Ugh I feel like such an ass

[The Inquisitive]

You know when you get into a petty argument over a simple miscommunication that is your own fault and it results in you saying something pompous, and lame... Yea, that's me right now. What an important lesson in humility I just got, man do I feel like an ass. I don't even want to post details because I feel so ashamed of both of what I said, and the arrogant and boastful attitude I've been running for a few days. Humility, humility, humility. Man do I get it now. It just sucks you have to go through so much anguish to learn important life lessons.

What's worse... or perhaps truly best is that it's put me in such a self reflective state that I've realized how insecure as a person I am. Sorry to bore you guys with this, it's just that it's late and I just need somewhere to get this off my chest. Ugh I hope she accepts my apology, but I'm afraid even that might sound pompous. I feel likes its become part of personality, and that I'm just a terrible person. How do you be confident without being a dick? I feel like it's my own insecurities as a person that serve as my major motivators... what a terrible way to live.

For those that are truly secure with themselves, just how do you do it?

How did I become such a condescending ass? I know I haven't been here long but has anyone else noticed that tone in any of my posts? If you have, and if it was directed at you I really apologize. I feel like I just want to apologize to everyone for being so weak in character.

Pride without arrogance, and confidence at no ones expense... I'll get there, I swear it.

I, and me, that's all my life is. Just one giant ego driven cluster fuck. Everything I do is for myself and it is making me miserable.

[coyotespaw]

1. It happens to the best of us

The way to be be confident without being a dick is to know what you're good at and sure of, and be humble about all else. Know your strengths, and your weaknesses; keep working at both, and try to help everyone else get to your level at both. And most importantly, don't kick your own ass at your occasional failings, the world will do it for you when you need it.

[The Inquisitive]

2. thanks

Helping others, that's something I need to do that more often.

[The Inquisitive]

3. I went to a yoga class upon friends suggestion to clear my head

I feel a lot better. I've come to understand that once you realize what you've said is wrong and hurtful, and you make a truly heartfelt and honest apology then there is nothing more you can do. If you've realized the error of your ways and are conscientious effort to change then it is okay to forgive yourself, because self imposed guilt and mental anguish will only bring needless suffering to yourself. It doesn't matter whether others accept your regret, only that you make your regret known, because that is all you can do.

[libodem]

4. Sounds like your remorse is genuine

and to me that goes a long way toward redemption. I think the trick is learning the lesson and then doing your best not to repeat it. People make mistakes and hopefully that is how we all learn. To err is human to forgive divine. I hate being on my high horse and mouthing off only to find out I didn't know what I was talking about. We all do it from time to time. I like that old saying about: Pride cometh before the fall. Forgive yourself.