What were you doing 19 years ago?

[omega minimo]

DAYKEEPER'S ENERGY UPDATE
WEEK OF JULY 15-21

WHAT WERE YOU DOING 19 YEARS AGO?

This is a busy and sometimes
discordant week building up
to the Solar Eclipse of July 21.
What were you doing 19 years ago?
Did you resolve something,
or just repress it?
You may not have known at the time,
but you're finding out now.
Is it back to bite you in the behind,
or, will you ascend and transcend
to a new phase of awareness?
In either case, change is afoot,
and we have the wonderful chance
to break out of the frozen
habits of the past.

Learn more in Daykeeper's
Daily Success Guide,
http://www.daykeeperjournal.com/calendar.shtml

[conscious evolution]

1. I was learning

how to fly.
Since then,I have been learning how to fly.

[omega minimo]

2. Beautiful

I had the best weekend and weirdest Monday... saw the DayKeeper notice and seems to resonate for me..... similar issues/changes/choices as that time.

[northernlights]

3. it has been a very very intense day

I think the shift has hit the fan.

[omega minimo]

6. LOL

:grouphug:

[Kind of Blue]

4. Wow, another great question today.

It must be Self-Assessment Day. Happy Self-Assessment Day! :bounce:
After spending a lot of time traveling, in 1990, I finally decided that with all its flaws, there's no place like the United States of America, and fell in love with the country. I guess it was the beginning of my physical and spiritual grounding that led to 10years of a long slog through the recesses of my scattered mind.

[Sanity Claws]

5. What part of 1990?

I followed the link but didn't see where they talked about 19 years ago. Do you understand the reference to 1990?
I had two big things happen in 1990. If I knew the month, that might help me figure out which one the author is referring to.

[omega minimo]

7. Talking about 19 year eclipse cycles in "Eclipse Sandwich" at link

http://www.daykeeperjournal.com/boots.shtml

[Sanity Claws]

10. Thanks

I read it and see it only made one reference to 1990, without mentioning a date.

[get the red out]

8. July 21, the day after my birthday

I am sure I was miserable, that was a bad period of my life. I was still about 2 years away from my first spiritual thought since childhood at that point.

[RayOfHope]

9. 19 years ago at this time was a very rough time for me

I was thrust unexpectedly and unwelcomely into an adulthood for which I was not ready.

I'm interested to read more at the link. Thanks for sharing!

[LiberalEsto]

11. Getting ready to move to Maryland

My husband was already working at his new job in Washington, DC. I had just resigned my job, and was home in NJ packing and taking care of my daughters, then aged 6 and 3.

If anything is affecting me from that time, it might be leaving the best newspaper job I ever had.

I only had one newspaper job in Maryland, and it only lasted a few years. Now so many newspapers have closed down, and so many former journalists are struggling to find work, that I don't have any hope of working in that field again. I'm unemployed, depressed, and wondering what on earth do do with myself.

[omega minimo]

21. Write!!

:yourock:

[MorningGlow]

12. Food for thought

And funnily enough, just today I got a strange phone call that's forced me to think back to that time. I've been hired by a local community college to do a freelance writing job. Someone called last week and asked me to complete a W-9 tax form, which I did. Today I got a call from someone else saying they couldn't process it because my "name is different." Different from what? Apparently I'm in their system under my maiden name--the woman said I took a course there in 1991. BUT I NEVER TOOK A COURSE AT THE SCHOOL.
:wtf:

I've been wracking my brain all morning trying to remember what I was doing in 1990/91 and if I took a class somewhere else that was actually offered by this community college. The class was on being alert to the signs of child abuse, so it has to have something to do with the fact that I was teaching at the time. But...again...
:wtf:

It's made me realize how much I've forgotten in nearly 20 years!

Anyway, that was not a fun time in my life--I was kind of flailing, trying to get a full-time teaching job, and my favorite uncle died of cancer that May. I finished my graduate degree a semester early and went back to my grad school (in another state) to graduate shortly after he died, so nobody from the family came with me. I felt bad about the timing, and about how our family was changing; I remember when my brother graduated from law school nearly a decade earlier, and how 15 family members traveled to New York City to see him get his diploma, including my elderly grandparents. But by the time I graduated, so many of our family members were dead.

