You know that feeling...? Futility...? (is it the planets?)

[FirstLight]

I am bored, with my self, and the prospects for the future.
been blanketing resumes far & wide and no bites
got no more oomph to even try to make a nice profile for myself on any more job sites
I don't feel like i have any thing to brag about, and no portfolio to show,
just blah...

it's not even depression, because then at least I'd be sad - instead

It's just this lingering feeling of why bother
and the desperation of knowing i have to make it through the next 2 weeks without an income possibility in sight,and no borrowing options...
can i clean a house? no, my back is still fucked up
can i sell something? got nothing left of any value
can i find a $100 bill on the street?...geez, it may only help for a little while...
ugh...and now that I think of it, i didn't pay the electric bill either this month, shit! hope they will wait till the 5th before threatening to shut us off, tanf doesn't come till then...

i am so done with this economy, this 'career',
feels like i am a really crappy example to my kids when i have no job to go to...and nothing to show for it...

I'm done feeling like a failure, and my horoscope says my career is supposed to get better
well? i'm waiting!

[Fire Walk With Me]

1. "i am so done..."

A university professor went to visit a famous Zen master. While the master quietly served tea, the professor talked about Zen. The master poured the visitor's cup to the brim, and then kept pouring. The professor watched the overflowing cup until he could no longer restrain himself. "It's overfull! No more will go in!" the professor blurted.

"You are like this cup," the master replied. "How can I show you Zen unless you first empty your cup."

[FirstLight]

2. i recently heard this.tale

thanks for reminding me...i guess i am just going to go for a walk and empty my cup! ;) :hug:

[FirstLight]

3. omg...it's boredom, that's it!

I'm bored, i have all this time to myself and no desire to create or *DO* anything...

maybe it's just hormones :rofl:

[Fire Walk With Me]

4. Reread post one...

;) :hug: