Well, it's been a crappy month.

[Nuclear Unicorn]

I've been away for a while--not that folks here know me enough to miss me, that's understandable--but I've been in a deep depression.

I went through a very painful breakup with a guy I had been with for over a year and we went through some real heavy stuff together. That kind of stuff can make for some strong feelings but we decided to split and at first I was OK with that but then I really started to miss him. I thought about calling him and seeing if we could get back together but before I could I heard he was seeing someone new. Worse still: the bitch is totally beautiful. I have no hang-ups about my appearance but I saw her one day and she's taller than I am with legs longer than Jack's beanstalk. Platinum blonde. Maybe I'm casting dispersions but I think she may be something of an airhead. I'm sure she'll be perfect for squeezing out 2.3 brats and making dinner for his boss some night.

I've since been with 2 other guys. One was a total jerk who talks a good game until you want to talk to him the next day.

The other was decent but he also seems a bit aimless. I've had a boyfriend before that just sat around my apartment smoking my pot and playing his XBox all day and I'm not eager to repeat that experience.

So now I'm single again. I think I'll stay that way for a while.

My dad even laid in on me about the breakup. He really liked the ex. I tried pulling the trump card of making one's father hate one's (ex-)boyfriend, "But daddy, we were having sex together."

"So what, you've had sex with all your boyfriends. At least this one was a good guy."

Thanks dad, way to make me feel even more miserable...

...and feel like a slut.

Then they had some serious cutbacks here at work. I survived but my best friend didn't. Now I sit here alone for 8 hours a day.

My roommate had her hours cut back and with it extra expenses. Short version: no cable, no internet at the homestead.


So many times I wanted to get back online and talk to you guys here at DU but between being depressed and fearing the axe if I was seen not doing work related stuff I just couldn't. I needed the support. You people are precious beyond words.

If it weren't for my friend Matthew I would have gone insane but I owe him a new wardrobe because of all the salt stains from the tears I've left on his shoulder. If you don't have a gay man in your life, get one.

Thanks for letting me rant.

[CaliforniaPeggy]

1. My dear Nuclear Unicorn...

Wow, you weren't kidding about your crappy month...

I'm really sorry to hear it. Let's see what sort of positive spin I can come up with...

How about it's so bad now that things can only get better? Yeah, I thought so too...

Rant all you want...DU is great for that...

I do know that when I feel lousy, a quick way for me to lose that is to help someone else feel good...

I hope that you will soon feel better, sweetie!

:hug:

[Nuclear Unicorn]

3. Thanks...

...I remember you from a month ago when I was first talking about my breakup.

You were an absolute sweetheat then and you still are.

TOTAL SHOCKER!

:)

:hug:

[Steerpike]

2. Good Morning...

It's really too bad we have these "Feelings" and "Emotions"....otherwise we would be perfect.

Good luck, I would like to say that time heals all wounds, but really that's only if you have a poor memory.

[Nuclear Unicorn]

4. Is that why people drink to forget?

:toast:

Make mine a double.

[Steerpike]

5. Lol

You've got it! :toast:

[Nuclear Unicorn]

6. Forgot to mention...

...my ficus died too.

:mad: