What the fuck am I doing with my life?

[Danger Mouse]

Seriously?
Nothing. Absolutely fucking nothing.
All I have right now is my work, the only thing in my life that is going RIGHT. Everything else is a fucking colossal train wreck. Family, friends, relationships of any sort. And I know, realistically, I can't stay at this job forever if I want to make a decent living. But I'm scared to go back to school because I might have to move soon, in which case I couldn't afford to take classes for awhile.
Meanwhile time ticks away and I feel like...like...like I'll wake up one day in my 30's wondering what the hell happened to my wasted potential.
That's what I feel like right now...a waste. Argh.

[Parche]

1. i feel your pain

:hi:

[Danger Mouse]

2. Sucks doesn't it?

:pals:

[vadawg]

3. at a guess wasting some of it online here, :)

some of us are captive audiences so we have nothing better to do, but you young padawan should be out there.....

[Midlodemocrat]

4. You're young. Not to patronize, but you have your entire life

in front of you. THings will fall into place. You're too nice of a guy for them not to.

Don't despair. Hell I didn't even meet my husband until I was 30. :hug:

[Forkboy]

5. I ask myself that in bed every morning upon waking.

Sorry you're feeling it too. It sucks.

On the other hand, I can look back and see how much stuff I've actually done, gone through, etc. and a lot of it was cool shit...so maybe the next forty one years will bring just as much cool shit. That's a long damn time for things to happen and for me to do new things.

Meanwhile time ticks away and I feel like...like...like I'll wake up one day in my 30's wondering what the hell happened to my wasted potential.

Your not supposed to have a midlife crisis until your my age. Wait 'til the big four zero, because I'm forty one and you're really making me feel old. ;)

[vadawg]

6. hey im lucky as i dont really know what age i am, at a guess around 40, i think, mayby lol

[sammythecat]

7. Why don't you know how old you are?

I doubt it's a happy story, so I hope you don't mind the question.

[vadawg]

8. not unhappy whatsoever, i was born outside and all my mother knows is that i was born in the snow.

i can roughly date my birth to the winter of 69/70/71. But we dont really go by calendars, just seasons.

[sammythecat]

16. Oh.

Glad to hear that. I was thinking along the lines of "abandoned boy raised by wolves" or something like that.

I hope you can tolerate my prying, but I have 2 more questions. I see you're in Virginia now but you could have been born elsewhere. Where were you born and are you American Indian? (if so, what tribe? ok, I miscounted. That's 3 questions)

I feel I should reciprocate here a little. Born at a precise time and date in NYC to an Irish immigrant and a standard White American Mutt. Grew up, and still live, in Pennsylvania. Remarkably unremarkable, but, you have to admit, you're own story does invite questions.

[Inchworm]

9. Going on 9 years with no real job...

Talk about feeling like a waste. I know that feeling well. :cry:

Hmm.. come to think about it family sucks hard, save one. I am lucky on the friends part. I have few, but they are good'ns.

Hang in there. I hope all the ducks start lining up for you soon. :hug:

:yourock:

[Mike 03]

10. At you least you have your work. That's something.

Good for you for doing something right. I don't even have that.

[Danger Mouse]

15. I am grateful...very grateful...that I have that much.

[Jamastiene]

11. You are afraid you'll wake up and be me.

Oh, dear. That can't be a good feeling. :hug:

[Danger Mouse]

14. Aww...

:hug: Would that really be such a bad thing?

[Mike 03]

12. Kick and Rec--another important OPt that deserves to be x-posted to GD. NT

[Sky Masterson]

13. I'm quite a bit older than you.

I still don't know what I want to be or do when I grow up.
Just remember that things change.
Always do.
This is only a sucky cycle..Peddle through it the best that you can.
I wish you the best of luck.

[graywarrior]

17. Man, I feel the same way

[rug]

18. There's always Scientology.