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The Nights of Love and Beautiful Urine
Rachelle, my little rock, you made my nights breathe easier, like how I swooned when you told me I had beautiful urine, and how I joked that you must say that to all the guys. but, by guys, I mean patients, however I have never been one to quibble over the details of my torrid affairs.
do you recall the time I was shy when you changed my dressing? How I blushed as you gazed an instant, at my nakedness. I wonder if you noticed my heart quicken or my blood pressure rise slightly when you checked my vitals.
I’ll never forget that first night, we met in the fog near the morphine drip. My eyes straining through fear and fiery pain. Ahhh… you could have been an Angel of Death but I would have allowed you to end my life, if only that I could somehow meet you later in some hospital in heaven.
there was that guy in the bed next to mine, he was enamored with you as much as I was. He kept hitting his call button and asking you for juice after juice after juice, Ohhhh it was harrowing my love, lying sedated while another man tried to steal you away from me even before we began our nightly trysts.
I never told you this, Rachelle, but the next day he spoke of you. on the day shift, we discussed how most women named Rachelle always seem to be gorgeous. That’s funny how it works like that. certain names have certain characteristics. Would we have shared our love if your name was Bertha and you worked the day shift? this is something I cannot say, something we will never know.
the next day he was discharged, and you saw me and we both smiled, it was like love at first shot of morphine, we were narcotized or at least I was. My head spinning from pain and drugs and your beauty. I was singing songs and writing romantic blissful poems in my notebook. Somewhere between infatuation and a Demerol fueled fever.
then that day came. I know it was sad. Yet we knew we would never last, that someday I would be sent home. We would never share our talks of insomnia. I would not write in my notebook waiting for you to finish your duties, hoping to talk a short while before you moved on. I want you to know I am not jealous. I know you see other patients, I only hope that all these years you have found someone who loves you.
I only hope that every patient gives you a bag of urine as beautiful as mine, or blushes slightly at your touch when you change their bandages. I wish that you will elevate all the blood pressure and heart beats that your heart desires. as for me, I will be out there. Somewhere, searching, healthy and strong,. waiting for the time, we can meet again in a lovely foggy haze. Where I can wake one nightshift with an instant smile, our eyes meeting right next to the morphine drip.
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