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While I know that many are not like Pat Robertson, they do have their ideals that view homosexuality as a sin. Not until the gay marriage issue had I considered these Christians as foes. I felt that I could live with them feeling that my very being was somehow flawed, but since I've seen the numbers that appose gay marriage, something like 65% I've had to rethink my tolerance for all Christians. Before I could tolerate them feeling that it was ok to be gay, but not ok to marry, and dismissing the love between two men as not worthy or could not possibly compare to a heterosexual relationship, and the thought of 6 out of 10 feeling this way was the most disturbing revelation in my 42 years as a gay man.
Knowing gay couples that have been together for 25 years and better, and hearing of the down right hateful ways in which a surviving partner had been treated, not only by the family but the courts in this country has changed me forever. I don't think I can accept any excuse, and for most their trouble with gay marriage comes directly from their ideals rooted in their religion.
I had always been respectful of others and their religion, and allowed them to get to know me, and see the true face of a gay man. I don't look gay, and most have no clue until they get to know me, and I let on with my views and when I speak of my friends and companions. It reminds me of the scene in Torch Song Trilogy, when he and Ma were at the cemetery, and where saying a prayer to each of their spouses, when Ma read him for having the same feelings for his dead partner, and her asking him if he could really compare his lose with hers, a man she had spent her life with, raised children with, and just her resentment at the audacity that he could even approach such love that I realized just a year or so ago, that most Christians feel just that way. As if they have the only right to that type of love, and that ours is just some sickness, and sex.
I will never accept any excuse based in Religious Ideology, and my respect for Christian friends will now most definitely hing on just that one issue. They may not need my respect, but to be sure they will not get it, and I'm sure in many cases they will lose my friendship. This goes for my family as well. If my pool of friends drys up to just those 4 out of 10, to me now, it's worth it.
I have given and given, and allowed those to judge me and me accepting that as well, it's just a part of our friendship, but I will no longer accept that. I know over the years I have changed some hetro's thoughts on what a gay person is like, many have told me so. I feel good about that, hey one at a time right, but as much as I've thought times were changing for the better for gays, I was not prepared for the numbers against gay marriage. When I ask why, most can't give me a valid answer, and as I've said, Religious Ideology plays a huge role.
I have been asked to Marry and raise kids with two gals in my life, me as the father of someone else's children, while flattered, I wouldn't do it. Not only is it not fair to the fathers of those kids, but to the mothers as well. As time would pass, the resentment would most surely seep in, and itwould get ugly and painful. I would have been proud to be a father, and felt I would have been a good one, but marriage to me has always been a special institution, and aside from any religion, I believe in vows made between two people and respect those that have made it a life long endeavor.
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