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Not saying the luck has dissipated exactly, but--my animals won't eat. My dog won't go outside. I've been getting weird cards suggesting that there will be unpleasant issues related to my homelife. In short, I started panicking about the future again, namely that I will get kicked out of my house by my nutty roommates before my book is complete and then it won't get done and then--!!
So, I was considering asking all of you if you were "getting" anything about that, and if so, what and what should I do to prepare other than continue with my plan to find a better job, and get my book done and...
But then I had a good day. Everything I needed was on sale, which is important since I am on an extremely tight budget for the foreseeable future. I managed to narrowly avoid hitting two people while backing out of parking lots today--one near miss happened in the parking lot where I rear-ended someone last April, because in addition to avoiding relationship (karmic) responsibilities regarding my ex-boyfriend, I was thinking about what I was convinced was the impending beginning of WWIII.
After having such a good afternoon, I started trying to figure out why I am having this sense of foreboding yet also a sense of triumph and hope, and newfound strength. I'd been asking the Universe since Wednesday to give me a sign about the immediate future, whether I was going in the right direction or not, and if I was, what changes I would need to make in order to really, really see the Path through to its proper conclusion. Tonight, after noticing that one of our cats, who appears ostensibly healthy, hasn't eaten for almost two days, and just wanders around the property staring at me, I went back inside to close a bathroom window and a frog, yes, a frog, FALLS on my HEAD. A little tree frog. Yes, we live in the woods, but its not like they just come bounding in here whenever they feel like it. I can't remember one ever coming in the house. My roommates and I have been talking for a while about how lucky frogs are. My male roommate even accepted a birthday present I gave him for his car, which was a little frog talisman, with relief and gratitude last March. It FELL on my HEAD. I guess that's my answer? Kinda? I think I kinda needed a big one because as I was just telling one of my guides today, I have an impossible time trusting that the Universe wants what is best for me, considering all of the bad things that have come before.
The frog, who actually is very lucky I didn't slam him shut in the window, is sitting under a collander (with lots of airholes) in my bathroom right now, while I try to figure out what to do with him. I think he should go back outside with the other frogs, mostly because I don't really have a place to keep him in the house, but...I asked for a sign and a FROG fell on my HEAD. I know, I know, I should be simply grateful, but at the moment, I'm just freaked.
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