"Death to New Life...the Resurrection" - Karen Bishop - July 9, 2009

[I Have A Dream]

Death to New Life...the Resurrection
Karen Bishop
July 9, 2009

Welcome!

Last week my father was diagnosed with acute leukemia. Now 81 years of age, he had jumped out of an airplane on his 80th birthday, because, as he said, “I am only 80, not dead!” In the past two years (he turns 82 on August 2), he, like many of us, had become increasingly weary and tired of what life was offering …very uncharacteristic for him.

Immediately after his diagnosis, he began a five day treatment of chemotherapy…something he said he would never do, but the desire for life was strong within him. With the chemotherapy treatment giving him the desired extreme low blood count, if even one at all, he has most certainly been wiped clean, ready to begin again, hopefully with a new and healthy blood running through his veins.

When he first experienced a sudden onset of serious symptoms, I had checked into his soul plan and was able to see that he was preparing for a wake-up call…something that would really allow him to re-evaluate his life and allow him to see what really mattered. But I never believed his wake-up call would go this far. I think I shed a river of tears as I watched his journey, feeling a helplessness that I could not describe as I was asked by spirit to keep a distance, all the while knowing that everything was indeed in divine and perfect order.

I share this story with you, as it is so very indicative of our journey home…of our re-birth into a very new reality with a very new experience. For many of us, we never believed it would go this far. We may have wondered why we had to seemingly suffer so…why we had to be stripped clean in order to start over…or even why things seemed to get forever worse before they would hopefully get better. And why we had to literally feel dead inside.

Just like my father, we are preparing to start over once again. And this time, we have shed so much that our life force may have appeared to have left us as well. But just like my father, we will again be re-born, and when we open our eyes if ever so slowly, and begin to see new light, we will be seeing a new light from very new eyes…eyes that have an appreciation for all that is good, all that is love, and all that really and truly matters.

As with a 3D death process, when we cross over, many times we first arrive in a place that we had fond memories of when we were alive. We may remember a special time with a certain someone, a special place where we had a good and very happy experience, or even a time when all was wonderful, happy, and simple. When everything within us is now gone, we are most certainly, ready for a promised land that is unique for each and every one of us.

In this way, we may have most recently found ourselves yearning to return to a better time, a better place, or to re-unite with a long lost soul mate. We may crave our simple joys of the past, and this is to be expected, as this is part of the death process. We want to go back to the earthly experiences that were oh so right before this massive transition began.

We will.

And this is already happening now.

The new arrivals have been slowly coming into our spaces. And these new arrivals can be energies from a better past…energies that we once knew but were unable to keep at that time (as we had agreed to leave them and move into our roles of assisting in the ascension process)…but now, we can indeed keep these better energies of the past. They have returned to us once again, as great gifts to embrace, and to acknowledge that they are now here forever, as we will never part again. We are being re-born into a new reality of our making and it is truly awesome indeed. We get to come home now, and come home to a new earth where joy abounds and suffering ceases to exist….where love is ever present and all our needs are met with ease…where our hearts can open wide and where we can embrace one another once again as we finally meet up on a very new and “other side.”

I know this to be true because it has been happening for me. And if it has been happening for me, it will indeed happen for all of us at one time or another.

Amazing healings are occurring now as well. ALL OF US are being given the opportunity to take a hard look at energies within us that need to depart, settle down, or at least be brought up to higher levels of vibration. We are lovingly being given an opportunity to change and grow, to examine ourselves, and to allow unneeded energies to now reside in another dimension... a dimension we have recently left behind. These energies cannot exist in the heaven we are in now or soon to be inhabiting. But this is a graceful process, as we willingly and almost eagerly let them go in order to move forward. Incredible grace and support is surrounding us as we let these energies go. And the angels are everywhere.

Solar flares have returned once again after a two-year absence, and eclipses are here as well. But know that it is not the solar flares that are bringing in the light once again. In times past, the solar flares bombarded the planet with regularity, creating much movement with our ascension process. They subsided for the past two years, because we were now embodying much more light within ourselves, and we no longer needed this outside stimulus. We had to learn to hold the light ourselves. We had to reach deep within ourselves and become the angels that we originally came to be.

The solar flares are here again now, because we have indeed graduated. We are now summoning them; or rather, the light is arriving from within, than the other way around. It does not really matter about solar flares, or this or that. Hopefully, many of us have indeed learned that the outside does not create a condition on the inside. In the beginning stages of ascension, creation from the outside was much more the case, but not now. We need not be waiting for relief, or for help from above, or whatever, because we have now evolved to a point that we are the “above.” We need not depend on nor wait for outside circumstances to dictate our realities. We hold the light and the power now.