The night before graduation, I got a phone call at my friend's house where I was staying--it was my mom. "I'm coming to graduation!!" And she drove 400 miles to attend the ceremony. I thought that was so sweet of her.

I got a job in the fall, but I soon found out that I HATED teaching and quit at the end of the school year, never to return to teaching public high school again.

I wonder what this means...must meditate on this some more...

[Callie McAllie]

13. Hope this will be something good

I was kind of wracking my brain to think of what I was doing 19 years ago, and when I finally finished the math, a big "WOW" went off in my head.

19 years ago I quit my government job, packed my bags, and moved to California to go to film school in the hope of becoming a screenwriter. It was a very exciting and promising year.

Now I am back working for that same government agency, and just seriously thinking about letting go of the screenwriting dream. Even though I have kept getting little teases of recognition on that front all these years, it's just starting to feel like too much work on top of everything else I'm doing.

So maybe I'll have to rethink this as the eclipse comes about. Hmm. 19 years later I'm not so sure I have the energy for all the excitement I felt about the new challenges I set myself back then.

[omega minimo]

22. Sounds like

there's a screenplay in you.

This is a perfect time to do your own work and self publish, self promote and let your dream out into the world. :hi:

[I Have A Dream]

14. 19 years ago? Almost assuredly working day and night...

and feeling very unhappy and trapped. I was in management and in a very stressful situation work-wise. Life is better now. :)

[omega minimo]

20. "Life is better now."

:grouphug:

[catzies]

15. I was trying to get over the love of my life, who dumped me at the end of '89

To make a loooong story short, we spent most of the 90s apart, but came back together around 2003, and decided only last year that we're going to make a forever go of it.

What's been hard for me in this new phase of ours is not to be who I was 19 years ago.

Soo...very interesting. Thanks for the link.

[latebloomer]

16. Getting ready for my September wedding

Stressed and happy and excited.

PS- It's worked out pretty well!

[teenagebambam]

17. Had just moved into my Grandma's basement...

...at age 24...at my mother's request, to help take care of her, though naturally I also jumped at the chance to save money. Kind of started a period of being more dependent on my family than I probably should have been at that age - within the year, we had all (parents, grandmother, and me) moved from Ohio to Florida, and I had decided to go back to school, and soon thereafter came out of the closet, so there WERE good things that came out of it.

Not quite sure yet how it all relates to today.

[bigmonkey]

18. Momentous decision in that year.

Depending on the month, I was deciding to leave, leaving, or had just left a Buddhist religious organization. I had gotten a deep feeling that it was no longer the right place for me some years before, but this was the year that I actually left.

I'm still ambivalent about having left, I valued the place very much, and it also was somewhat abusive in practice. I left just as I was going to have to take on promulgating policies I had chafed against during my entire 8 1/2 year tenure there. I felt I couldn't do it honestly, and that sometimes the practices there were not ones I could understand or support.

So, one of the biggest years in my entire life, and a year of a big personal decision. What does that mean for now?

[omega minimo]

19. Our experiences here echo each other

Moving, changing jobs, cities, homes, schools, relationships... which happen all the time, yet, the thread shows how we were in the midst of MAJOR changes....


What were you doing 19 years ago?
Did you resolve something, or just repress it?
You may not have known at the time, but you're finding out now.
Is it back to bite you in the behind, or, will you ascend and transcend to a new phase of awareness?



Well. Hmmm. Started a new management job in an art gallery and moved into my own apartment after sharing with others, since moving to town in '87. Looked into going back to school and didn't.

Similar changes/choices going on now.

Last night I had more wild dreams, that also spoke to changes in relationships -- including with myself -- over that time.

Thank you for sharing your stories. I'm working on being more transcendent than behind-bitten "this time around."

[catzies]

24. Thanks for sharing YOUR story, omega.

Reading this whole thread & seeing where people were & where they are now was interesting.

Blessings to all wherever they are in their journey. :grouphug:

[juno jones]

23. In 1990

I moved back to IL from the west coast to be with my family while I had my oldest son.

