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She was turning 28. I found this while going through some boxes in the garage today:
While I can, and we, wonder where the future will lead us, or what it will be like, I can say with certainty what it is I know now.
I know I love you, deeply. You're kind, fun, intelligent, beautiful, and caring. Some of the best memories of my 33 years on this planet have been with you. I have in you a fountain of youth, a rejuvenation of my spirit, and a hope of the future.
You're 28 today. I know you do not look back over those years with a lot of smiles. I feel though that the next 28 can only bring better things - hand in hand, heart to heart, together forging a future of joy and turning the pain of the past into the ashes which your laughter will blow away into the wind.
I regret my lack of fluidity and composition here in this letter, if I could only write with my tears of joy or pen the smile I am wearing, I am sure I could begin to explain to you just how much you mean to me. I can only hope to generate in you by my words and deeds the emotions I feel in hope that they will course though you as well.
I do not simply wish you to know my joy, but to feel it in yourself, to share a physical thing within me that, in a rather frustrating way, I cannot simply tear out of me and give to you. I can let you feel my tears, my heartbeat, see my smile, or feel my touch. But these things I hold in my soul I can only write to you of, the dreams I live with daily are too numerous to jot down or speak lest I never sleep. I just want to pull you into me, like I was an ocean, and let you immerse yourself in my emotions.
Our future is not without trouble, not without conflict, which is why I chose this card for you. Through it all, I will be there. It is not matter Chris, where we have been. It matters only where we are and where we are going. Each day together will be another one we share, another good memory until we have so many that they are all we will be able to remember. If you're going to cry, let the tears be ones of overwhelming happiness.
I love you.
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