Have you ever been so mad, so enraged

[lost-in-nj]

you had to call your best friend to talk you down??
to keep you from doing something you know is wrong. You know you will regret
and you know you will get in trouble for.......

thats where I am
right now


:cry: :cry:
and yes .... I have a call into my best friend...
she is in the shower, will call me back.....



lost

[SPKrazy]

1. oh no...

:hug: :hug: :hug:

so sorry lost

i wish i could help

[Clintonista2]

2. Give us juicy details!!

[rockymountaindem]

3. Yes

Of course the problem was that when I called my best friend to talk me down, the person I was so mad at was her boyfriend. I told her I never wanted to have any more contact with him, and she was okay with that, actually.

[libodem]

4. Wazzup?

You sound furious, what made you so mad?

[lost-in-nj]

5. Its Sunday....

Next month will be a year since my husband left me....
I asked him to call me last week so we could talk....
I am going to ask him for a divorce....
he hasn't called....
my schedule is wide open, he is busy and I know this....
but he has time at night......

Its Sunday... another week gone by
no hi, hello, how you doin, or even a fuck you....

oh yeah
we have been married 30 years...
now I know in my heart my problem is NOTHING like OMC's nothing...
but its my problem that I have to work through.....


I want to go to his house and fucking hit him....
I want him to hurt to.....

thats all.....
thats enough....


lost

[SPKrazy]

6. ...

:hug: :hug: :hug:

[Cabcere]

7. I'm sorry, lost

:hug: That sucks, and I'd feel the same way in your position. :grouphug: Sending good vibes your way, hon! :pals:

[lost-in-nj]

8. thank you

:hug:


lost

[BarenakedLady]

9. *hugs*

:hug:

[hfojvt]

12. if he has time at night

why don't you call him at night?

Maybe he has been busy, or is afraid of this talk?

People are funny sometimes, being unable to say the things they want to say. Especially if they don't want to hurt somebody, or be hurt by somebody.

[lost-in-nj]

13. I know what you are saying.....

but
I don't give a fuck if he doesn't want to be hurt...
and I already am and he knows it
I will not call him
I will not look needy or desperate

:hug: :hug:

thank you


lost

[hfojvt]

19. are you sure he knows it? Does he know you are hurt?

Or are you covering it up with anger?

I really dislike games - as in trying to hide how you feel. How can you be sure that he did not leave, thinking to himself 'she doesn't want me, or need me, hell, she doesn't even like me'. I know that I have 'broken up' with 'girlfriends' based on that, including my latest. What did I base my feeling on? The fact that she never once tried to contact me. "Give me one reason to stay here, and I'll turn right back around."

Of course, I don't know 1/100th of what is going on, but although I hate, hate, hate being alone, I do not wish any hurt on the women who abandoned me. They have enough problems trying to pay the million dollars in taxes they owe. Or is that just my 19th nervous breakdown talking?

[txwhitedove]

14. Sweetie, please don't wait for him to call. You've been separated

almost a year, but it sounds like you are still hoping, waiting...
Yes, you are justifiably angry. The best way to hurt him is to
move on. That's right, move on, move up, start divorce proceedings
on your own. It will probably shock him. Don't be ugly about it, just
mature, in charge of your own life now.

:hug:

[Bjornsdotter]

18. Oh dear, Lost

....I can't imagine the pain you are in. If you ever want to talk, let me know...

:hug:

[Mz Pip]

10. Oh yeah.

More than once. I don't get that pissed that often, but when I do... All I can do is just walk away and take the pot off the high heat, so to speak. Cool off.

Eventually it passes. But geez, in the moment all I want to do is kick some butt.

Mz Pip
:dem:

[Inchworm]

11. Oh noes!

:hug:

I hope you sort it all out. Rage is rarely good :(

:hug:

[skygazer]

15. Oh, absolutely

Of course, my best friend is likely to get just as enraged as I am and together we're quite likely to hop in a car and drive off together with the idea of taking care of business, so to speak.

How we've never wound up in jail together, I'll never know. :eyes:

But I'm sorry, lost - that sounds like a hard and sorrowful situation and I wish I could offer more than my online support and a big ol' cyberhug. :hug:

[SPKrazy]

16. i will keep you in my thoughts

and prayers lost

:hug: :hug: :hug:

:loveya:

[Bjornsdotter]

17. Yes

...and unfortunately I followed through with doing it. The mouth was engaged and the brain had left the building....it was ugly.

So whatever it is ...DON'T DO IT! We'll talk you down until your friend can call you back.

:hug: