiana

I was already in love with Anthony, even though I hadn't met him in person yet- under normal circumstances I would never have spent all my money to fly to another state to meet or stay with someone I had never met in person.... but I needed to get away from everything, my family, the city I lived in, all the drama- Washington state and my life in general. And fortunately Anthony felt the same way about me- so I flew here, and it worked out, and I started a new life with him. Of course I keep in touch with my family and a few friends from over the years.

And now- he and I might be moving to another state and doing it all over again, together.... depending on the circumstances. We got arrested on the 17th for some drug charges, and then got bailed out... we are seeing a lawyer, and if we can get off on probation, we are going to try to get our legal crap transferred so that we can move down to his mother's town, where we would have a home and 2 full time jobs (and someone to keep on our asses) waiting for us. Which would be the best thing for us, as it stands. We need her help to get on our feet. And we need to get away from any temptation as far as drugs are concerned.

I hope that your situation improves and that you feel better.... I totally understand how it feels to want to get away.... sometimes it can be the best thing, and sometimes not. You'll know if you need to move on. :hug:

[reyd reid reed]

121. ....

:hug::hug::hug:

It will pass. It will. Deep breaths, sweetie. And just one foot in front of the other.

[lizziegrace]

123. I want to move to Colorado

:(

[reyd reid reed]

124. Well, come on then...

:hug::loveya::hug:

[SPKrazy]

130. I Do Too!

My family of origin all live there now.

They used to live by me. They moved away. I was resentful at first. Now I'm ready to move, move, move.

:pals:

[Redneck Socialist]

125. Shit yeah

on a semi-regular basis.

You can't run away from yourself though.

[lizziegrace]

126. That's exactly

what I'm wrestling with.

[mainegreen]

127. Near as I can tell everywhere is the same, so no.

Given a few weeks in any location, it starts to seem just like everywhere else. Maybe it's the way I view the world, but diversity is often just a thin change in veneer. 99% of everything else stays just the same, with a slightly different flavor.

But then, I've always been told I have a very peculiar view about things.

[lizziegrace]

128. But

you have a beautiful family. ;)

I didn't get a chance to comment on your photo last night.

Thanks for your views.

[mainegreen]

129. Thanks for the compliment!

I think I got lucky in the family lotto!

[Nikia]

131. This summer I did get a job in a town that I had never stopped in before

I could say that I had never been there before my interview, but that is not entirely true. My husband pointed out that we had driven through there before.
A couple weeks later, we moved there.
It wasn't like I was attatched to the place I lived before anyway.
My college town. The town that I grew up in. I was very attatched to both of those places.

[SPKrazy]

132. I'm Thinking Colorado More Than Ever Now

or Oregon, Bend to be exact.

I can find jobs either place.

I just don't know what to do about my son. I can't stand this fucking place here anymore. Everything is tainted with the idea that I am part of a couple, and I can't stand that.


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5Kd06c3dsUc

Rascal Flatts - I'm Moving On Lyrics

I've dealt with my ghosts and I've faced all my demons

Finally content with a past I regret

I've found you find strength in your moments of weakness

For once I'm at peace with myself

I've been burdened with blame, trapped in the past for too
long

I'm movin' on



I've lived in this place and I know all the faces

Each one is different but they're always the same

They mean me no harm but it's time that I face it

They'll never allow me to change

But I never dreamed home would end up where I don't belong

I'm movin' on



I'm movin' on

At last I can see life has been patiently waiting for me

And I know there's no guarantees, but I'm not alone

There comes a time in everyone's life

When all you can see are the years passing by

And I have made up my mind that those days are gone



I sold what I could and packed what I couldn't

Stopped to fill up on my way out of town

I've loved like I should but lived like I shouldn't

I had to lose everything to find out

Maybe forgiveness will find me somewhere down this road

I'm movin' on



I'm movin' on

I'm movin' on

[BarenakedLady]

133. Yes, yes

Oh GAWD yes.

My options are Rhode Island or staying in WNY. I hate to uproot my kids, but RI is my best financial and secure option (family is there, house is available, etc). But for the most part, I feel stuck as well. Like in a big puddle of sucky mud.

:hug: