Things are changing fast as I die by inches. Today my voice is hoarse

[AlienGirl]

Every day when I wake up, I can feel that the cancer has grown a little bit. A few days ago, I noticed that swallowing was getting harder: more of my tongue was paralyzed. Then a new sore spot appeared on the right lateral side of my tongue, and a few small hard pearls of bad tissue under the right-side tip. The underside of my chin is hurting now, and down my neck I can feel a hard, intractable mass. A lymph node under my right arm is the size of a small grape; when did that happen? I noticed it yesterday during that self-inventory I find myself doing every night.

Today I woke up with a hoarse, husky voice--inflammation, if I am lucky.

I didn't expect it to go this fast.

Tucker

[Kali]

1. ...

:hug:

[applegrove]

2. vibes.

[LisaM]

3. Ohhhhhh.....

I am so sorry.

[struggle4progress]

4. A man traveling across a field encountered a tiger. He fled, the tiger after him. Coming

to a precipice, he caught hold of the root of a wild vine and swung himself down over the edge. The tiger sniffed at him from above. Trembling, the man looked down to where, far below, another tiger was waiting to eat him. Only the vine sustained him. Two mice, one white and one black, little by little started to gnaw away the vine. The man saw a luscious strawberry near him. Grasping the vine with one hand, he plucked the strawberry with the other. How sweet it tasted! http://www.ashidakim.com/zenkoans/18aparable.html

[MiddleFingerMom]

10. !!!

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:thumbsup: BIGTIME :thumbsup:
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[AlienGirl]

14. That's been me since 2002 when I had my first bout with cancer

I bought nearly a decade of crazy adventure, love and loss, a Real Job, hilarious moments with my kids, frustration at unpaid bills, and the opportnity to make a difference wherever I could and however I could. And sharing it all with my closest friend UncleSepp, with whom I am drinking sake right now. (He and his mother are my medical proxies, and Sepp quit his job and moved from Seattle to Florida to be with me through this--I am the luckiest person in the world to have a friend like him.)

Tucker

[struggle4progress]

17. I am really glad to hear that! Maybe the next time you are drinking sake, you could

leave an empty glass upside down for those of us who cannot be there with you

[AlienGirl]

19. Good idea. I have just added such a glass to the stepstool that is our "table."

[struggle4progress]

20. Many thanks

:hug:

[dixiegrrrrl]

85. I am so glad to hear you have someone (s) with you.

I was hoping that you are in place where you would be allowed some control, some say over how this end stage could be handled in the most helpful and dignified manner possible.
Is a hospice in the plans?

[roguevalley]

121. I have never met you but you are mine and I am yours. I love you

like family right now. thank you for your courage and your generosity in posting with us who love you.

[Avalux]

173. I've been thinking a lot about you Tucker...

not sure if you remember several years ago when we moderated together but I do. Sharing all of this with us is very, very brave and I want you to know we're all here for you; praying for you. :hug:

[Amerigo Vespucci]

138. Amazing. Thanks for posting.

I have a scan from Anthony Man-Tu Lee's Zen book on the wall to my immediate left. It says:

[CaliforniaPeggy]

5. Stay with us, my dear Tucker...

We want to walk this horrifying path with you...

:hug:

[nolabear]

6. Stay with us while you can, Tucker, and tell us all you want.

Know that what you share is welcome and I pray you have those who love you around you to ease this. I don't know you but you are making an impact on me and I'm honored to be here.

[AlienGirl]

7. This article has a lot of false info, but it was published

http://oralcancernews.org/wp/democrat-shelly-leonard-former-house-district-candidate-fights-cancer-again/

Unfortunately, Van gave them outdated information: I was not a good candidate for surgery, and the tumors have never "shrunk" (he misinterpreted the fact that the surgery time was re-estimated to be less) and no one knows how many tunors there are. And I was not planning to run for State House again; I had set my sights higher. It is, however, cool that they ran the article.

Tucker

[CaliforniaPeggy]

9. How very cool that they published it!

And what a great picture of you.

Now we have a face to go with your voice...

Here, on these pages, your voice is strong, clear and true. It doesn't matter how you sound in real life...

As long as you can type, we will hear you, and we will never forget you.

:hug:

[AlienGirl]

12. Thank you, CalPeg...

That was one of my favorite campaign photos, taken by Van, my campaign manager. It was even better than the photos taken by the party's "official" photographer.

:hug:

Tucker

[pamela]

129. That's a great picture. You're very pretty.

Such beautiful, soulful eyes.

I'm so sorry for all that you are going through. I'm sending you lots of love and light.

[blm]

103. This is so true...and, AGirl, your vital thoughts will always be a part of us.

Thank you and Peace be to all of us.

[FirstLight]

188. +100000!

:cry: thanks Aliengirl, for your courage, and your voice...I am sending you gold healing energies every day to assist you in fighting the good fight :)

[PassingFair]

13. You have done so much in such a short time.

I hope you are surrounded with love.

:hug:

[progressoid]

50. ...

Thanks for posting that here. :hug:

[Digit]

58. It is so good to have a picture of you to focus on

You are a very beautiful woman and I had no idea of your wonderful history of helping people starting with social work. I just thought you were a great person online who had plenty to contribute, but reading that article impressed the hell out of me.

We are with you through this. I do know if you were homeless right now, I would take you in in a heartbeat. I am reassured that you have people around you that care about you a great deal. It shows what a wonderful person you are to have friends like that.

As you can tell, all of DU is here for you, too.

I pray for you every day, and we are here to listen when you need to communicate whatever is on your mind, and I do mean whatever is on your mind.

We are here, we love you, and we are pulling for you 100%.

Love, :hug:
Digit

[highplainsdem]

59. Thanks for that link! What a beautiful photo of a truly beautiful woman.

So much caring shining through, as well as strength.

[Name removed]

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[MilesColtrane]

74. You are beautiful.

And, you will remain beautiful no matter what this goddamned disease does to you.

:hug:

[WCGreen]

105. I never knew we both ran for congress....

Take that life hs given you all with you, the full life you have had. Keep drinking the Sake if it helps...

Peace be with you...

[yardwork]

145. You are beautiful, inside and out. Thank you for all that you have done and will do.

[Odin2005]

8. !!!!!!!!!

:hug:

[Tuesday Afternoon]

11. damn

[Pool Hall Ace]

15. Sending love from N.C.

:hug: for Tucker

[vard28]

16. I've been thinkin' about you all week

I found this and thought of you, and it really fits after reading the article that you posted further down the thread. :hug:


To laugh often and much; to win the respect of intelligent people
and the affection of children;
to earn the appreciation of honest critics
and endure the betrayal of false friends;
to appreciate beauty; to find the best in others;
to leave the world a bit better
whether by a healthy child, a garden patch,
or a redeemed social condition;
to know even one life has breathed easier because
you have lived. This is to have succeeded.

-Ralph Waldo Emerson

There are a lot of people here for you. Come by when you need to.

Suz

[AlienGirl]

18. Thank you--yes, I have succeeded

There are more birds in the sky because of me. That is enough.

Tucker

[flvegan]

21. Are you still in Clearwater?

[AlienGirl]

22. Safety Harbor, for now. nt

[flvegan]

48. Still Pinellas.

I'm there every day, working. Is there anything I can do? I'm the boss so I have some leeway with what I can do with my day.

[snagglepuss]

23. I saw your other post but I avoided commenting because I have not known what to say.

Your courage, intelligence, spirit and grace is awe inspiring and no one reading your posts cannot but be deeply deeply moved and inspired to seek that same calm and courageous acceptance of what life may hold.

You are in my thoughts and prayers every day. I truly believe there is another reality after this one; I believe your spirit knows it.

:hug:


Lord of My Heart's Elation

Lord of my heart's elation,
Spirit of things unseen,
Be thou my aspiration
Consuming and serene!

Bear up, bear out, bear onward,
This mortal soul alone,
To selfhood or oblivion,
Incredibly thine own, --

As the foamheads are loosened
And blown along the sea,
Or sink and merge forever
In that which bids them be.

I, too, must climb in wonder,
Uplift at thy command, --
Be one with my frail fellows
Beneath the wind's strong hand,

A fleet and shadowy column
Of dust or mountain rain,
To walk the earth a moment
And be dissolved again.

Be thou my exaltation
Or fortitude of mien,
Lord of the world's elation,
Thou breath of things unseen!



Bliss Carmen

[AlienGirl]

27. Thank you. Anything is good to say.

I have strange intuitions that there are lives I have lived, and lives I have yet to live*. But I have no proof, of course...

Tucker



*in which I hope to track down this lifetime based on archives of the Internet, and find this current name, and have my proof. But that's beside the point.

[dgibby]

143. I believe you're right.

I once had a complete stranger tell me that the reason I was so close to one of my nieces was because I had been her mother in another life. What this stranger didn't know was A. I had many nieces and nephews. B. I am closer to one than all of the others. C. When she was very young, she insisted on calling me "mama", and D. She has always sent me cards on Mother's Day.

Wishing peace, comfort, and understanding in this life and the next.:hug:

[cwydro]

24. More vibes

coming from NC.

:hug:

[AlienGirl]

29. Thank you. nt

[auntAgonist]

25. ..

I have no words that will make things easier or make you feel better. I wish I did Tucker. My heart and prayers, good thoughts and best wishes are with you.

:hug:

I wish you peace and love.


kesha.

[bicentennial_baby]

26. From DS1/Martin and I...

We are sending you all of the love and healing and comforting we can muster. We only wish we could do more. As DU old-timers, it pains us so much to see our friend and compatriot going through so much pain. We both love you Tucker, and we're right here with you. If there's anything we can do, please PM me. <3 <3

[AlienGirl]

28. Thank you. I am glad for the company as I approach the Dark. nt

[riderinthestorm]

109. Your life has been so full of light that I just know there isn't any "Dark" ahead.

"The art of living well and the art of dying well are one."
Epicurus

That seems especially true of you as you are keeping us close during this time and showing us the way.

Sending love from IL. We're here with you night and day. :hug:

[Lyric]

30. I just wish that I could do something. Anything.

I feel helpless and tongue-tied; I don't even know where to start. For what it's worth, you're constantly in my thoughts. I just wish I could do something, anything for you.

I feel like I know you and love you even though I've never met you.

I just wanted to say that.

:hug:

[AlienGirl]

31. Thank you

:hug:

[ashling]

32. I, too, have not known what to say

I watched my mother go by inches, and my father too ... and my little brother

I do so admire you and am grateful for having had the chance to read your posts.

I do not know if this is appropriate, but this is the first thing I Came across on the Internet after reading this post

.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.they seemed to say "Come, go with us into the woods..."

[AlienGirl]

33. Thank you--Weird sychronicity with an important dream;

Just before getting re-diagnosed, I had a dream in which there was a pregnant doe who was starving, and after I had tried unsuccessfully to give her other food, I stepped out of my body and, feeling a sort of tender compassion for the mortal husk I'd just vacated, I cut my own body into pieces to feed to the doe to save her and her fawn's lives.

This dream had resonances with the shamanic dismemberment dreams common around the Arctic Circle, within which a shaman is initiated; and also with the phrase from the myth of Odin, "I sacrifice myself to myself."

Tucker

[azul]

68. Hello Tucker, Thank you for sharing that amazing dream.

In a dream once, I was so devastated by a sadness, of a loss, that I was wracked with sobbing too deep. I stepped out of my body and had the same sort of tender compassion as you describe for the weeping husk of my person so helplessly lost in sorrow.

We are all in this boat together. We are here to help and love one another.

Best regards,
TomN

[mimitabby]

112. what a beautiful dream!

my best to you, thank you for what you have done for your country.

[Swede]

34. I am also at a loss for words.

All I can say now is that in some small way,I got to know you,from here on DU. This saddens me to see you suffer so.

[AlienGirl]

38. Thank you. I am not really suffering yet: they say the pain will become unbearable and I will stink

I will smell like roadkill times fifty and even the nurses will no longer want to enter my room. If I am lucky, at that point I will be on enough morphine to be almost comatose; if I am really lucky a compassionate soul will see to it that I "accidentally" am given too much before it comes to that point.

Tucker

[kag]

149. Tucker, I watched my mom die in similar fashion.

My heart goes out to you, and I pray that you have peace. PLEASE, please make sure they don't skimp on the morphine!

[Arugula Latte]

35. Not fair not fair not fair not fair not fair!!!!

But who do we complain to? :cry:

[AlienGirl]

36. No one seems to be picking up the phone at the Complaint Line... nt

[rug]

37. My god, this is raw.

I have nothing to offer as you go through this. But I want you to know that your words are having a profound impact on me. I often think of my own death, diffidently and hypothetically. But this! Your absence will leave a gaping vacuum, just from your last few posts. i wish you peace.

[FloridaJudy]

39. I wish there was something I could say or do

To help ease your pain. Words are inadequate at a time like this, and yet all we have is words.

You are an amazing woman. It's a privilege to know you.

[Dyedinthewoolliberal]

40. Tucker

did you ever play the Name Game as a kid? :O) You know how it goes don't you? Tucker! Tucker, Tucker bo bucker...... :silly:
No, that's not what I want to say. What I want to say is you are very brave and courageous. The beauty that is You comes through your posts. I am humbled and honored to share this bit of the cyber world with you. Here are some virtual flowers I hope you enjoy. :hug:

[Liberal Veteran]

I wish I could say something to make things easier for you.

Your courage is reminder that every day we have is precious.

[The Velveteen Ocelot]

41. I don't have words. Others are better at it than I am...

"Then Almitra spoke, saying, We would ask now of death.

And he said:

You would know the secret of death. But how shall you find it unless you seek it in the heath of life? The owl whose night-bound eyes are blind unto the day cannot unveil the mystery of light. If you would indeed behold the spirit of death, open your heart wide unto the body of life. For life and death are one, even as the river and sea are one.

In the depth of your hopes and desires lies your silent knowledge of the beyond; and like seeds dreaming beneath the snow your heart dreams of spring. Trust the dreams, for in them is hidden the gate to eternity.

Your fear of death is but the trembling of the shepherd when he stands before the king whose hand is to be laid upon him in honor. Is the shepherd not joyful beneath his trembling, that he shall wear the mark of the king? Yet is he not more mindful of his trembling?

For what is it to die but to stand naked in the wind and to melt into the sun? And what is it to cease breathing, but to free the breath from its restless tides, that it may rise and expand and seek God unencumbered?

Only when you drink from the river of silence shall you indeed sing. And when you have reached the mountain top, then you shall begin to climb. And when the earth shall claim your limbs, then shall you truly dance."

The Prophet
Kahlil Gibran

[dixiegrrrrl]

84. Wow...you beautifully put together my beliefs, which include returning to "star stuff."

I find that extraordinarily comforting, having had some out of body experiences which verify we do indeed go to a very relaxed plane of existence.

Gibran's language works for me very well.
How lovely.

thank you.

[hlthe2b]

42. You are finding a well of courage that just amazes me...

I feel so incredibly helpless. All I can do is express my incredible admiration for you and the grace with which you are handling this. I send you love. I send you hope for a miracle. And, I send you my utmost prayers that you will not suffer. If only I could do more. :loveya:

[NYC_SKP]

43. No words.

Just good vibes, Tucker.

And all the love we can possibly send.

:hug:

I hope you like Monet:

[LiberalAndProud]

44. When words fail, a hug will have to do.

:hug: :grouphug:
:grouphug: :hug:
:hug::grouphug:

Thank you, Tucker, for all you do.

[Prisoner_Number_Six]

45. I've seen this a few times throughout my own life

and have thanked God it wasn't me. But now that I'm suffering from arthritis and the loss of my ability to walk, I feel a little closer to the process.

And I still have no words.

How about a flower instead?

[ismnotwasm]

46. If I can send love and comfort over the electronic pathway

You've got it.

[A-Schwarzenegger]

47. A flower, love.

http://www.democraticunderground.com/discuss/duboard.php?az=view_all&address=105x624815

[Tess49]

60. Best thread ever written. Hope it brings some laughter to you, AlienGirl.

[Brigid]

49. For AllenGirl ;

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jVbkz_3lO3c&feature=related

[Alameda]

191. Thank you for that!

[MrMickeysMom]

51. I'm glad I checked in with you...

... and California Peggy, thanks for re-directing us.

I lived and went to school in Pinellas County. You look great in your campaign photo. I'm happy to be here with you.

[murielm99]

52. I wish I could send you healing and comfort.

Prayers and kind thoughts are all I can give you. There is not enough. You are very brave and noble, AlienGirl.

[Starry Messenger]

53. (((hugs)))

[Contrary1]

54. I'm so sorry...

As a cancer survivor (so far) myself, I can only imagine what you are going through.

I hope it does not offend you that I say a prayer. It's ok with me that many people do not believe in a higher power, but I do. I'm not really a very religious person, but there are a couple things that happened during my battle with cancer that have no other logical explanation.

And so, I just want you to know...I am thinking about you.

[gateley]

55. AllenGirl, you don't know me, but I love you.

I am holding you in my heart. I don't know what else to do. :hug:

[ornotna]

56. I don't know what to say Tucker

I'm so sorry.
I wish I could help. Wishing you peace.

[highplainsdem]

57. (((((((Tucker))))))) I hope this poem of Alan Harris's will help:

http://www.alharris.com/poems/sab.htm#DeathIsLifeBurstingintoBloom

When I die, I will not die.
I will be a foot coming out of a too-small shoe,
a bird flying free out of a cramping cage,
an astronaut taking off his space suit,
having safely returned home.

When you die, you will not die either.
You are not your body, as I'm not mine.
You will see a brighter rainbow
and hear heaven's ethereal music
which no stereo can capture.

When I die but not die,
I will leave a little part of me
inside your memory.
It will be your key to my door
that is always open in heaven.

When you die but not die,
I will have the key to your door too.
Better to have keys for open doors
than closed doors without keys,
as in this locked-up life on earth.

When I am gone but not gone,
think of me and I am there.
When you are gone but not gone,
I will send you flowers through the air.
Let us celebrate the magnificent safety of death.


I believe you will be flying free, and seeing brighter rainbows. I just wish so much that you could be spared all pain in this transition.

Death is not extinguishing the light; it is putting out the lamp because the dawn has come.
- Rabindranath Tagore

[Tsiyu]

61. Your beautiful soul shines through

in your posts and in your photo

Cancer just pisses me off.

It sucks to imagine you not being around DU. You've been a very important part of DU. I don't pray per se, but I'm hoping with fervency for a miracle for you, and if not that, that your pain is manageable and that you find something even better on the Other Side.

If I could be any superhero I wanted to be, I would be the one who could wave my hands over cancer victims and make the cancer go away.

So I pretended a minute ago and waved my hand over your beautiful face and wished I could make that wish reality.

Thank you for sharing your struggle with us. Every day is precious and I'm glad to hear you're living them to the fullest :bounce:

:grouphug:

[cliffordu]

62. My words are too shallow.

:hug:

[wundermaus]

63. (((((AlienGirl )))))

We all die... every one.
Some of us know the exact time and date...
while others are astonished.
Some suffer horribly while others are gone in a flashing instant.
I have seen it's face many times and it is thus far without fear...
and peaceful...
and even welcomed.
Yet life does not give up easily.
Life is a precious gift and is not easily given away.
Death is part of life. We were not before and we may not be again...
but we are not really sure of either, are we?
Therefore, be at peace.
We are star dust... Knowing it's self for a brief moment of time in a sea of infinity.
Amazing isn't it?
That somehow, miraculously, we had this tiny bit of time to share... to comfort each other.
Even though we never met.
I feel like I know you... and you now you know me a little, too.

[abq e streeter]

64. I'm at a complete loss for words because none I can think of are adequate.

I do hope and pray that the love and caring of strangers displayed on your computer screen are at least of some bit of comfort to you. For what it may or may not be worth, I am praying for you .

[LeftyMom]

65. I can't imagine. Please let me know if you need anything at all.

Anything. Seriously.

[Iggo]

66. Grrrrrrrrr.

:hug:

[Book Lover]

67. All my best thoughts to you

I am grateful to you for sharing some of what you're going through. Thank you.

[tblue]

69. Dear sweet Tucker, Do whatever makes you feel better.

A big hug for you. :hug: plus my favorite poem. You're not alone. I will help you. All you gotta do is ask.


Even My Pain's Gonna Be Pretty
by C. Tillery Banks

No more ugly days for me the sun shines always and the rain is sweet and cleansing washing my gutters clean.

Cloudy days will be soft and hazy not blue or lonely. Problems will only be challenges and sickness will just be a signal to listen.

Even My Pain's Gonna Be Pretty


Even My Pain's Gonna Be Pretty.

Disappointment will be growth because it will teach me to choose more carefully.

Delays will be lessons in patience because I know everything comes in time on time even when I'm late. I'll be on time there is no loss if anything goes. I gave it away and blessed whoever got it.

Even My Pain's Gonna Be Pretty.

Closed doors are wrong paths. Jammed doors will be opened since I will learn the truth.

I'll not be tired only resting. No mistakes only lessons and growth and change movement.

Even My Pain's Gonna Be Pretty

Glory glory glory.

Even My Pain's Gonna Be Pretty!

Joy. Joy. Joy.

Even My Pain's Gonna Be Pretty.

Glory. Glory. Glory.

[Mz Pip]

70. There are no words...

Just peace. :hug:

[emilyg]

71. I hold you in my heart.

[Bonobo]

72. There is summer and winter, day and night, sleeping and waking

Everything seems to have 2 phases and I don't think that our lives are any different.

Our energy must be part of something larger and you will be entering into this other phase but your energy will remain in other forms.

You have a bit of every one of us in you and we all have a bit of you in us, dear sister.

Please have faith that you have only seen a small part of this universe and are actually a part of a much larger thing.

We love you and extend our energy and love to you. I hope you feel it.

-Jeremy

[Rabblevox]

75. I hold you in my heart. /nt

[alphafemale]

76. Know this. You will NOT do this alone.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sz3NsR3PPsA

[Raine]

77. I wish you much love

and I give you a big hug. :hug:

[ZombieHorde]

78. ...

:hug:

[Jamastiene]

79. :(

:hug:

[Tom Kitten]

80. I am so sorry to hear of this!

I been gone many many moon but I remember my Alien Girl! Please don't give in to the fright of it but try to live as much as you can until you feel you cannot deal with it anymore and you accept it, however grudgingly! I spent a year with my Mom who recently passed and am dealing with my sister's stage 4 cancer and it is really hard,I know, I feel my own mortality knocking.

[Lydia Leftcoast]

81. I had no idea about your run for the Florida legislature

That is something you can be proud of. In fact, you can look back and say that you have made a difference in the world. Not everyone can.

It's very sad to see another long-time DUer going on that journey. I don't know what lies ahead of you, but like you, I think there's something, that this material world is not all there is.

Keep in touch as long as you are able.

[girl_interrupted]

82. Dear AlienGirl You are one amazing woman, I am in awe of you

I read the article about you on Tampa Bay.com . I had no idea you were so politically active. It had to take a lot of guts to get out there and to actually do something. Not just talk or post about it, but to put yourself on the line to try and make a positive change in peoples lives. What a remarkable person you are.

So many people walk through life without making much of impression or caring about others, but that surely cannot be said about you! 16,000 votes! You got a lot of people up and moving! You should be very proud of your efforts.

I know that you were interested in saving the MLK community center and I'm wondering how that turned out too.


I'm having a hard time expressing how I feel, so please forgive me. I am thinking right now of my aunt who passed from breast cancer at a very young age. We all tried to be very comforting to her and put on a brave face, but one day the thought of losing her was just so unbearable to me that I broke down and cried in front of her. And I began to apologize and she stopped me. She said to me "Don't be sorry, I want to know that I'm loved & that I will be missed, and you know what? If you don't cry you can't heal, and I wouldn't want that either."

I think you can see with all these posts, the love and respect so many people have for you and how very much you will be missed. But in the meantime I hope all these heartfelt messages envelop you in a big warm hug you can feel and keep feeling when times get rough. You will never be alone.

I pray that you do not suffer, and I'm sure those around will see that you don't. You mentioned going into the "Dark" but thats not how I see it. I think you are going into the "Light". Your body & mind, free from anxiety & pain, your spirit able to be free of these earthly bonds, these restrictions, to roam wherever you chose. And perhaps, to be united with familiar faces.

God speed on your journey to the next stage. You are in my thoughts & prayers. Much love!

[Pushed To The Left]

83. ..

:hug:

[Mnemosyne]

86. ...

:hug::hug::hug:

[TorchTheWitch]

87. my heart goes out to you

I'm so sorry you are suffering this. I just don't know what to say. Bless you and yours.

:cry: :hug:

[solara]

88. Dear Tucker

I don't know you in this life, but I believe we are all of us connected and definitely part of the same family. I am so moved that you would share your life with us.

Remember that you are not at the edge of an abyss, you are merely taking another step in your eternal existence.

I am sending you love and light and peace from my heart to yours

I am so grateful for your courage in sharing your experience like this

Bless you

:hug:

[JohnnyLib2]

89. Warm thoughts, hopes for good care, a wish to sit with you.

:hug:

[JI7]

90. .

:hug:

[TreasonousBastard]

91. Such strength. Such courage. And there is so much yet you could have done...

but for this cruel disease.

John Donne said "Death be not proud..." Dylan Thomas said "Do not go gentle into that good night..."

You know how to stare back at the now visible face of death, but the Bard said "...To sleep, perchance to dream..." and after such a life well lived, you will be kicking up a storm in those dreams.

[6000eliot]

92. Are you under some sort of care?

Can you be given something for the pain? I hope for your journey to be as pain free as possible, AlienGirl.

[AlienGirl]

168. I am seeing oncologists, but my pain is being poorly managed

They seem afraid to prescribe sufficient morphine for the pain, and the fentanyl patches don't help much but they won't give me a higher dosage of them either.

I am small and skinny but have an inherited opiate resistance, and I guess they are afraid they might give me too much and kill me.

