Okay, where's Rick? Eclipse and fallout

[Missy Vixen]

Hey everyone,

I don't know if you're experiencing changes as the result of the recent eclipses, but sheesh, it's raining down here.

My husband is still looking for a job. To say that I am scared is an understatement. We have roughly four months of UI left, we're still waiting on the "homeowner bailout" paperwork, and I just keep telling myself to breathe. I know I have already asked this group for a lot, but he got a call this morning from a recruiter trying to fill a contracting job. If you would PLEASE think good thoughts for us, I would be VERY appreciative.

Remember when we were all discussing the changes that were coming as the result of the recent celestial activity? I just got off the phone with one of our buddies. He and his wife are splitting up. I had NO idea. (He says it's been coming for two years now.) One of my girlfriends is about to ring the curtain down on her relationship of four years. Again, everything's intensified in about the last month. I finally ended a relationship that should have ended last summer. I remember Rick talking about this, and thinking to myself, "That's not really going to happen, is it?"

So, what's going on with everyone else? I'm curious.

Again, thank you for all your kindness to me and my family, and I hope it comes back to you a thousandfold.

-MV

[ricochetastroman]

1. Here I is!

Listen, this energy is intense and very real but IT DOES NOT MEAN SOME DARTHVADIAN force out there is going to break up your marriage.

What is happening is this:

Stuff you've pushed under the rug is getting exposed? (Eh Gov. Sanford?)
Skeletons your crammed back into your closet are causing a pile-up and are bulging to get out.

PLUTO IS ABOUT PURITY. Either purify your relationship or watch PLUTO EXPEDITE the decay of same.

Pluto is simple: While it's been "away", it let's you put up with things for a long time, then when it "hits", it mirrors a FEELING inside of you where you just can't take it anymore. If your relationship is fine, YOU HAVE NOTHING TO WORRY ABOUT. Pluto wants you to openly share your passions with each other. And to become powerful REAL influences on each other with REAL intimacy,

if not

get out.

Thats Pluto. But, it won't be BS'ed, that's what has happened to your friends.

We say, "One day, it's gonna get you." That "one day" is mapped out by the planets. That simple.

[Missy Vixen]

2. I have to say that I have really appreciated your comments

and continue to do so.

I am just flat-out amazed at what's going on here. Let's face it, I don't think anyone can be married for any duration of time and not want to keep some things to oneself. I'm not talking about cheating. I'm talking about the parts of ourselves we'd prefer not to share. At the same time, one of the more graphic lessons learned in marriage, any marriage, is that both parties have to be truthful with each other, and both parties have to want the relationship to work.

I'm seeing this up-close and personal -- not just at our house, but amongst our friends.

The relationship that blew up in my life is a woman I've been working with for awhile. I'm an author. We have critique partners. She and I do not get along on a personal level. Instead of finding someone I'm a little more compatible with, I thought I could make it work. Nope.

Again, thank you so much. I really appreciate your sharing your insights with all of us.

:hug:
-MV

[MorningGlow]

6. That works for my situation, Rick

Although Mr. MG and I do love one another, we don't see eye to eye on a lot of things. Plus I do things that irritate the sh*t out of him, and he me. These are not little things; they are very big things.

I have subjugated a lot of my needs and desires to make our marriage work, and I know he's done the same. I have given up all my friends, spend less time with my family, don't have people over to the house, live in a house that's ripped up until he "gets around to" the renovations, left behind my interest in performing (theater and music), given up going out to movies, the theater, and to hear live music, etc. etc. etc. He has given up his desire to live an isolated life out in the country with no neighbors, given up seriously intense long-distance bike riding and camping, etc. etc. etc.

For 11 years we have been able to ignore these things. All of a sudden we can't. Well, I know *I* can't. He's still trying to. I spend every day on the verge of tears and every night crying as silently as possible as I try to work all this out. I'm being PUSHED; I can feel it. "Handle it", the Universe says. And I get the feeling if I don't, IT will. As I noted in my thread about angels, we owe it to ourselves and our son to go to counseling. And yet I feel like I can't make those phone calls yet, like it's not time. Is this something that will bust clear after the next eclipse? (Or am I just dragging my heels? ;) )

[Delphinus]

7. Excellent description of Pluto's workings.

I read the book someone here recommended, Soul Sick Nation, and that's pretty much how she described it too.

Now, if I can only do some soul searching and understand how it's fitting into *my* life and what's going on (or not), things might be at least understandable. I rely heavily on Victor Frankl's statement: we can endure almost anything if we only know why.

[Eurobabe]

11. Thanks for posting that, it's available limited preview on Google Reader.

Google books: http://books.google.com/books?id=Fc4COetEiPEC&lpg=PP1&dq=soul%20sick%20nation&pg=PA2

[Delphinus]

30. I've never heard of Google Reader.

Thanks for the link and the knowledge!

[Eurobabe]

12. Wow, I am astounded.

So Pluto cleared away all the detritus of my 17 year sham of a marriage? :wow:

I love what you have written about Pluto on this thread. It is so true. I've gotten back into my astrology after a long hiatus, trying to make heads or tails of WTF is going on in my personal life since last summer.

[ricochetastroman]

14. Oh, it ain't done.

Briefly, when I talk to folks, I map out PL in 4 stages in general.
They kinda go along at the same time.

1. As it approaches, denial
2. When it "hits", "Oh, hell, I REALLY DO Have to do something now"
3. It's all dim because of the smoke everywhere around me, but I'm starting to LET GO OF OLD DEAD STUFF THAT'S BEEN DEAD ONLY I WOULDN'T BURY IT BEFORE. Now, I'm starting to see some light.
4. It's kinda gone, now I can ride the new wave to success before I couldn't ride anything because I was busy hanging on to the pier.
(Old stuff that we knew kept us from our strength.)

Now, you power is arriving or has arrived, that's what it means.

I assure you, you have taken the right step... read up on it.
It's spoken of all over the place.

the very best of luck to you!

[Eurobabe]

16. So I do a chart comparison

online, just because I was on Astro.com last night, you know a freebie, short report - and I was astounded, once again, by what I read re: the ended relationship.

It said: The unpredictable nature of your relationship with XXXX may sometimes be threatening to your need for stability and continuity in love. But there is also a strong urge toward communication (problem is, it was always ME who was trying to communicate!) Your Relationship and Yourself --> An unpredictable and disruptive element in your relationship could have a deeply disturbing effect on you, causing a lot of inexplicable anxiety. :wow:

I wish I had read something like that years ago, obviously I had "something" to learn from the partnership (and I use that term loosely, because it was pretty much me always giving to him emotionally, I ended up feeling drained and just wanted out of it.)

The prognosis for my new relationship is much better, there is alot of communication and emotion between us, I would characterize it as a more normal exchange bewteen TWO adults. Finally! :hi:

[lildreamer316]

3. Yes,;getting a decent amount of stuff here.

First, I am sending a bunch of husband-getting-job vibes to you, as my husband is finally getting ready to start work next Thursday after being out of steady employment since last September (or therabouts). There is hope!! Don't give up.

I'm exactly where you are when it comes to finances; I posted today in the lounge about panicking. I'm a bit calmer now, but I won't rest easy until the end of the month, if then. And by 'rest easy'; I mean know that the electricity isn't going to be shut off. You know how it is.

Relationships? Mine is great, others seem to be having conflict. One friend did just break up after two years.

I'm kinda excited to see what next week brings, as nervous as I am.

Best of luck!!!

[elleng]

4. No time to discuss it all!

:) :-(

[Eurobabe]

13. hey you!

how are you? :hug:

[demgrrrll]

5. Rick there was a group of people that I was enmeshed with

and very recently I said to myself this just isn't worth it. Just that simple. Not worth it. I felt a sense of complete peace. I thought I was trying to help but then I realized that fear would always win with this group and I have other things to do. Is that it?

[ricochetastroman]

8. There is no IT

per se.

Since PL went into Capricorn 1/25/08 it means WE'RE ALL TIRED OF FUC*ING around.
It's that simple.
PL is tired of F'ing with us
and we're tired of F'ing with relationships that AREN'T REALLY RELATIONSHIPS.

It's that simple.

PL is a bitch, but she's simple.
You can't bluff PL, he/she see's thru everything.

Yes, you departure from this unfulfilling group is VERY VERY common according to my clients.
FOllow your heart, to hell with the ramifications, that's PL

good luck, sounds like you're on the right track

These Cancer eclipses are hitting you hard this month.
That means it's time for INSIGHT! That's great! Eclipses shine the light on "hidden" matters.
They've only been hidden because we're too afraid to look directly at the truth. A habit that is strong with Cancers.

Your chart is much more than cancer, very scorpionic and leonine

[demgrrrll]

9. Thanks so much. There have been startling revelations about an issue

It is like someone shining a big light on hidden issues. It is so amazing, unbelievable really, but when you put it in those words everything seems to make sense.

[ricochetastroman]

10. I'm going to tell you a secret. A big secret.

I have learned over and over and over again.

Almost EVERY TIME someone, like a politician or the "C" house comes under question during eclipses or while they're forming - they're almost ALWAYS guilty.

Almost always.

The eclipse IS the shining light of what you speak.

Just sit back and watch the show.

AND IF you have something to hide, don't even think of hiding it then.

Maybe I'm wrong, but's that's why I've seen. :puffpiece:

[demgrrrll]

15. First of all I want to thank you for responding to my questions.

I really appreciate your insights.

[northernlights]

17. ok, I was doing really, really well over the weekend

working through a deep, deep wound following a consultation with Richochet. I was prepared to post about it last evening, just taking care of business during the day, and then....

T O T A L M E L T D O W N

:nuke: last night into this morning.

I mean complete, and total meltdown. About where I am right now. Not understanding how I got here. No idea how I'm going to get out. Feeling hopeless, hopeless, hopeless...All the work I've done down the drain. Everything falling apart and no way to put it back together on the one hand, or wash it away and start anew on the other. So desperately in need of a

M I R A C L E.

[OneGrassRoot]

18. Oh, northernlights.....

I SOOOOOOOO pray you get that miracle!!!!!!

You deserve it!!! I join you in calling it forth for you, you claiming it and manifesting it with gratitude and joy!!!!

AHO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

And so It Is.


:hug: :hug: :hug:

[I Have A Dream]

19. I'm so sorry, northernlights. I'm praying with you.

I'm asking for grace for you and your situation.

(This or something better for the highest good of all involved.)

:hug:

[Delphinus]

20. Oh, my friend,

:hug: I feel for you.

May you garner strength from all of us who love and support you here and may a miracle occur for you now.

Yesterday I was having a grand day, messages showing up helping me - then I take a short break and it seems like something shifted back. You're not alone.

[omega minimo]

21. I felt that sort of energy last afternoon/evening... rested, read Buddhism, took a nap...

not to minimize whatever you're going through. It seemed a very big ball of neurotic meltdown was in the air. Under the circumstances, I didn't assume it was "just me......." Anyone else?

I hope you are all right. We're going through this together. Many of the threads and posts echo each other in how it's playing out in our lives. :grouphug:

[ricochetastroman]

22. Hi Northern

I'm so sorry you're experiencing a "meltdown." I know the dark night of the soul. I truly believe you will be fine.
This solar eclipse tonight at 29 Cancer has many people very moody. I know it can really hurt to dig up old crap.
I feel it is just the start of the healing process. That old "crap" gets stuck way back there in all of us and gets
seemingly "safely" tucked away until it gets stirred up again. I feel you have had the GOOD KARMA of having had it
stirred up again and it will lead to healing.