[Manifestor_of_Light]

25. I remember this week very well in1990.

I was DESTROYED, my mother and father were DESTROYED.....

My older sister died of brain cancer on July 12, 1990. She was a vibrant young woman.

The worst day of my life was the day of her funeral, July 16, 1990. My sister's relatives, later that afternoon, told me how fat I looked in the suit I wore.....:wtf:

I was quite ill with pneumonia for about five years, and her illness and death were in the middle of that time. I was ill because my STB-Ex had nagged me and nagged me, and almost put me in an early grave. I had separated from him in 1988, and my divorce was still not final in 1990.

My parents lived with me. They took care of me when I was in and out of the hospital constantly, and took care of my sister too, across town. They weren't sure if either of their children would survive.

I survived thanks to having my lungs washed out five times in five years, and she didn't.

[Manifestor_of_Light]

26. I'm wondering what my situation means 19 years later.

My sister's death and my becoming an only child in middle age.

[omega minimo]

27. Wow.

Dear.

May I offer that one thing it "means" is you survived?

:yourock:

We don't know what's going on. It's intense times. And that one marker, the cycle of the eclipses, brought up a lot of intensity for all of us. What you're talking about is deep deep. What do you think is going on ?

:grouphug:

[Manifestor_of_Light]

37. I don't know.

Thanks for the compliment!

All I know is that I survived, she didn't, my parents are gone too now (mom in 2002, dad in 2000). So I am the only member of my family of origin still alive. I have a boyfriend and a grown daughter (who is not talking to me, and I'm not sure why, except that she thinks I'm old, and she criticizes me like her father did).

:shrug:

[omega minimo]

38. Several threads are echoing each other

about the eclipses and what many are feeling/experiencing.

A common theme is relationships and clearing out what isn't needed anymore.

:hug:

[Manifestor_of_Light]

39. having conflict with my partner over money.

We've been together 15 yrs and I truly believe he is my soulmate.

And since my only child is not speaking to me, and I have no other relatives, I feel like I have a bad life if I am not getting along with the BF.

He's mad b/c I don't have any income and he inherited his dad's estate recently. He had to pay my property taxes which are horrendous b/c we don't have a state income tax in Texas.

[Manifestor_of_Light]

40. more info: I have a bad cold/sinus infection

I think I got it at his 45th HS reunion. We went to it last weekend.

I went to the doctor today, got shots of antibiotic, benadryl and cortisone.

[northernlights]

28. ok, I've read through it

my take is that big events 3 years in the making culminate with the eclipse & what matters is not exactly what happened, but what we did with it.

20 years ago I had major, major transition. SO encouraged me to get a horse, I did for my b-day, and then he dumped me. I realized after that I would not likely ever get married or have children. I gave up on men for good. Was never asked out again and never cared again. Focussed totally on my horse, critters, career, other stuff, ever since.

Hmmm...a few months later totalled my car via black ice & telephone pole, broke hand. (In the accident, as car hit telephone pole I was very aware of my "eggshaped" self. My right hand flew out of the egg and hit the telephone pole now in the passenger area. Glass from shattered windshield cut up my hand -- there was a slight arc-shape on my hand inside of which no injury, outside of which was cut up. I've always suspected the arc showed the shape of the egg where my hand was half-inside and protected, and half outside and exposed...)

19 years ago was when I started Algiers under saddle. 6th time on him, we had an accident and I broke major joint in my index finger. I think it's also when I left my chorus and the conductor I was in love with...

[Sanity Claws]

29. Big year for me

In mid to late January 1990, I ended a serious relationship, something I had been thinking of doing for several months, at least since the prior September. I had held up on doing it because I was going through so many changes at work and didn't think I could handle the loss of a relationship at the same time I was trying to figure out the next step in my career. I finally got a moment of insight and ended the relationship suddenly by hanging up the phone one night in mid to late January. I had made up my mind and never changed it.

Around the same time, I tested the waters on self-employment and actually got office space in February 1, 1990. By April or so, I had decided to stick with self-employment. The employment change had been on my mind since at least the prior September.

Now that I think back, it seems there was a lot going on around the same time.