Tucker

[Festivito]

93. I hope you revel in the good that is left.

Could that be the left-wing?

I recall you've been fighting for yourself and for us, US, for years here. We will all relinquish our fight to those who follow each of us. It would be unfair of us to make our more perfect union perfect. We are not perfect and neither will be those who follow. It's a fight that will continue long after we all leave only remnants of our good fight as our fight becomes the good itself.

Revel in the good that is left.

[KC]

94. Hugs and

More healing thoughts from NC. I am so sorry you are going through this but am thankful that
you have people around you, that love you and will be with you to support and help you get through this.

[motely36]

95. ...

words fail me. vibes for you.

[mazzarro]

96. My best regards and prayer to you - with a heavy heart

It is a terribly sad feeling to read about a situation where one cannot do much for a friend in need. How I wish that there is something we can do in this particular case - oh yes we can pray - for those of us who are religious.
Times like this is the reason we struggle to make it possible to provide the support and options to help when illness strike. Those of us who care will continue this struggle on your behalf as long as we live. I pray that your courage has inscribed on the world a legacy of fulfillment that will stand the test of time. And I hope that as you live out your last moment on this earth you come to satisfaction with the struggles you have embarked and victories you have achieved. And I hope and pray that when all our times on this earth is done, we'll meet again to renew our relationship in another dimension. With heavy heart, my prayers and best regards I'll keep offering to you as you make your preparation for the life after.

[Bake]

97. I didn't know what to say in response to your first post.

I was just stunned, frankly. Just know that all of us are here for you, and we're with you in spirit if not in person. Try not to be afraid. I'm convinced there is more for us than what we can see in this realm. Your courage is inspiring.

I wish you a peaceful passage.

:hug:

Bake

[rurallib]

98. not much to add - keep fighting and keep hope alive

:hug:

[Courtesy Flush]

99. Love from a cancer caregiver

It hurts to read posts like yours. I hope you are not in too much pain, and that your last days are peaceful.

[YankeyMCC]

100. .

[lonestarnot]

101. I am so sorry AlienGirl

[Little Star]

102. Never knew that I could feel such love for someone I never knew in person...

You have done many good works during your well years. Running for office during such a trying time for you must have been hard. I stand in awe of you and your tensity!

May your journey be easy.

I will hold you in my heart forever.


Love, LS

[Melissa G]

104. (((((Tucker)))))

Love and Peace surround you. Keeping you in my prayers.:grouphug:

[lillypaddle]

106. Damn, you're brave

I'm glad you're keeping us posted, even though it hurts us to hear it, it is nothing compared to the reality you face. You have my admiration for your strength, I wish there was something that could be said to ease it for you. Sending love your way, Tucker.

[Amaril]

107. I have no words to offer.

We are strangers to each other, so there are no shared memories to bring laughter or comfort.........and yet, the tears on my cheeks are genuine.

I wish you peace and grace on your journey. I would hold your hand if I could.

[bear425]

108. Your courage and strength is an example of your

giving and generous nature. How brave of you to share your experience with us. I wish you comfort on your journey.
:hug:

[OhioChick]

110. ..........

:hug:

[kentauros]

111. I haven't said anything about what you're going through

because I didn't know what to say. Everything I thought of seemed trite. It is good to hear you have a great friend with you :hug: :hug:

[KamaAina]

113. Someone posted a picture of you to FB last night

I'd never seen you before. :loveya:

[Jack Rabbit]

114. !!

:hug:

[nadinbrzezinski]

115. Tucker make sure that you do get pain management

it really does not, or should not, be that way.

<<<<<hugs>>>>>>>>

[WillyT]

116. (((((((Tucker)))))))

:grouphug:

Peace...

[closeupready]

117. Hang in there - I am sending you warm, healing thoughts!

:hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug:

[one_voice]

118. .....

:hug:

I want to reach out and hold your hand. Give you my shoulder to lean on. Take the weight from you..even if just for a moment.

:hug:

[cali]

119. OH tucker, I send you my love and admiration for your courage.

[xchrom]

120. i will continue to pray that the Peace that passes all understanding be with you and yours.

please tell uncle sepp hello from DU.

how beautiful to have such a friend and to be able to render such kind assistance.

[GreenPartyVoter]

122. Oh Tucker, I'm so sorry! *hugs* Do you have someone staying with you or are you in a hospice?

[Uncle Joe]

123. Peace and love to you AlienGirl.

Thanks for sharing.:hug:

[pacalo]

124. Oh, Tucker...

I wish I could give you a real :hug: .

I read the website that you provided; you're a beautiful, substantial lady with a good, good heart.

I wish I had the power to take these troubles away from you.

:hug:

[Liberal_in_LA]

125. hang in there.

[mahina]

126. sending you love sister

thank you for reaching out and sharing with us

[myrna minx]

127. Peace to you.

:grouphug:

[shireen]

128. thank you ... it is a privilege to share

this little bit of the internet with you at this time.
:hug:

[Nostradammit]

130. We will all be along shortly, sister.

Thank you for all your good work - this planet needs people like you.

Rest now, and we will see you on the other side.

[DoBotherMe]

131. I am thinking of you

:hug: Dana ; )

[NewJeffCT]

132. You have my sympathy

my heart is breaking while I read this thread.

[mnhtnbb]

133. I did not know what to say when you posted earlier that you were dying

but I recently had a long ago friend from college days taken by a recurrence of colon cancer.
She had asked her closest friends--as well as family--to be with her at the end.

Do not hesitate to ask your friends to be with you. They will be honored by your invitation.

My heart goes out to you, Tucker. Peace be with you.

[kentuck]

134. Just to let you know Tucker....

You are one of my all-time favorite DUers...

peace

ken

[yellerpup]

135. May it be just a temporary glitch.

I so admire your courage and honesty. :hug:

[emsimon33]

136. This so saddens me, but please know that you will always be a part of DU

and remembered here.

Also please know that you are surrounded by love and appreciation for all that you have done.

Finally, after losing first my mom and then my dad, I can attest that dead is just another phase although those of us in our bodies may not have the joy of holding and touching those on the other side, they are there. My dad died as a young man when he was in the Navy. He was brought back to life but had the experience that so many have with the light and the sense of joy. He did not want to come back but was told that it was not his time, so he came back. He always said that after that experience, he never feared dying. To this day, almost 10 years after my mom's death, I still get messages from her.

I would rather that you not leave us, but if you must, then know that it is the leaving that is difficult, not the other side.

[barbtries]

137. i wish i could wish away your pain.

peace and love to you and your family.

[PA Democrat]

139. May you be surrounded by peace, comfort and love.

:hug:

[graywarrior]

140. I'm sorry, Aliengirl. I wish I could offer some comfort, but honestly this hits too close to home

all I can say is you're part of us here, and we're part of you.

[libodem]

141. BLess your heart

Love and light.

[RedCloud]

142. We need you AlienGirl!

[yardwork]

144. Your courage is an inspiration.

[jwirr]

146. As we walk through this with you we also can be strengthened by

your courage and wisdom. Thank you for allowing us into you life. Love jwirr.

[OneGrassRoot]

147. You are a gift...

to so many.

Please be gentle with yourself. If there is anything I can do to help you at this time, please let me know. I'll do my very best.

For now, I send you hugs of support, Tucker. Bless you....

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[CrispyQ]

148. No words.

:hug:

[a la izquierda]

150. I wish you peace.

Drink! for you know not whence you came nor why: drink! for you know not why you go, nor where.
-Omar Khayyam

(My mother's partner of 25 years was just diagnosed with colon cancer. A cheerful soul tackles the cancer much better, I think, and you seem to prove that).

[LongTomH]

151. May the Lord Bless You and Keep You

May the Lord make His Face shine upon you and be gracious to you,
May the Lord lift up His Countenance upon you and give you peace,
Amen

No, I'm not really religious in a conventional way; but this prayer still says something that I would like to say.

I pray the good you have done in this life and the merit you have earned provide you with a good karma for the next.

And, I hope as your suffering grows, that a kindly nurse or doctor will have the grace to 'point you to heaven' with an extra dose of painkiller.

since others have posted pictures, I'd like to post this image of the Pleides. After all, your journey will be to the stars!

[tabbycat31]

152. sending good vibes your way

If you need anything send me a PM.

[hedgehog]

153. You know - so often people in chat rooms can say very nasty

things to each other. Thank you for letting us all realize that there are real people behind the names on the screen. I am so sorry you are going through this, and pray for a peaceful journey for you to the other side.

[Parker CA]

154. I saved this a few months ago. I think I found it on the DU. I love these words...

ASCENSION
And if I go while you're still here, 
Know that I live on, vibrating to a different measure 
Behind a thin veil you cannot see through. 
You will not see me, so you must have faith. 
I wait for the time when we can soar together again, 
Both aware of each other. 
Until then, live your life to the fullest — 
And, when you need me, just whisper my name in your heart. 
I will be there.
— Colleen Hitchcock

Find something to smile about every day, and strangle those memories with your mind's grasp, filling it until overflowing.

[rhett o rick]

155. I am thinking about you. nm

[ScreamingMeemie]

156. And I keep wanting this to not be true.

I keep hoping for a huge mistake. My thoughts go with you.

[flamingyouth]

157. I'm so sorry, Tucker

I remember having dinner with you years ago at Ohana in Belltown when you still lived in Seattle. I had no idea this was happening. I just want you to know that you're in our thoughts and prayers and if there's anything at all we can do, please let us know. Hugs, Lisa & Neil

[pokerfan]

158. In my thoughts always

:cry:

[kestrel91316]

159. I am so sad to hear of what you are facing. As a cat doctor, I occasionally

see cats with squamous cell carcinoma involving the base of the tongue, so more than most folks here I understand exactly what you are facing.

Be sure you demand, and receive, as much pain control as you need, administered by whatever means necessary, and if you can do so get ahold of plenty to spare so that you have the final say in how long you live.

And if your nurses ever can't deal with your situation, fire their pathetic asses and get new ones.

In the meantime, LIVE every day of your life - like it's your last.

[AlienGirl]

164. I knew you would have seen it in cats...and in cats it usually isn't allowed to progress

It seems crazy to me that I am not allowed to have any legal option other than slowly dying in agony and stink with my tongue protruding from my mouth until I aspirate and get pneumonia, am no longer able to breathe, or starve. A cat with this disease can be put down as soon as quality of life and function are lost.

My most recent oncologist privately told me that I may be better off if it has metastasized to my liver, because that is a faster, but kinder, death.

Tucker

[fizzgig]

177. it is a crime that we are not allowed to choose a death with dignity

[snagglepuss]

211. That is brutal. I hope you gain some comfort knowing that we are all holding you

in our hearts and sending prayers and vibes that you will be spared from suffering.

Something that had helped a friend of mine who had been in a hospice was his having compiled and taped not only his favorite music but also taped friends reading parts of books and poems that had always meant a lot to him. Even when he was unconscious we placed the headsets on him, as he had said he wanted, and played those tapes.

[Curmudgeoness]

160. Keep you spirit. You have been a fighter,

and your attitude has been an inspiration.

:hug:

[Mendocino]

161. May things turn out the

best that they can.:hug:

[Johnny Noshoes]

162. Words fail me

[fizzgig]

163. you are in my thoughts

love and light to you

[stuckinarut]

165. This is what the sunset looks like where I live..

http://www.google.com/imgres?q=burlington+VT+sunset&um=1&hl=en&sa=N&biw=1280&bih=685&tbm=isch&tbnid=agNnV_zvjAV8vM:&imgrefurl=http://www.thirtythree.org/wallpapers/&docid=HjEwFJoHjSY4BM&w=1600&h=1200&ei=LchmTtLXEJHqgQfancWaCg&zoom=1&iact=hc&vpx=172&vpy=85&dur=3837&hovh=194&hovw=259&tx=154&ty=149&page=1&tbnh=122&tbnw=163&start=0&ndsp=24&ved=1t:429,r:0,s:0

Just in case you never made it to Vermont.

My thoughts are with you.

Remember, it's just a ride.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iMUiwTubYu0


Peace

[RainDog]

166. sending love to you

thank you for sharing your life with us and so many others in this world.

[tpsbmam]

167. From one who is just starting down her own road of surgery & cancer treatments

I thank you for sharing yourself with us.....with me. I'll carry your courage and that of so many who've come before me with me and hope I, too, will wend my way with my own brand of fortitude, be it for years or months.

Peace be with you. You're swathed in the love of friends near and far. You've given me a good cry tonight -- those, too, are to be cherished & enveloped into the whole that makes us one, so deliciously human.

:grouphug:

[AlienGirl]

170. Thank you. Keep fighting. My first round of treatment got me an extra decade!

[tpsbmam]

206. Thank you! I'm a fighter and will take your words with me as I go.

I only hope I'd do as much with my decade as you've done with yours.

[EnlightenedOne]

169. I'm so very sorry

but know that your life works in perfect divine order, we choose when to come in and when to leave, but the love never dies - you are and will always be surrounded by light and love. I wish you the greatest of peace and joy, which I know you will have.