I truly hope the best for you and send you God's light and healing.

Be well.

[amitten]

29. Digging up old crap.

I dug mine up today. Been hurting me for a couple of months.

I threw it out the window. Poof--gone, like magic.

The crap is gone, my mojo is back, and I'm living in the here and now. :)

[ricochetastroman]

32. Good for you!

gimme some of your magic, will ya?

[amitten]

33. You got it all, baby doll! :)

I'm just realizing that while I'm stressin', life itself has been passing me by. Minutes and hours never to return, wasted not by life but by MY reaction to life.

The past is gone and the future is an illusion. All we have is now now now. And if *now* is okay and you're not dying or on fire, it's all good.

Plus, life is short and we're all gonna die fairly soon all things considered, so might as well enjoy what's left. :P

(Hope I can keep this mindset. The Sun entering Leo hasn't hurt...)

[northernlights]

23. a little improvement late this morning

in my attempts at manifesting or birthing or whatever I'm doing (to for with) the next stage of my life.

I moved from accepting a crappy job 15 miles away yesterday, which depressed me to no end, to accepting a slightly less crappy job 4 miles away today, which eased my worst fears. I think (hope) my new situation whatever it may be is just not quite ready to manifest, and these offers are just stepping stones to keep me busy so I don't panic about running out of moolah and not having hay for the horses...

Or is it that the eclipse energy is turning it all into high drama? :grouphug:

I ran out of bird cookies for Cody Carrottops a few weeks ago -- she gets a cookie piece at bedtime and has for 15 years or so. I still had a baggie of frozen cherries from DC, so have been giving her a microwaved cherry instead. The night before last I saw I was down to the last cherry, and still hadn't seen them appear in the supermarket. And yesterday, there they were. She had her last frozen cherry last night and will have her first fresh tonight.

I started my last baggie of frozen berries from my garden this morning. Just a few minutes ago I picked one overflowing handful of my first fresh raspberries of this season. So my breakfast cereal will continue to be well-berried without interruption.

I see small things manifesting perfectly in time all around me. But I still can't seem to trust the big ones to come through. They always have before. Maybe it's because for the small things I know what is coming. I know the cherries will be back. I see the raspberries forming on the canes. Whereas with the big stuff, I have no clue what is coming. I wish I could peek ahead to the next chapter, just to be sure...

[MorningGlow]

24. The message I got when I read your first post, NL, was "ride it out"

Surf the wave; don't let it drag you under. You'll go under if you fight it, so just float, surf, coast--whatever image resonates with you. This is only a small moment in a much bigger event...I'm seeing that wave roll again. Got your boogie board handy? Be well, NL. I'm pulling for you. :hug:

[JanusAscending]

28. Everything is going to be alright.

I was in the pet store yesterday to get some dog food for my fur baby and had a meltdown in the store when the clerk wouldn't take my check,and had I to walk out. Things are better today for me. I found out I qualify for the new food stamp program, and I also am going on title 19.
Hang on tight!! JA

[Missy Vixen]

34. northernlights, I'm thinking of you

I also get the feeling that things will be fine. In the meantime, I am sending warm thoughts and blessings to you.

:hug:

[lildreamer316]

26. I had the EXACT same thing happen.

I was so upset yesterday afternoon and evening that I literally shook from the nerves.I was completely emotionally exhausted.
I went to bed and just tried to ride it out. I slept a lot today, but I feel much better.

We, too, need a miracle, but I think we will be ok.

Lots of this to you::hug: :hug: :hug: :hug:

[northernlights]

27. I napped this afternoon

to native american flute. never fell asleep, but revived. Yes, emotional exhaustion.

:hug: :hug: :hug:

[eilen]

25. Congrats on the job!!!!!

I hope things continue in this vein for you and your family.

[Blue_Roses]

31. talk about fallout...

our air conditioner went out yesterday and we spent the night sweating--literally. Hopefully, today will be much better:(