Update on my 11/29/06 request for good vibes:

[SeattleGirl]

Here is the thread:
http://www.democraticunderground.com/discuss/duboard.php?az=view_all&address=245x31644

The check did not come today, despite the very strong feeling I had that it would. So, I don't know what is going to happen with the account on which I was supposed to pay that bill. I'm feeling a little shell-shocked right now, and wondering why the check did not come today. Maybe there was something in me blocking it, even though I was doing what I felt were positive affirmations and visualizations. Maybe there is something else going on. I'm not sure.

The person who is handling this account has been wonderful, but what happens now may be beyond her control. I'm not sure myself what will happen. I am still visualizing the check getting here, and that things will not get bad.

Overall, I'm in a very weird spot in my life. I have for the longest time had money (not tons, but making a pretty good living, paid my bills, etc.). Now I find myself in a place where I don't have any money right now, though some is coming my way. I am having to ask my husband for money, and that's not something I've had to do before. I always made more money than him, but when I paid for vacations, household things, etc., I never saw it as MY money buying things, but rather, that I was able to do so, so I did. Now I find myself in the humbling position of not being able to do that. Is the Universe trying to show me something? Teach me something? There are other things that I feel I have no control over either, and again, I ask myself if there is something that the Universe is trying to tell me, show me, or clobber me over the head about. I'm not sure.

I have always been something of a control freak, because my life growing up was so often out of control. So, I think I will need to take some periods of quiet time over the next few day, see what message or messages the Universe is trying to show me.

In the meantime, I want to thank those of you who responded to my request for good vibes regarding the check. You guys are so giving and so caring, and I appreciate it more than I can say.

[Metta]

1. Thanks, SG, for the update.

Sorry to hear things are working out in ways other than you hoped for. I, too, have found that sitting with tension and anxiety is a perfect way to be available for their insights as they unfold. Warm regards.

[SeattleGirl]

2. Thanks, Metta.

I have found that since I have been visiting this forum more frequently, I am calmer, even when things aren't going the way I wish and/or in the timeframe I wish they would. For that, and the people here, I am most thankful.

[lildreamer316]

3. SeattleGirl-

I. too, am somewhat of a control freak. And considering my recent past with money, I do understand. I really hope this breaks for you soon.
My break happened not minuites after I had listened to this for the second time. Maybe it wouldn't hurt to try?
http://www.democraticunderground.com/discuss/duboard.php?az=view_all&address=245x31404

again, just in case there is such a thing as mojo or "luck" in this situation, it might help.
I'll be thinking of you.

[SeattleGirl]

5. Thanks, libdreamer. I will download and listen to this.

:hug:

[I Have A Dream]

4. I'm sorry, SeattleGirl.

I hope that your check comes today and that the people who make the decisions in reference to the bill are able to be flexible beyond your expectations. Light and love to you.

:hug:

[SeattleGirl]

6. I just talked to the woman who handles this account.

I have an extension until at least Monday. :bounce:

I'll take it day by day. Thanks for your well wishes. :hug:

[lildreamer316]

7. Oh good!!!

That's such a relief!
I'm sure you will get this taken care of.:hug:

[stellanoir]

8. woohoo

I'm vibing it for tomorrow.

Hope it comes.

[rumpel]

11. That is great.

I had in fact written in my post, that it sometimes helps to talk to the creditor - and then
I took it out - as I thought, what do I know, perhaps you already tried...

Yes, day by day, in the moment in gratitude :hi:

[latebloomer]

9. Not to be intrusive, but

Why do you feel you have to be so anxious about money when you could ask your husband for some? Sounds like you were more than generous in the past.

Please pardon me if there is something you have explained before about this situation. But I'm wondering if the lesson to be learned is that you need to be able to ask your partner when you need help. In my view, husband and wife should be a team in all matters.

That being said, I sen good vibes for the check's speedy arrival!

[SeattleGirl]

10. You aren't being intrusive in the least, latebloomer.

I grew up rather poor -- not ghetto-poor, but poor nonetheless. Lots of lack in my life during that time.

I'm also the oldest of 5, and because my dad was an alcoholic, and my mom needed to work outside the home, a lot of responsibility fell on me.

When I started making decent money, paying my way and bringing others along with me was just part of who I am.

Now, I'm not able to do that -- just for now, though. As I said, my husband doesn't react badly to it or anything, but he does like to remind me that he has his own bills to pay. And in a somewhat perverse way, I think he likes it that I'm dependent, and I don't like it at all.

But as I said in my OP, there is a lesson -- or lessons here -- for me. There are other things going on too that affect this situation, or rather, my view of this situation, that I don't want to get into, but they just add to the "fun".

I appreciate your comments. And thanks for the vibes.