Tonight I became a hypocrite, with a little help from loved ones.

[crim son]

Goobie showed up with her friend E, a bottle of lighter fluid and a box of matches. "We're doing it, Mom!" she called from the kitchen. We gathered up momentos, some mine and some hers, and took them out to the driveway. "My mother says not to blow on the fire," E said. "Why?" asked Kira. "I don't know... apparently she has some experience with ritual burning," E said.

Ritual. Burning. Freaking barbaric and yet so delightful. The girls danced around the fire and I joined them until I couldn't dance any more. As the flames died we kicked snow onto the pile until there was no sign of our crime aside from the circle of footprints we'd made. "When the fire was high, this was the height of our love. Now there is nothing but a clean space upon which to build something new," I said, expecting them to laugh. They didn't. I paused and took a deep breath of the frigid winter air. Relief. I felt relief. I feel relief.

In case anybody thinks I'm so dumb as to miss the hypocrisy, go fuck yourself. Everybody needs closure and I just got me some. Nothing burned to ashes can ever be resurrected, not under any circumstances.

Now, some piano.

[CaliforniaPeggy]

1. My dear crim son...

Hypocrisy?

I don't get it...

How were you a hypocrite? Sounds to me as though you helped them, and yourself, do a little ritual cleansing.

Very appropriate for the end of the year, methinks.

:shrug:

:hug:

[crim son]

5. Oh, it's because I was accused of being likely to "destroy"

something of his once the relationship ended. I was insulted but, oh no, I just DID and it feels good.

[zanana1]

7. Crimsom, I thought it was beautiful.....

Especiallly the part about dancing around the fire with the kids. Perfect.

[cwydro]

8. Welcome to DU zanana1!

glad you found the Lounge already!

[crim son]

9. Thank you!

It was rather perfect.
Edited to add, Welcome to DU!

[evlbstrd]

2. I like it.

[cwydro]

3. Feel your pain babe...

I just threw everything in the trash.

Couldn't be bothered with the burning.

I did keep the cool Christmas present she sent me...

[crim son]

4. Aww, cwydro.

I'm sorry. :hug: :hug: :hug:

I'm not actually feeling any pain unless it's the pain of realizing I've wasted three precious years on an insane person. I'm even a little sad that I'm not sad... I let it go on WAY too long as my dear friends know.

And I WILL come to the keys some day and share a plate of onion rings!

[cwydro]

6. Well, it wasn't that long a time for me...

but still hurts like a bitch ya know? I know the pain will pass, but right now it is not so fun.

Hugs babe and thank you.

[Ikonoklast]

10. From the ashes, purification and rebirth.

[velvet]

11. ooh crim son

Well told!

[Aristus]

12. Yeah, I don't see the hypocrisy either, crim son.

Sounds like you did just the thing you needed to put it all behind you. And you're right. once it's burned, it cannot be resurrected. Fire cleanses and purifies.

Do you feel cleansed and purified?... ;-)

I'm happy for you for getting your closure... :hug:

[Sky Masterson]

13. lets nuke the bridge we torched two thousand times before

this time we'll blast it all to hell
i've had this burning in my guts now for so long
my belly's aching now to say...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WzInixkTxg4

you're just a fuck
i can't explain it 'cause i think you suck
im taking pride
in telling you to fuck off and die
good night
... FOD.Green day

Move on how you must my friend.
Some bridges should be nuked.
:hug: :loveya:
:hi:

[Xipe Totec]

14. It's the little thing...

(edited to update link)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hoCZ8H0RAsA


Just when one thinks
that time and absence
has killed them.
We find their train
purchased
a round trip ticket.

It's those little things
left behind from days of roses
in a corner
a piece of paper
or a box.

Like thieves
they hide and watch us
from behind a door.
They have us
at their mercy
like dead leaves.

Dragged by the wind hither and yon,
as they smile at us, sadly, and
they make us
cry when
no one can see.

- Juan Manuel Serrat

[SPKrazy]

15. no hypocrisy

from the ashes rise the phoenix

letting go of things makes us stronger, lightening the load makes us more adaptable, burning as ritual is a good ritual.

[denbot]

16. Nothing, but nothing cleanses like fire..

:hi: