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Depending on his condition and necessity. This situation (logistically) is much more difficult than when I went through this before because there are a variety of things that could happen that could blow the whole "plan of action" out of the water. I'm trying as best I can with this in mind to plan his journey to be as peaceful and loving and ideal as it can be. But because of his unique medical situation (that's very different than my previous dog's situation) there's a number of things that could occur that would make where, when, by whom and under what circumstances kind of a crap shoot.
Ideally, I want the doc who has been treating him since the whole foot/knee/leg problem since it first reared its ugly head to be the one to send him on his way at the clinic. Boo will be most comfortable with someone he knows and has become most familiar with him recently - a stranger would be the absolute worst case scenario for him (and definitely for me, too). He's gone to this clinic all his life and is familiar with the place and all the people that work there. It also happens to be the best damn vet clinic in the entire world, bar none. I need their impeccable professionalism and honest and heartfelt compassion, and I wouldn't be able to trust that to another clinic or a stranger vet.
Though he'd be best off with this particular doc for his journey, Boo would hate his coming to the house. He's very territorial, most particularly with the actual house (as opposed to the yard, porch, etc.). Anyone ever coming in the house is of utmost concern to him because I personally don't feel very comfortable with anyone in my house, so I avoid as much as I can all such situations where even loved ones come in the house. This is just a quirk of mine that I've long since figured out is just best to accept. The inside of my house is like my "safe haven" much like a dog would consider his crate or a closet or under a table or whatever particular spot he'd choose as his "safe haven" to be and where he'll go to feel most comfortable and safe when ever he feels scared or sad or sick or just doesn't want to be bothered... and any invasion of that space even by loved ones makes it suddenly feel not such a safe haven at all. It's just that for me it's the whole house (not that there's all that much of it really). Because of my quirk of feeling a bit twitchy with even my own beloved mother in my house he inherited by default that same discomfort. The yard, the porch, the car... all that is a different story then the sacred space of the inside of the house (and it's the same for me).
Something else that really bothers me about the possibility of a vet coming to the house... I couldn't stand to see him picked up and carried away after he passes. I guess what I'm saying is that I don't want to see him "looking" dead. He's a big boy and his body would either have to be carried off by two people or one big strong one, and I'm not seeing any possible way that could be done without him "looking" like a dead dog. Ok, I know, I don't have to look... but I know I will. I'll feel like I have to just to make sure he's being treated respectfully, that he isn't accidentally dropped or who knows what other accidental (but to me horrifying) thing may happen. There's also the physical logistics of his body being carried away... there's only street parking here, and the odds of whoever comes to do the deed and take the body away is going to have to do a bit of a hike in order to put him in the vehicle. And then there are the ever so nosy neighbors... this has to be a private time for me, him and the angel who sends him on his way. To have that invaded by nosy neighbors (especially the really uncouth ones who think it's a good idea to involve themselves in your most private of moments by making it a point to invade it as thoroughly as possible because they think they're being helpful and supportive)... no way, no how, not happening.
When I did this with my previous dog, he never looked dead. In fact, he looked so not dead I insisted on staying with him until I could unmistakably detect some physical sign that would prove to me that he was. So my last visual image of him is of him lying on the floor on his belly on a nice blankie looking exactly like he was just having a snooze. Even the idea of my last image of Boo actually looking like a dead dog makes me feel sick to my stomach.
In the event that something should occur that for some reason I'm not even able to envision right now that there would be a need for a vet to come to the house to send Boo on his way I'm pretty sure my vet would do that, but it's a question I actually considered asking him about just in case if only just to relieve my mind about it.
Thanks so much for bringing this up because I realized when I started responding to your post that it was so helpful to me in terms of thinking these things out purely logistically, which is something I'm having grave difficulty doing on my own because on my own in my own head it's almost impossible to think clearly about all this because of the whole emotional bit throwing my logical problem solving thoughts completely off the rails.
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