Do you ever get the feeling that you've seen it all

[UndertheOcean]

Nothing surprises you anymore , nothing new under the sun , its all downhill from this point on. You feel burned out , discover yourself talking with God in your living room demanding he reveal itself to your inner eye...

wondering whats the points ...

Feeling there's only up and down and left and right and front and back and nothing more , and even that is no escape if you ever lose your breath .

And your breath , in and out , in and out , fucking in and fucking out yet never beyond , and you laugh at those old torn clothes of heaven and hell and religion that don't fit you anymore ,

but still people slip like crazy in metal contraptions all over the veins of the world .

Death is terrifying and life is sour , and it feels like the best thing that could have happened was not being born at all.

I pity us all , all of us deserve pity , including the evildoers , for this state , this being in space and time seems to my poor aching brain completely useless and absurd, and within our moldy souls all our fantasies and panaceas are worth nothing , nothing at all.

So , Goodbye.

[Whisp]

1. haven't gone blind yet, so no.

[femmocrat]

2. Are you OK, UndertheOcean?

You have me a litte worried here....

[UndertheOcean]

4. I have been better ...

but I think I am ok , if I compare myself to the millions of people who die in Africa each year just because they lack rectangular green paper thingies.

[Haole Girl]

3. Oh God

Wait a minute!!!

I am not in the proper frame of mind to help you, but I will try...

I'm sending you a PM RIGHT NOW..... read it!!!

"KC2"

[Fleshdancer]

5. Please respond back to your post UndertheOcean

You're seeing the dark before the light and although it sucks, there's nothing to pity. We are on the cusp of great change here and you're needed so stop with the goodbye's, ok?

[UndertheOcean]

6. I don't want to alarm or scare people ,

but I want to blurt out whatever is bursting from my heart ..

From the heart , and TO THE heart is all that I'm looking for in this mechanical world

[Haole Girl]

7. Got your PM and replied.

I meant what I said. :hug:

[Fleshdancer]

10. Could you please confirm that you are not going to harm yourself?

Everyone in the lounge wants you to blurt out what is bursting from your heart...we all need to do that and this is a great environment for emotional release. We just need to make sure you're willing to do the same next week and the week after that, etc. We need that from you, ok? I don't like goodbye's personally so please stick around. :)

[caty]

8. As long as we are

alive, there is always a chance we can make things better. Once we are gone, all our chances are gone.

Just the outside chance of making the world a better place is worth all the patience and fighting spirit we can gather. It's why we stay. It's why we get up each day. It's why we keep learning. It's why we keep communicating.

[Danger Mouse]

9. life is still worth living.

there's always something. we can never have seen everything.
the cosmos is vast, and we are tiny and insignificant.

[Turbineguy]

11. Just when you've seen it all

you discover there's more to see.

[Haole Girl]

12. kick

If you see this, will you please just let us know you are ok this morning...ok? Thanks. :hug:

[Sugar Smack]

13. Let us know if you're alright after some sleep.

Get back to us, OK?

[Burma Jones]

14. Just on TV........

[zippy890]

15. sound like me when I need to adjust my medication

seriously.

Depression creeps in and my attitude goes negative.

Its the 'Why bother, fuck it' mindset combined with too much brain activity -

sometimes your feelings are your worst enemy. During these times I keep repeating to myself "THINGS WILL GET BETTER"

and they always do.

:hug:

[BelleCarolinaPeridot]

16. Same here with me.

And things do get better :hug:

[Haole Girl]

17. Please let us know you are alright...ok?

Many of us are worried about you. :hug:

[UndertheOcean]

18. I am ok for now

[Haole Girl]

19. Just sent you a PM back...

I will be away from the computer a few hours, but I'll be back by 7pm (central time).

Please take care of yourself (and call the number I suggested, ok?). Know people love and need you!

Thank you so, so much from writing back!!

:hug: :hug: :hug:

[yellowdogintexas]

20. good to know you are OK.

this too shall pass and all other good thoughts posted above are absolutely correct. This is such a good vent place, and that really does help.

check in from time to time, please.