So in this way, it is always up to us. Yes, we have had times of waiting, but we were not waiting for something from above to arrive; we were waiting for enough of us to be ready within.

We summoned the solar flares once again because it was now time. Our very new heaven on earth was ready for birthing and this new additional light will most certainly assist. Miracles are once again abounding. Staying still, in complete surrender, can bring most anything to us, and we may not even feel that it was our own idea. Our soul plans are most assuredly kicking in.

Experiencing dark or unpleasant energies that do not seem to see us, do not respect us, or do not appreciate us, are simply indications that we no longer belong in those spaces. We are being kicked out. It is time to depart. Being the loving and giving souls that most of us are, we would undoubtedly stay around forever if things were not made so unpleasant for us. At higher soul levels, these seemingly dark energies are telling us good-bye, and greatly assisting us on our journeys.

Again, at the same time, new and beautiful energies are arriving, almost one at a time. Ever so slowly, they come into our new reality, crossing over the dimensional border, connecting to us with great fondness and a perfection that we may have never known. We are building the new heaven now. It is being pieced together. It is indeed here, and if we allow ourselves to open, surrender, truly let go and get out of the way, we will feel a bliss, gratitude, and awe that takes our breath away…in between the emotional tears!

I will not be posting a WINGS for another 10 days to two weeks, as I will be in California with my father for a while. In the meantime, know that our brothers and sisters are opening new doors for each and every one of us, and we will, most certainly, find ourselves holding hands and creating a very new grid as we continue to move forward. As the solstice succeeded in uprooting the ascension rungs below us, the rungs of the ascension ladder that we had been inhabiting, will soon be inhabited by those who were uprooted. As this process progresses, many of us will then be freed to move on to our own very new rungs, in a very new reality.

With much love and gratitude,
Karen


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[I Have A Dream]

1. The following book excerpt was included in the E-mail notification...

From The Ascension Primer:

No More "Working"?

In the higher realms we always have everything we need. In
the New World all our needs will be met in two ways:

1. Each resident of each community will be
contributing to the perfect and harmonious functioning
of the community through their unique and special
passion and gift. This is the gift of who they are after
they have completed much of their cleansing and
purging through the ascension process. What we do
not contribute ourselves will be contributed through
another. And each of us will simply be being; being
who we are with no effort required. Anything not being
contributed through the existence of another's passion
and creations will not be needed, as there cannot exist
a need without a person to fulfill it. Passions for
passions, joys for joys, and all in total bliss and
connection to Source.

2. Our needs will also be met through our total
connection and alignment with the earth and the
cosmos. Every existing thing in the universe has a
unique vibration and affects and contributes to the
whole. As we learn to live in these communities in total
alignment with the planets and celestial bodies (the sun
and the moon), they will support creation in another
way. The earth contains all we need to survive upon
her. We have forgotten how to utilize her gifts. We
have become disconnected. We will be learning many
new ways to harvest our needs through her resources
as we will be part of her. Other ways of creating will be
utilized as well and they all have to do with alignment.
Becoming one with the earth will be vital and necessary
component. Much more will be said about this in future
Life In The Higher Realms books, as this is a whole new
story on its' own!

As the New World begins to form, many will be having
experiences that will serve to encourage them in "arriving."
The old structures will really begin to fall and malfunction at
the precise time that many will be feeling a strong desire to do
something different. This is how evolution and creation occurs.
All at the same time. Old jobs and careers will begin to falter,
as there will suddenly occur a time of getting no business or
receiving no money. This is an indication that you are no
longer residing in that reality. You are not being supported
because you have moved up a notch and are now vibrating
somewhere else. You have a different and higher role. For
healers, your business may suddenly dry up as you are now
vibrating beyond the need to give or receive healings. Healing
does not exist in the higher realms...remember?

And when structures and business that were created in the old
world reality can no longer serve us (as there are too many
hoops to jump through and they all revolve around money and
the way of giving in order to get, etc.), many will literally have
to create another way of surviving. The New World depicted in
the paragraphs above is certainly the highest way, but as the
process begins unfolding, many steps will arrive first. Most
inhabitants of the earth are not lightworkers, therefore, they
will progress much slower and at a rate and reality that better
suits what they believe can happen. No judgment here as
lightworkers have always been a breed of their own, but
virtually everyone will eventually no longer be interested in
"the old." It will simply no longer feel right or good and this
will create a yearning or wandering into something else. This
is a part of the letting go.

Can I Come In Yet?

Because the lightworkers have come to lead the way and assist
others in "arriving" in a new and higher vibrating reality, they
will be the first to begin creating this New World with these
new communities of light. These communities will then be
firmly established and ready for anyone else to arrive. When
we believe in something, it then becomes real for us. As many
more begin to become willing to let go of the old, as it has
gotten unbearable and unmanageable, they will then begin to
be ready to believe in and let in something new. And as all
creation exists within dimensional hierarchies, individuals will
begin to arrive in these communities when they are matching
the vibrations of these higher realities. Remember, no access
granted anywhere until we are BEING where or what we want!

Although many have held the vision of a higher vibrating planet
for some time now, it is quite different when it finally begins to
arrive. You see, we had to be it before we could create it. And
as we are being supported and watched over by all of the
cosmos, this is a very exciting time indeed.

Arriving in this space of the New World can leave some debris
in our paths as well as a sense of great loss, even though we
may finally feel that we are somewhere New. How do we
know that we are on track and that we are indeed connected?

[OneGrassRoot]

2. The reconnections from the past...

I've been wondering about this lately. About this rather overwhelming experience many people 40+ are going through in the last year, with the emergence and popularity of Facebook.

Several weeks ago I, hesitantly, went on Facebook to connect with one person from high school days. Well, when you connect with one, you eventually connect with all...lol. It was like a high school reunion right there online, but with the ability to see people's families and much more.

Very odd and very interesting experience. Several friends have been thrown into a Twilight Zone for a week or more when they get on Facebook and reconnect, out of the blue, with many people from decades ago.

I've wondered if there is a bigger vision at play here, with so many experiencing this same thing and being thrown back to their youth.

I can't quite put my finger on it, but what Karen shares in the first part of this alert feels like it ties in with this Facebook experience.

Thanks for posting, IHAD.

:hug:

[JanusAscending]

3. WOW !!!

Same here! I've been a member of Face book for a while now, because of my Granddaughter's wedding plans. Since her wedding last weekend, I've been on it more often, to share all of everyones wedding pics, and the bride and groom are communicating from Disney world, their honeymoon site!! This is why I haven't been spending that much time here with y'all. I haven't actually searched for old school chums, 'cause I attended my 50th H.S. reunion 2 yrs. ago this Aug. However, I have been contacted by an old neighbor and his wife. I guess I'll have to start searching for some other old friends too! I've been contemplating joining a "Match" group to search for single Senior's in my area, but I'm wondering, am I too old to find another "soul mate"? Not looking for marriage, just companionship, and a helpmate. Do you or anyone one get any vibes in regard to this for my life???:grouphug: LOVE, JA

[OneGrassRoot]

4. Never too old....

:)

I was kind of at the forefront of meeting people online as far as my family and others I know (the few people in my life...lol). They always looked at me like I was crazy, that I would only meet serial killers or something. ;)

I think if one is fairly savvy and accustomed to being online, there is really no difference meeting someone online versus meeting someone for the first time at a coffee shop or bar.

If those you're interacting with are honest (and who is to say when meeting someone in person that they're being honest?), to me -- as someone who likes to sit with information and don't do well just reacting in a knee-jerk fashion -- it's been much better meeting people this way.

In fact, the VAST majority of people in my life now I have met online. I met my fiance online. :)

I know here they have a local, 50+ dating site, which I think is very cool.

If you're drawn to it, I don't see what it can hurt? It could even be miraculous. :)

:hug:

[I Have A Dream]

7. My mother is your age, JA, and I'd love for her to find someone...

with whom she can share her life. (She's been hurt too much to ever attempt it again though. :()

It sounds as though you're open to the idea though, JA, so I think that you should definitely pursue it! No, you're NOT too old for love. Good luck if you decide to move forward with this! :)

[Digit]

27. Yep, never too old

I am turning 58 next month and I am on Facebook and Myspace and people from my past are finding me.

As far as companionship, a free site to check out is Plentyoffish.com
Go for it, and good luck!

[OneGrassRoot]

30. That's where I met my fiance :)

:hug:

[I Have A Dream]

6. Interesting thought, OGR.

I also have been drawn into Facebook since my family interacts there, but I've deliberately kept away from people who I might have known in high school. It's not that I don't like them, but I can't imagine what I'd say today to them; I'm so different from what I was then. I was still searching for what worked for me spiritually, and I was in my evangelical Christianity phase back then. My friends from high school would almost certainly not have much in common with me today. :(

I'm glad that your experience has been positive. :)

[OneGrassRoot]

9. Actually....

I resisted it and have since withdrawn. lol. I haven't interacted with any of these people since 1981, and they have a memory of this girl that no longer exists.

Anyway, it's interesting in that it brings back so many memories -- good and not so good. But, I have become such an introvert as I age, especially as I've worked from home for so long and don't have a social group per se. I've taken on a hermit mode, even online many times. ;)

But WOW about the change you have experienced! Different worlds, eh?

I've noticed in reading what others share (classmates at Facebook) that they are pretty clearly delineated, politically and religiously. They're either far right or far left.

Interesting. :)

[MorningGlow]

12. "They have a memory of this girl that no longer exists"

Ain't THAT the truth! I connected with a few high school friends (and people who weren't friends, which was weird) on FB, which led to a lunch date with two of my formerly closest friends. Although we hadn't stayed in touch since we graduated (lost touch some time during college--back when there was no e-mail and letter writing tended to peter out), they had stayed close friends with each other. It was a fun lunch--we laughed a lot--but it was odd, because we were all simultaneously totally different and yet fundamentally the same in certain respects. It was like hanging out with brand new people but I'd get a glimpse of the old friends underneath, once in a while.

Anyway, at one point one of my friends started to tell a little story of something that happened to her recently, and she prefaced it with "(MG), you'll be able to appreciate this" and she turned to our other friend and said "This is SO something (MG) would do."

It turned out to be an anecdote about how she stood up to a bunch of belligerent teenagers in a parking lot. Er...I would do that? O RLY?
:wtf:

Made me start to wonder how people perceived me in high school, if I really had been that way, and how much I've changed in the past 25 years...not to mention what admirable qualities I may have lost over the years... :crazy:

[I Have A Dream]

14. Oh, yes -- my life has totally changed.

I was also in the organization Campus Crusade for Christ in my freshman year in college. :scared: That is the thing that really convinced me that religion was not the right path for me -- spirituality was. I can't tell you how many times I was told that I couldn't trust my heart or my mind because Satan could control either of them. I could only trust what they told me or the exact words of the Bible. (However, their interpretation was always the "correct" interpretation if there was ever a question. :eyes:)

Actually, I owe a great deal to Campus Crusade for Christ because it was an accelerated path showing me what I didn't want in my life. I often think back to what I'd be today if my spirit/higher self hadn't shouted at the top of its "lungs" that my soul felt as though it was dying from living that life. I couldn't run away from it fast enough once I gave myself permission to no longer live in fear of Hell. Everything came together for me at the point that I decided that I'd rather go to Hell than live in fear of God.

[get the red out]

16. The first guy that found me is now a "recovering Baptist"

His family sent him to Liberty University, from which he graduated. Now he lists "recovering Baptist" on his Facebook page and puts up a "fundy church of the week" post poking at churches that show intolerance and lack of love. I was amazed!

Granted, he did always sneak his way into the homecoming dances, and we didn't tell. }(

[I Have A Dream]

28. I *do* wonder what has happened with my friends.

They were good people, and it's even possible that they'd be tolerant of the person that I am today.

Maybe someday I'll actually decide to look them up. (Maybe once I retire and am looking for ways to fill my time, which is quite a bit in the future.)

Good for your friend, gtro! Sounds to me as though he's a "recovered" rather than a "recovering" Baptist. :)

[lildreamer316]

26. That's exactly my experience with Facebook, as well as what IHAD said.

It freaked me right the hell out when I first got on there and was inundated with friend requests from people it took me forever to figure out were from High School. Ya know, I wasn't very popular with them then, why the heck do they want to be my friend now?? But whatever, I just let it be and friended them. I don't interact a lot.
That's the only thing I don't like about Facebook - it's much less anonymous than Myspace. Of course, now that I've put a real pic up everywhere, that's a moot point - LOL.

Yes, I am SO not the person I was then. That girl also no longer really exists. Thanks for putting it so well... :)

[Proud_Lefty]

11. I hear you on that

I came across an old boyfriend of mine on Facebook, way back to the early days of high school. I went ahead and invited him as a friend thinking it would be kind of neat taking a stroll down memory lane. Well, now I've found out he's become a far right winged preacher who tries to lead his flock according to his religious and political beliefs that I strongly disagree with. Some of his post really upset me. I'm hoping to figure out how to put him on ignore without him knowing. That memory lane has totally lost its appeal as far as I'm concerned.