I tried to paste pictures from the Hubble telescope, which didn't work. They are a thing of beauty if you feel like looking. Your life won't end, we never really ever die, you will merely shed your old skin and be in a wondrous place, and you'll take all the love with you.
I wish I had something more profound to say.

[polly7]

171. I don't know you Tucker, but this song helped me so much when

I was feeling completely alone during a really difficult time. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TRB0enqRhzg I read the replies to you and see so much love, empathy, compassion and hope being sent your way. I wish you all of the above, and hope that each day brings a new beauty and discovery to you. You're an amazing person. :grouphug:

[Deep13]

172. To quote Dr. Who, there are no ordinary humans.

We are all here for a limited time and the loss of each one represents a loss of experiences that cannot be recovered. And there is no fairness in who goes when. My father died a year after retiring from retail to take his dream job training service dogs. He was 51 when a freak stroke killed him. My step brother, age 34, was run over and killed by a truck last year. My wife's best friend died of an aneurysm in her 20s.

I'm so sorry to hear what you are going through. I can only hope you don't have to suffer or go through it alone. I mean it as a consolation to say that we are all going to end up there sooner or later, so in that sense you don't have to do it alone or do anything extraordinary.

Peace.

[lightningandsnow]

174. You are an amazingly strong person.

:hug:

[Auntie Bush]

175. Here's a poem that was read at my son's fureral and gave my heart a lift

It's a well known poem and you may have heard it already...but it gave me some peace of mind and may it do the same for you.

Do not stand at my grave and weep,
I am not there; I do not sleep.
I am a thousand winds that blow,
I am the diamond glints on snow,
I am the sun on ripened grain,
I am the gentle autumn rain.
When you awaken in the morning’s hush
I am the swift uplifting rush
Of quiet birds in circling flight.
I am the soft starlight at night.
Do not stand at my grave and cry,
I am not there; I did not die.

By Mary E Frye

God bless you and may you have eternal life.

By the way...I've received many messages from him ...so I know there is a life after death. Receiving those messages turned me from an agnostic to a believer.

[BlueIris]

176. ((((( AlienGirl )))))

FWIW, neither did I. Hopefully you can get in touch with the tools you need to make this as painless as possible.

[Coyote_Bandit]

178. I have no words

but I send warm comforting thoughts.

:hug:

[texanwitch]

179. I have been thinking of what to write, nothing seems right.

This past year I lost both parents and several elderly friends.

They found a inner peace toward the end.

I hope I have the same attitude as them when my end comes.

I will be thinking of you.

:hug: :hug: :hug:

[donheld]

180. AlienGirl you'll be in my thoughts.

I wish you only good things.

[wisteria]

181. I am so sorry you have to go through this.

[Dystopian]

182. "...death can be beautiful..."

Tucker~

I recently wrote a post which included my daughter's life...
She is now a hospice nurse.
Here is a snippet:

Recently, when I had to see her at the nursing home, she unlocked the door to let me out.
"Nicki, I don't know how you can deal with this....death all around you"
She smiled at me, gave me a hug and said, "Mom......death can be beautiful..."
I walked to my car in wonderment....

Yes, I was in wonderment...and I cried.
Now I see in you what she could never have explained to me....
There is courage and acceptance .... something I didn't fully understand.
She told me she had a calling.....and she needed to be there....her path...
Her life is love...As is yours.

It is the path that we all travel....
We just don't want to think about it...we want to live in the moment....you will know and accept each moment.
May your path be filled with love and joy...

There will be those who will lessen your physical pain...fill your final days with love...
You have touched my heart....I don't know you...yet I do...We are all as one....
I am thankful that you have loved ones to be there with you and for you...
I know I will have the same...

We never know what tomorrow will bring...Let each breath bring more life and beauty..
I only wish I had the right words...and I wonder...what are the right words?



Tucker....peace, love and joy of life to you~

[susanwy]

183. A little song to ease your pain....

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vhe3vb0z7mY

I have read your insightful posts, but had no idea. A member of my family is facing the same journey soon....


Peace and Love to you

Susan

[Marrah_G]

184. I don't know what to say

I just hope you have family and friends around and that your passing, when it comes is easy and peaceful.

Love and Light

Marrah

[bullwinkle428]

185. I'm so sorry you're having to go through this. I wish we could do

something collectively as DUers to take away the pain... :hug:

[stockholmer]

186. all thoughts good I send to you

"Surely there was a time I might have trod
The sunlit heights, and from life's dissonance
Struck one clear chord to reach the ears of God..."

~ Oscar Wilde (1854-1900)

[MissB]

187. You've been in my thoughts for months

And you will continue to be in my thoughts for years to come. I hope that your days are pain free and as comfortable as possible.

[DirkGently]

189. Peace. Strength. Warm thoughts from a fellow Floridian.

[area51]

190. {{{Tucker}}}

:hug:

[FirstLight]

192. I have a question,

I don't want this to sound strange, but how long did they give you?
I have lost a couple close friends to cancer, but never was able to be there in the end when it seemed to matter most...then again, maybe it was for the best at the time. who knows why those things happen as they do.
(My first loss was my best friend, the old Hawaiian man who used to live around the corner he had a real farm and helped me raise my rabbits. Then he got sick and i couldn't handle going to see him... I was 12.
The other was another long time friend who was like a family member, she passed right after i had my 2nd child and I was too late to get there...

I am grateful for your posts and your voice and the sharing of your experience, because there is this horrific curiosity as well, since I have only dealt with the loss from a distance. Your wonderful activism and life is a real encouragement, to another single mom who would like to make a difference too. I am glad you have loved ones there, know you have a huge wave of love from us here too...
thanks and blessings
:hug: :grouphug:

[Irishonly]

193. Positive thoughts are being sent.

[glinda]

194. We are here for you. We love you.

[ThomCat]

195. I am so sorry to hear this.

:hug:

All my thoughts are with you, hoping for good days and slow progression. :loveya:

[sellitman]

196. Not many who have passed this way have touched so many, so deeply

What humanity strives for you have accomplished. The rest of us now have to catch up.

Hugs!

[ProfessionalLeftist]

197. No beginning. No ending.

The present moment contains past and future. The secret of transformation, is in the way we handle this very moment. If you look deeply into the palm of your hand, you will see your parents and all generations of your ancestors. All of them are alive in this moment. Each is present in your body. You are the continuation of each of these people. Death is but a transformation into another form. One is not separate of the other. Nothing is separate from anything else. No one is separate from anyone else. As Thay says, they 'inter-are':

http://video.google.com/videoplay?docid=258002451688299451

Forward to 8:02 where the talk begins - if you're interested.

"Can we truthfully say we did not exist before our birth? What will become of us after death? Venerable Thich Nhat Hanh addresses our ideas about life and death and how we can release these debilitating notions and get in touch with our true nature, the nature of no birth and no death. We have the tendency to think dualistically: coming and going, birth and death, same and different, being and non-being. Such opposing ideas are merely mental constructions that do not reflect the true nature of reality. Life arises when conditions are sufficient and fades when conditions are no longer sufficient. But we cannot say life and death oppose one another—they “inter-are.” “The teaching of no birth, no death,” says Thich Nhat Hanh, “is the cream of the Buddha’s teachings.”

What I hope this brings you, is peace. :hug:

[era veteran]

198. Peace be with you

[Alameda]

199. Have you made an Advanced Directive? I recently was

the primary for a friend of mine. He had three advanced directive proxies, I was the primary, but there were two others in case anything happened to me, there were back ups. Going over the Advanced Directive was very sobering, to say the least, but it does help focus on things and how to deal with them. You, and your loved ones, will need this. You also need to go over everything very carefully with your proxy. One thing we had not thought of was when they called to tell me my friend had passed, and the next sentence was,"what do you want us to do with the body". That was one detail we had not gone over with my friend. We knew he wanted to be cremated, where he wanted his ashes, what kind of a party he wanted....but the nitty gritty "what do you want to do with the body" had not been thought about.

Have you made a will? A legal will? My friend had not made a legal will and now much is in limbo. He was a fantastic artist, and we are trying to keep his work together, but his family, who never came to see him when he was sick, never went to any of his shows, and didn't help clean up things are now legal owners of all of it. He tried to make a legal will before he passed, but because of his sickness it was not possible to do it legally. By then he was not legally lucid enough to make a will. If you have anything you care about and want taken care of or anyone to have it, say and declare it now, while you are lucid enough to do it.

I hope what I'm saying is not depressing, but these are things I've found need to be taken care of early on. Taking care of them actually makes things easier.

The advanced directive is complicated. Also, we found we needed to keep copies of the Advanced Directive with us all the time because the hospital kept loosing it. It got so I remembered it by heart, but still, it's a legal document that who ever you assign will need to carry with them all the time.

Here is one pretty much anyone can fill out and use legally,if it is signed and witnessed:

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Five_Wishes#Wish_1:_The_Person_I_Want_to_Make_Care_Decisions_for_Me_When_I_Can.27t

I wish you peace and ease in your journey. You have an arduous voyage ahead, G-d speed...:hug:

[Liberty Belle]

200. Tucker, I'm so sorry. But there is always hope.

Medical science is advancing so fast, you never know when a cure may be around the corner.

I just saw a scientific journal article, several of them recently in various medical journals actually, with evidence that cannabis (marijuana) shrinks tumors. Worth a try if you can get some. It also helps with pain.

Eat all the dark-hued fruits and vegetables you can--berries, cantalope--and the cruciferous veggies (cabbage, kale, broccoli, cauliflower) which have cancer-fighting properties. Former nutrition industry editor speaking here.

I have known several people in my lifetime who were told they had rapidly growing incurable cancer, weeks to live. Several of them survived a dozen years or more, and one had her brain tumor inexplicably disappear -- not just remission, it actually VANISHED. Doctors don't understand everything there is to know about this disease.

Chlorophyll pills are used in Japanese hospitals (specifically the brand Sun Chlorella) to treat throat cancer and some other conditions. It costs next to nothing. (No, I don't sell the stuff, but have taken it in the past.) Maitake mushroom extract is another health food store item with anti-cancer properties.

AS for liver damage, the supplement sam-e is the only substance known to man that can actually reverse liver damage, even from cancer.

Where there is life, there is hope.

[Alameda]

209. You are right, it ain't over til it's over...great info, I'm keeping it for who knows when?

Amazing things do happen.

[Dem2theMax]

201. AlienGirl,

LOVE. I don't know what to say but 'love.' It is all that matters at the end of our lives.
From reading these replies to your post, it is so clear how much you are loved,
and how much love you have put out into the world.

I don't know you, but the lump in my throat is the sadness I feel at the physical loss of
someone so loved. You.

You said that there were more birds in the sky because of you.
Birds are my favorite creatures on this planet.
I cannot begin to tell you what they mean to me.
They are MY symbol of infinite and unconditional love.
I thank you for doing good for them.
When I see them soaring in the sky, I will know that your spirit
is soaring with them. And I will smile and feel joy that you were here.
Know that your love will remain forever in our hearts,
and your spirit will remain forever in the lives of all who have known you.

When it is time, I wish you a peaceful journey.
While it is now, I wish you every moment of love that passes your way.
This is one of them. :hug:

[Delphinus]

205. Beautiful.

{{Tucker}} ... as stated above, when it is time, a peaceful journey. While now, love.

Thank you, Dem2theMax.

:grouphug:

[Skittles]

202. always here for you, girl

you know it

[blackspade]

203. May the sun always smile on your face....

And the wind be at your back.

:hug:

I have always found this inspirational:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zkhx3dGKz3k

[Violet_Crumble]

204. AlienGirl, I don't know what to say...

Words kind of suck when yr facing something like that, so just know I'm thinking of you from the other side of the world

*hugs*

[kimi]

207. I don't know you

Haven't even been at DU long enough to know your legacy here, but I feel like it's being written through your words now. The courage to write about what you are going through, the generosity to share it, the willingness to tell us all what it's like --- I find it amazing and just can't find words, really. We're all better people for it, I do believe.

Peace to you, and your loved ones, and let us know if you need anything. You have so much support behind you, hon.

[muffin1]

208. I am so sorry, AlienGirl.

You are a beautiful and brave soul. I send you love and {{hugs}}. I so wish I could do more.

:hug: :loveya: :hug:

[LeftishBrit]

210. I am so sorry, and just wish you all the best

Know that there are so many people who have never met you, but know you from your posts on the board, who are thinking of you and wishing you all the best.

Hugs, tears and good thoughts to you, across thousands of miles.

[Bryn]

212. I posted to you in another thread here so this is a re-post for you

Have you heard of Anita Moorjani? She had terminal cancer, was at end of stage when she had NDE (near death experience). Her story is wonderful! She's well known around the world and was on various programs on TV. Here's her story.

http://anitamoorjani.com/?page_id=159

She wrote a book with foreword by Dr. Wayne Dyer



Also her youtube

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tjLouLHH-_I

I will be thinking about you. I hope Anita's story will be a great comfort to you.

[fortyfeetunder]

213. I saw your picture and read your posts

AlienGirl, I weep silently for your discomfort, and hope you will find peace and comfort soon. And whatever you do, do it on your own terms. :hug: