Are there times when you wish you weren't so experienced?

[Droopy]

That can mean anything you want it to. I'm singing the blues today. You have been warned.

For me it means that I wish that my life was much simpler and innocent. It means that I sometimes wish I wasn't so knowledgeable in the ways of the world. It means that I wish I could work at the grocery store or at the Y and still get along in life alright.

Things are much better for me now than they were 6-15 years ago, but I wish I weren't so tired now days. I work 55-60 hours a week on 3rd shift. By the time Saturday morning rolls around I just want to crash. It's so bad that I might as well just go to bed when I get home Saturday and set the alarm for 10pm Monday night.

My dream job is transporting old folks around town in one of those passenger vans. Go to work at 9am, get off at 5pm, have a life, and feel good about what I'm doing. That job pays about $8 an hour around here. I do not live extravagantly, but I still need to make about 40k a year to keep from being needy. I'm a single guy living in a one bedroom condo.

I guess I wish I didn't have to work so hard. I wish I didn't know what it was like to drive an 18 wheeler through a blizzard. I wish I didn't know what it was like to work 70 hours in a week and it not be good enough. I wish I didn't know what it was like to disappoint a prostitute, "Sorry, honey, I'm not interested." I wish I didn't know what it was like to drink a case of beer and rip out an old friend's heart. I wish I didn't know what it was like to be insane. I wish I didn't know what it was like to be alone all of the time.

I'll have another bartender. Make it a double.

Hope is on the horizon, though, in the form of a smart, beautiful woman. But all I can do is wait for her right now, and hope that no one else comes along that makes her forget about me.

[littlebit]

1. I understand how you feel.

I wish I could spend more time with my girlfriend. I wish it wasn't normal for me to spend more time talking to her on the phone than talking to her face to face. I wish I felt more at home in my actual house than I did in my truck. But this is the life we choose. I don't think I could do anything else.

[Droopy]

4. Thanks, littlebit

I'm hoping that you find yourself a good paying local job. And I think I agree with you when you say that you don't think you could do anything else. I couldn't either, but I don't know if it's for the same reason. If I could find a job that paid 40k a year with good benefits and not be truckin' it up all the time I'd be there. I just can't afford to do anything else.

[littlebit]

12. I'm in a similar situation

I couldn't find a local job making anywhere near what I do being an o/o.

[auntAgonist]

2. I WISH

I had more friends like you. I'm thankful to call you friend.

:hug:

aA
kesha

[Droopy]

5. Thanks, aA :)

I'm happy that you are my friend, too. :hug:

[CaliforniaPeggy]

3. My dear Droopy...

How eloquent you are today...

This is very sad and beautiful all at once...

I'm sorry you're down, but you'll be OK...

I've got my fingers crossed on that beautiful woman!

:hug:

[Droopy]

6. Thanks, Peggy

It's always good to see a Peggy post in one of my threads. :hug:

[pitohui]

7. no that's one thing i don't wish

the "simpler innocent" people i know are stupid and usually brainwashed by hopeless anti-woman religious beliefs that mean that they will never have any hope of a better life if they are women, their only hope for happiness is to be dead

there are too many lies told in this society to rely on other people's experiences, you have to go out there and get direct experiences of your own to know the truth of the world

sure every experience isn't a day at disneyworld but do you really think those "simpler innocent" people are happy? because those pasted-on clown smiles look pretty miserable to me

[Droopy]

8. We apparently have a different definition of "simpler" and "innocent"

Those do not equate to ignorance in my book.

[pitohui]

9. well in my book they do, because "innocence" past a certain age is a deliberate ignorance

this may not be the case in an ideal world but around here, oh yeah


you can only be a virgin by deliberately refusing sexual experience, would be the classic example, is there anything admirable in that? no, i don't believe there is, it is fear based and for the women who have taken this choice, i pretty much only have pity, they certainly don't appear happy, too many fixed smiles for my liking

[Droopy]

10. I didn't have anything sexual in mind when I said innocence

What I had in mind is the kind of stuff you go to hell and jail for. That has nothing to do with virginity.

[RadiationTherapy]

11. ...not necessarily stoned...but...beautiful. nt