[MorningGlow]

34. Exes

Just occurred to me that I experienced the same thing in the spring of '90. I had been going out with a guy I swore I was destined to marry; in fact, when I clapped eyes on him (in the fall of '87), it was what you might call "love at first sight" for me. But not that stupid "gee he's hot" kind of thing--it was one of those moments (ones I had before and have had since) where the Universe smacks me on the head and says "Behold your future!" (Got one of those with Mr. MG in '96 too.)

But in the spring of '90, it was like I woke up out of a deep sleep or hypnotized state. In one big jolt I heard/felt, quite clearly, "This is DONE NOW." I broke up with him (even though he had proposed in order to keep me from leaving) and never regretted it.

I have felt both the introductory "enter a phase of your life HERE" smacks and the "leave NOW" smacks so keenly, many times in my life, that there is no question as to what has to be done. Some people (namely the recipients of my relationship-ending actions--that also includes friendships, jobs, and affiliations with organizations, not just romantic relationships) might think me cruel, but I'm not; it's just that it's SO clear to me when something is over with, and the Universe pushes me OUT with a great big shove. It's like it's much stronger than I am, so if I try to fight it, I get bowled over, so I do what the Universe commands--I don't really have a choice! :)

On edit: I noticed I got my dates screwed up. My uncle's death and my graduation (in my previous post) was in 1991. Where is my brain...

[Eurobabe]

44. Oh I am glad that I am not the only one

who experiences these gigantic boots in the ass. :rofl:

I seem to ruminate for a LOOOOOOOOONG time, before the universe decides, OK, you've had enough -- out! done! over! I am sure I have decided too in my heart, and most of the time I act on it, but damn, as I get older, it is tough. I just left a 17 year relationship this year, and granted, I have journals from 10 years ago that indicate my unhappiness and feeling unfulfilled with STBX, so now I am in a phase trying to figure out why the fuck I stayed so long? My old bugaboo no doubt --> intense need for security. I know I need to get a handle on this, because it has really pushed me into some not so great corners. So, I've really gotten immersed in astrology again, it's helped to revisit my chart and see the challenging aspects to try to make sense of this bizarre year. I've been liberated in ways that I could only dream of...

I've had some great things happen this year too, a new job and a new relationship. I guess the universe decided it was about time for that also. :hi: All I can say, is wow, it's been powerful and deep.

[MorningGlow]

47. Security is great...until it's not, right?

:rofl:

Welcome to the ASAH Personal Upheaval Club! There seem to be quite a few of us! :hi:

Your post reminds me of the months before I quit my last full-time job (in '07). My editor, with whom I'd never gotten along, was giving me my yearly review. As usual, nothing I did was good enough for him (even though I received high praise from many other important people), and my performance was only "so so", according to him. :P

I had heard rumors that my job was changing--indeed, he had been systematically taking away all the interesting parts of my job, leaving me with a whole lot of nothing to do except one task that was tedious (that he probably didn't want to do himself)--and I asked him what was going on. Instead of giving me a straight answer, HE asked ME what I wanted out of my job--what it would be like if I could design it to my specifications. And I heard myself answer, "I want it to go back to the way it had been. I want to do the job I was hired to do." But it sounded so WHINY and NEEDY, just like someone begging their SO not to break up with them.

He just looked at me with a stony, blank face. And right then I knew I was toast.

Sure enough, the job started to blow chunks right away, in a BIG way, and I quit about six months after that. And it was the best thing I'd ever done, professionally.

I think one of the biggest things that hobbles us is our (humans') belief that everything is supposed to last forever--jobs, relationships, etc.--and if something ends, it means we're failures. That is so NOT true. Everything has its phase, and we're wiser to let it go instead of fighting to hang onto it, as long as we're reading the signs right.

There's that hackneyed saying "Whenever God closes a door, he opens a window," but it's true in the sense that when we're being dragged away from something, it's because something new is waiting to start.

[Sanity Claws]

30. July 22, 1990 eclipse

I decided to do some research on the date of the 1990 eclipse that coincides with the one later this month.
According to Cafe Astrology, "Solar eclipses occurred at approximately the same degree as this July 2009 eclipse on July 20, 1963; July 22, 1971; July 20, 1982; and July 22, 1990."
http://www.cafeastrology.com/lunationseclipses.html

July and the second half of 1990 were not that big for me. It was a continuation of changes that went into effect back in January. I don't recall the other dates being important for me either.
What about you?

[catzies]

31. Was 1990 the year the solar eclipse was total, & visible on the West Coast?

I forgot that was 1990!

The day of the eclipse was the day my beloved grandmother (for whom I was named) passed.

:wow:

[Sanity Claws]

32. July 1990 eclipse visible over Finland and Soviet Union

according to my research, not the US West Coast.
There was an eclipse in January 1990 but that was visible over the South Atlantic and Antarctic.

[omega minimo]

35. It was visible from Hawaii

[Delphinus]

33. That was another life.

I hope I've come a long way since then ...when you say 1990, I was in the midst of crisis and mental and emotional deterioration. I've come through the dark night (one of many) and have (hopefully) healed.

[I Have A Dream]

36. ...

:hug:

[omega minimo]

41. More daily info from Daykeeper leading up to Solar Eclipse New Moon Tuesday

WEDNESDAY JULY 15

Tensions rise and fall in the wee hours as the Moon at 23°03' Aries makes its Last Quarter (waning) square to the Sun at 2:53 am. A deeper understanding of issues and their resolution is possible in the coming week as Moon squares Mercury soon after. As we rise, the Moon weaves harmony into our lives with sextiles to Chiron, Jupiter, and Neptune; however Mercury's quincunxes to them pepper the day, presenting a puzzling conundrum as we try to reconcile personal needs with transpersonal dreams. At 8:08 am the sextile to Neptune brings on the Moon's void period, which ends when she enters Taurus at 3:30 pm. This gives us most of the day to play catch-up on unfinished projects and activities. The Last Quarter lunar event establishes our focus for the coming week, on tying up loose ends from the past six months of activity. We can take stock of how well we've made use of our resources and prepare for the new beginning that lies just around the corner on the Solar Eclipse New Moon.

This strong eclipse opposes the Pluto of the US chart with a two-degree orb, highlighting the feelings of revolution against the system and asserting the rights of the people to self-governance. Whether this is in contrast to what is happening in Iran or some other nation, or stimulated purely by domestic conditions, people in the US will be feeling very deeply the call to freedom and a return to the energy that inspired the formation of the nation. Multiple contacts with other planets in the US chart reinforce this mood.

In Washington DC, the lunation occurs at 5:53 am, rendering 21 Cancer rising and the Sun and Mercury conjunct just below the Ascendant. Although it is a time of great bounty in a nation with so much agricultural wealth, the rot at the heart of the economy is undermining the nation's self-image and prolonging the recession. Deep problems continue to plague manufacturing and services, the sources of the nation's real wealth, and health care reform is not meeting public expectations. Communications with "outlaw" foreign powers prove difficult, and even break down. However, Congress gets it right on a few legislative matters and is able to take significant steps toward passing measures for health care reform and economic support to those most deeply affected by the current economic situation.

The Sabian Symbol for 24 Aries is, "Blown inward by the wind, the curtains of an open window take the shape of a cornucopia." We are resilient, and abundance can come to us in many ways if we open our eyes to all possibilities by shedding our expectations. Let the winds of the present brush away our blinders so we can see what is possible. The US has its own economic solutions right before it. If it is obvious that the government can't or won't do everything that we think it should, we can fill that vacuum with our own enterprise. The universe is mysterious in the ways that it provides for us. We need not be the victim of society's weaknesses.

THURSDAY JULY 16

Moon in Taurus makes a day-long dive toward a trine to Saturn, bringing unimpeded productivity to our activities. Mercury trines Uranus to bring ingenuity and a focus on fulfilling our big-picture goals.

FRIDAY JULY 17

The Sun reaches its waxing quincunxes with Chiron-Jupiter-Neptune, bringing to a head our feelings of confusion and ambiguity. The Moon is active just before it enters its void-of-course period at 1:48 pm, sextiling the Sun and squaring the Aquarian triple conjunction. Still in Taurus, this gives a grounding perspective to our dilemmas, which we can use to adjust our direction to achieve our evolving goals. Finishing on a sextile to Uranus, the Moon's void period in Taurus can still be useful if you wish to take action on any matter. The Moon enters Gemini at 7:41 pm to add conviviality to our weekend engagements. Mercury also enters a new sign when it goes into Leo at 4:08 pm, bringing motivating optimism to our thoughts. A Moon sextile to Mercury finishes the day, allowing us to blend head and heart.

SATURDAY JULY 18

Mercury makes its waning quincunx to Pluto, taking us into a review of our learning process over the past two months. How much did you learn about life and change? The Gemini Moon conjoins Mars and Venus today, bringing back some of the feelings of union from the past couple of months. A Sun trine to Uranus adds spunk and spontaneity to our responses to life. We feel like anything can happen—we could be rescued from our circumstances by fate (and our own efforts) at any moment. We can see examples of such miracles all around!

SUNDAY JULY 19

The Moon in Gemini reaches its squares to Saturn and Uranus today, with a juicy slice of trine in between. The square to Saturn occurs in the wee hours, troubling our dreams but contributing to active problem-solving. All is at rest until midday, when the Moon makes a blissful trine to Chiron-Jupiter-Neptune to lift up our hearts. The Moon goes void of course when it squares Uranus at 3:12 pm, leaving a crackle in the air as we enter a time of rest and sensitivity to the inner realms. The Moon enters Cancer at 8:51 pm and soon thereafter opposes Pluto, adding emotional revelation to our evening experiences.

MONDAY JULY 20

The Moon in Cancer gives a sense of security and internal harmony as it heads toward tomorrow's Solar Eclipse New Moon. Today's sole contact, Mercury sextile Mars, brings benefits when we indulge our curiosity. We can turn thought into action with good results

[liberalmuse]

42. Taking care of my almost 1-year-old daughter, and struggling.

And living in Las Cruces, NM (My heart will forever be in New Mexico). I just started becoming politically aware. Having a child will do that to some. :)

[Eurobabe]

43. Making some very bad life decisions

Wasting time. Things got better in late 1990-early 1991 when I decided to concentrate on ME, go back and get my Bachelor's and then Master's degree.

[Dora]

45. I was getting deeper into a relationship I knew I should leave.

That relationship did end after a couple of years, but it was a bad time for me.

19 years later I find myself in a troubled marriage and wondering what kind of crazy I am.

[FirstLight]

46. It's hard to think about where I was at 20

Much of my life following High School from 18-22 was just a blur of partying and not thinking about the future...

I know in mid 1990 my high school sweetheart broke up with me for the last time - he told me later it was because he knew I was always going to be a partyier and he didn't want to be around to see what happened to me...

I know by the end of 1990 i had actually managed to get into a CSU school...and my parents ruined my chances at financial aid by claiming me as a dependent...even though I had lived with my sister (in the family house, they had her move back in to 'watch' me because they couldn't take my antics anymore and they left town for retirement bliss in Oct 89...the DAY of the Loma Prieta quake!) I don't think I found out that I was screwn with school till early 91...and that made me decide to just throw everything away and "run away" with a really BAD character and do drugs and sleep on floors and couches of crank-houses with really bad people ( a phase in my life I am REALLY ashamed of, and it set the stage for believeing I was white trash for years...hmmm...seem to be coming out of that NOW, finally)
so 1990 was the time before the FALL for me...and I blindly rushed into it because I refused to think of consequences...

wow....what does that mean NOW? am I finally getting BACK on track ? were the last 19 years a 'spiritual/karmic detour" of sorts?

i'll have to think on this some more...any input is welcome!

[northernlights]

48. Americans With Disabilities Act signed

picked up front:

http://www.democraticunderground.com/discuss/duboard.php?az=view_all&address=103x466376

Time to move forward to health care for all :D

[Sanity Claws]

49. The employment section of ADA has turned into a joke

The statute has been narrowly defined and hardly anyone fits within its protection.
In fact, all employment statutes have been so narrowly defined over the past 10 to 15 that they really have almost no teeth.

Time to get of my soapbox.