[I Have A Dream]

13. Well, I'm glad that *you're* my friend, P_L.

I'm going to be a pretty boring friend though since I don't go there very often.

I totally understand your "That memory lane has totally lost its appeal as far as I'm concerned." comment. I decided that I'd rather keep my rather fond memories of my high school friends than be disappointed by new interactions with them. However, maybe I'd be surprised and there would be some other people in my group of friends who are now more spiritually-oriented than religiously-oriented.

I guess the bottom line is that I have wonderful friends now, and I'd rather invest my time and effort into keeping in contact with them. As you know, keeping in contact is one of my weaknesses, even when I truly treasure a friendship. :hug:

[Proud_Lefty]

19. Please don't ever feel guilty, Dream

Time is one of the most precious things we have these days. Your friendship is so special that it doesn't even know time. Funny, that made me pause for a minute and think about what they say we're coming to, the end of linear time, when our love and energy knows no boundaries. Yes, I completely understand it now. Thanks, Dream, for the live demonstration on how that works. :hug:

[Dora]

21. You can unfriend him.

You can unfriend anyone on your friends list. There's no notification if somebody removes anyone from their friends. The only way he will find out is if he tries to access your profile again, or if he happens to notice that you're no longer on his friends list. He'll also no longer have contact with your profile or any personal info you have posted.

Please - don't worry about his feelings, they're beyond your control. You're uncomfortable with his opinions and the way he expresses them, and I think that's a legitimate reason for unfriending someone. It's your responsibility to yourself to surround yourself with friends you enjoy hearing from and who strengthen and support you.

Be true to yourself. :)

[Proud_Lefty]

22. Very wise words, Dora

Thank you for this. I agree with you 100%. When I see his posts, I feel enraged even though I remember the days I used to believe those same religious dogmas. I understand he is completely misled and might mean well, but you are so right about my need to put myself in the company of people who don't make me so uncomfortable.

You're awesome. :hug:

[I Have A Dream]

29. This is a great post, Dora.

We don't have to be victims or doormats. He's entitled to his opinions, and we're entitled to not listen to them or not want to be associated with them if we so choose. Luckily, Facebook gives us an easy way to solve that problem. (Although, I have to admit that I would feel bad when I did it, but that's my issue.)

:thumbsup:

[hermetic]

10. Facebook

I had a bestest ever friend in college, 25 yrs ago, who moved to Mexico and was never heard from again. Last week, on a whim, I searched her name in FB and by golly, there she was. I was delighted and we are reconnecting.

Another incident a couple of days ago: I met someone (in person) through another friend and we were just chatting about this and that when a question about computers came up. I'm not exactly sure how we got to the next part but it turns out she and several friends are all aware of this new reality and are the kind of people who would feel quite at home here in ASAH.

I was just

Talk about out of the blue. I'm very excited about this new connection.

I love Karen's messages. Thanks, IHAD, so much for sharing them.

:hug:

[get the red out]

15. That happened to me this week!

I had put up a very skeletal Facebook page a couple of months ago when a friend I have known since I was 8 (we have always kept in touch) emailed me to let me know he had pictures of the new house he and his partner were building on his Facebook page, so I joined to see their house (we both live in different areas of the state from where we grew up, but 70 from each other). Over the July 4th weekend I got a wild hair and wondered what would happen if I spruced up my page and added pictures and more info. By Tuesday here come the "ghosts from the past"! My friend and I were both blown away when a number of people we knew in high school found both of us at once. Twilight Zone is a very good term for it. My friend and I chatted online last night and he kept saying he felt like it was "frying his brain". We decided to let it happen, though we were both nervous. Both of us have some things we have walked through in our lives, which we know about each other, but these people we haven't talked to in so long don't know.

It has really forced me to confront my old ideas of what has meaning and what doesn't; I am having to look at how I judge myself from a spiritual perspective and know that judging myself or others by fickle societal white picket fence standards does not work, spiritually we are all just trudging our path, no one better than the other, in the end the Universe won't look at my savings account, job title, or my mate's job title; or anyone else's. If I had not at least learned from these ideas I couldn't accept this, strange as that sounds.

Thank you OneGrassRoot for bring this experience up, at 45 I fit the description to a "T".

[Fire Walk With Me]

5. Oh, absolutely.

"Amazing healings are occurring now as well. ALL OF US are being given the opportunity to take a hard look at energies within us that need to depart, settle down, or at least be brought up to higher levels of vibration. We are lovingly being given an opportunity to change and grow, to examine ourselves, and to allow unneeded energies to now reside in another dimension... a dimension we have recently left behind. These energies cannot exist in the heaven we are in now or soon to be inhabiting. But this is a graceful process, as we willingly and almost eagerly let them go in order to move forward. Incredible grace and support is surrounding us as we let these energies go. And the angels are everywhere."

(And I'm definitely not welcome where I've lived, and am currently living.)

This ties in perfectly with my recent (and continuing!) healing:

http://www.democraticunderground.com/discuss/duboard.php?az=view_all&address=245x96234

Thanks IHAD. Prayers to Karen and her father.

[I Have A Dream]

8. FWWM, I'm so happy to see you so peaceful, centered and balanced.

Congratulations on the progress that you've made in your efforts to heal. I hope that it continues for you. Kudos to you for doing the work that had to be done to get to this point.

:hug:

[Fire Walk With Me]

17. Thank you very much!

I used to have a far better connection with the light than now, due to huffing and puffing after a bunch of monsters (which did NOT make them go away; you can't out-ugly, ugly itself)...and I want it back...I want to be back in closer connection with God, especially owing to the very long-awaited lowering of the veil!

All I have to do is convince those who are afraid of me that all I wanted was for them to alter their behaviour towards me, that I had and have the right to be treated (or simply ignored) like everyone else. I =have= taken a spiritual vow of no harm (excepting mosquitos, forgive me), and as dearly as I detest some people's behaviour, I just want to get on with music and music electronics and spirituality, and to be left alone.

Cheers :hug:

[I Have A Dream]

18. I'm sorry that you've been treated like this, FWWM.

I'm putting my energy with yours to help to manifest into your life the peace and spiritual connection for which you strive.

So be it; so be it; so be it.

:hug:

[Fire Walk With Me]

20. Thank you!

:hug: :hug: :hug:

And ask any higher beings you are in contact with, if I am telling these things truly. I'm no innocent, but wanted to protect my space and rights and the greater rights of the community...I'm working through my own defects and bad behaviours regarding this, and require help moving on due to resistance (fear/selfishness/glee).

[I Have A Dream]

25. You deserve all the help that the Universe can offer right now, FWWM.

I sincere, striving soul deserves no less.

I will keep you in my prayers, my friend.

:hug:

[northernlights]

23. this is one of the very few that doesn't really resonate for me

maybe the timing is off again? I went through a phase of wanting to reconnect with old friends back around '01 and 02. It didn't work out too well at all. One of my best friends growing up has been diagnosed bipolar, but I'd personally diagnose her as manipulative and totally psycho. I was going to pass through Colorado, where she now lives, on a vacation, so we started planning to meet. Then she played a nasty game and blew the whole thing up. She stopped taking phone calls from me and I never heard from her again. :wtf:

My best friend from my 1st year in college married really well, has returned to France where she lives in a castle, and has settled in to virulent American-hating. Of course, during the Bush years I can't totally blame her, but she hates *all* Americans. Very suspicious (I found her via google and emailed), very provincial, very strange.

A 3rd childhood friend never returned my couple of emails.

So I gave up. :shrug: It just made me sad. I realize people's time is precious, but I'm amazed at how different and "closed" they turned out. I'm sure I must seem different to them, but inside I feel like the same person except more open, happy and without the shyness...

[I Have A Dream]

24. I'm sorry that that happened to you, northernlights.

:hug:

:(

[northernlights]

31. thank you IHAD...what makes me saddest

is 3 bad experience in a row have left me a little afraid to try to contact anyone else.

I googled my favorite cousin from when I was growing up. We share birthdays, 2 years apart. I was stunned at what I found: he's a hedge-fund manager with his own international company! He was at Vanguard for 14 years, and rose to level of VP. He sits on several BODs. But he "dumped" me after college. I have no way of knowing what lies my mother said to him while I was away at school. She sabotaged all my family relationships. His family was the one my parents were visiting when they used to lock me out of the house...I have zero idea what she told them.

Some are good for laughs, though. Such as the former (idiotic) college boyfriend who was a concert pianist. He ended up selling stocks and was indicted by the SEC the year before I googled him :rofl:

[Sanity Claws]

32. Hi, northernlights

I'm thinking your timing was off in 2001 and 2002. The urge to reconnect really started 2008 or so. You might find a better reception if you tried to reconnect now.
Just an idea.